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You knew that you were an accomplice to our crime. We lied. To him. To each other, to ourselves. We cheated. You knew it wasn’t fair and yet you put the blame on me.
When you heart broke which was bound to happen you ensured I suffered too. In each and every sense, you were a shitty partner.
» Posted By paridhirustogi On 10.08.2014 @ 10:16 am
I don’t think you felt sorry about breaking my heart. I think you think I deserved it. As unaware as I was of how much I loved you, you were just as unaware of how much your love for me was changing into a desire to maim my soul.
I am not sorry that we happened though. For whatever it was worth, even the feeling of hurt sometimes matters more than no feelings at all.
» Posted By paridhirustogi On 10.06.2014 @ 12:24 pm
Maybe he is a terrible person. You said it yourself. He never did love you.
But we really did have something special. It was true love. We were soul mates.
Were you? Why then did he leave?
He had places to be.
» Posted By paridhirustogi On 06.14.2014 @ 1:58 am
I never wanted to say goodbye. But moments are shorter when we wished they’d never end. I stood there, not wanting to leave feeling pushed away ever second.
Turns out I was being pushed away. The Captain no longer wanted to be mine.
» Posted By paridhirustogi On 05.07.2014 @ 7:01 am
Life your life that way, they say. And that way was insane. I listened in fear of being shunned. So I shunned away my dreams and desires instead.
» Posted By paridhirustogi On 01.14.2014 @ 6:36 am
It’s alright, bud. Hang in there. Be a trooper.
I know the boys call you gay. And the girls call you pansy. I know and you know that they’re not wrong. But it’s okay. You are different. It’s allowed.
It’s unfair and it’s wrong. I know and you know. And you know what? They know it too.
» Posted By paridhirustogi On 01.13.2014 @ 10:58 am
Alcohol soothes the pain like balm. Just a sip more and the pain reduces and you’re less tired and more unaware. One more sip till the pain is forgotten and all that’s left is emptiness.
You forget. I forget. We erase. Get erased. Disappearing as ice does in a warm glass of bourbon.
» Posted By paridhirustogi On 01.10.2014 @ 7:46 am
Sickness sucks. The indignities of disease are easy to get used to because they occur so slowly. Dying of illness is a very slow process. Nothing like a gun shot.
It takes days and years and an entire lifetime to get so sick that you die. And then you do and it doesn’t matter.
» Posted By paridhirustogi On 01.09.2014 @ 9:59 am
The chip was implanted in my mind the first time you spoke to me. I always thought you were very cute. But when we spoke to me, the very first time, I knew this was love.
What else could it have been?
When you left, my brain would often go back in time and track your memories down. Sounds and smells and silence would remind me of you.
» Posted By paridhirustogi On 01.07.2014 @ 3:48 am
The love affair was doomed beforehand. Even before they kissed the first time, it was obvious that what had happened couldn’t disappear.
That’s the thing about love, rather about acting out when in love. The things that seem so illicit and hot then make no sense in the light of day and even lesser sense every day hence.
» Posted By paridhirustogi On 12.26.2013 @ 8:24 am
I wish for the comfort of an armchair in my old age. A luxury I’m too poor to afford. I would love to curl up on it with a blanket and wait till my breathing slowing stops and all that is left is stagnant air in my lungs.
I want to grow old and die old. A luxury I am too poor to accept.
» Posted By paridhirustogi On 11.29.2013 @ 7:55 am
They poured from the sky. One day. And they never stopped after that.
Kilo by kilo. Millions of them, blotting out the blue expanse of air behind them. They fell like sponge from above.
They fell till one could no longer made lemonade of them.
» Posted By paridhirustogi On 11.02.2013 @ 11:57 am
And the tears dissolved into her skin; saline bullets that cracked her esteem. And memories crosshatched became to come undone. Smells began to rot and pictures began to convert to pixels.
Their life together fell apart in a process and with it, her breath and being.
» Posted By paridhirustogi On 05.02.2013 @ 12:29 am
The smell of absence attracted me more than the lure of homeliness. I need to leave. There is nothing more left for me here. I’m trapped and I will die bitter here.
I need to leave. To the lands which remain unknown, much further away from here. I need to leave today more than I needed to yesterday.
» Posted By paridhirustogi On 04.14.2013 @ 2:14 am
We were hiding in the trench below the army base. I could feel arms digging through my vest into my guts and my ribs.
Above the catacomb we rested in, I could hear airplanes and bombs and screams and silence.
The silence in the trench, leave the shallow voices of our discordant breaths is what terrified me the most.
» Posted By paridhirustogi On 04.09.2013 @ 12:30 am
He claimed my heart. I claimed his. I claimed his best friend’s heart too. He claimed my heart back. My heart was split. I was choking.
I was claimed by love. Till he left; the one I loved. After that, I was claimed solely by sadness.
» Posted By paridhirustogi On 02.06.2013 @ 10:49 pm
She said, I do. He said his vows. They kissed chastely in front of 200 people. The bride was blushing pink. The groom was adorning black.
They said they would spend their lives together. Save each other each time they faced trouble. Be there whenever they needed them.
And then they walked away from each other, vows shattered. Esteems hurt.
» Posted By paridhirustogi On 02.04.2013 @ 11:09 pm
Another brick on the wall. Another one fell down. Another shove. One more push. The wall fell apart.
The grimy faces on the other side peered into my eyes. Undressing me. In an attempt to understand my reasons and my history.
I stood there as the grovel rained down around me. And smiled cause I was still alive.
» Posted By paridhirustogi On 02.03.2013 @ 8:52 pm
It pointed north, though his heart told him what he really wanted, he was leaving behind. He wanted to move towards the mountains, away from her and her smile. Away from her smell and her essence. Away from everything that wanted him to become a better man.
He saw the compass once again, to check and kept moving on.
» Posted By paridhirustogi On 01.13.2013 @ 4:41 am
Her body was lithe and she moved gracefully. Her hair was black, curly and heavy on her shoulders. She walked across him, without a glance. She kept walking. He kept looking till she moved out of his sight.
It was love at first sight. He wanted her to be his.
» Posted By paridhirustogi On 01.11.2013 @ 6:35 am
Experience life as though you love it. These are the only words I told my son as I lay on my death bed.
You will hate it at times and want to give up. But love it for each second makes you the man you are today. Experience, my son without fear of death.
For death, it shall follow.
» Posted By paridhirustogi On 01.06.2013 @ 2:44 am
It is said the way you’re feeling affects your behaviour. If at first, you feel sad and ask the lord for help but nothing goes your way, it is said that rash decisions are made.
It is also said that these decisions cannot be undone. Once you kill a man, his blood will be on your hands, however much soap you use, even detergent.
» Posted By paridhirustogi On 01.05.2013 @ 7:14 am
Some things can’t be measured. The things that can never measure up. The amount of money you have is never up. The amount that someone loves you cannot be measured.
The obstacles one is willing to cross for you. The sacrifices one is willing to make doesn’t equate to a numerical.
» Posted By paridhirustogi On 01.03.2013 @ 12:56 am
The female lay battered on the ground. She was bleeding. She was hurt. She was naked.
She whimpered in pain as people watched her. Unmoving.
Everyone knew what happened but because she was an unclaimed female, no one did a thing. She lay there.
Some felt bad. Some didn’t feel a thing.
» Posted By paridhirustogi On 01.01.2013 @ 5:28 am
Are you sure we’re okay?
Yes. We are.. You’re my best friend.
I love you more but you don’t take my calls anymore. You hang out with that senior all the time? Is there something you want to tell me?
I’m telling you that we’re fine. Can you stop bugging me?
» Posted By paridhirustogi On 12.31.2012 @ 7:36 am
The officers all milled around the body on the ground. It lay there, stone cold and rigid. An arm bent out of shape, digging into the ground below. They looked on, more and more of them approaching the statue of flesh and bone.
The stared as though they’d never seen a dead man before. Some touched his body. Some prayed. Some thanked the Gods for sparing their lives.
» Posted By paridhirustogi On 12.30.2012 @ 1:56 am
The ground was wet. The rain kept pouring. The soil was opening up. Worms were coming out. Flowers were wilting. Time was passing by.
Wolves were howling. The night darkening around me. The breeze kept blowing. The leaves kept falling. Plants kept growing.
Life kept going on.
» Posted By paridhirustogi On 12.29.2012 @ 4:41 am
The process is simple. You open the chest with one clean incision. You peel open the heart, muscle by muscle. Simply, from inside you take out the little being who lives there, who has a house there with you. You take the creature out and through this simple procedure, you heal the once broken heart.
» Posted By paridhirustogi On 12.24.2012 @ 11:12 pm
Maybe its the season of joy, maybe its not.
Maybe we’ll find the answers we once sought.
We could have been looking at the sun,
We could have had a season full of fun.
Alas! The weather is just as it is,
On my cheek I feel a frigid kiss. :)
» Posted By paridhirustogi On 12.21.2012 @ 6:44 am
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I was presented with a talisman the day I was born. It was a little name no one else knew and for the rest of my life I carried it with me. Each time the word was uttered, I was reminded that I was different. In a world full of people, I was still unique.
The day I was presented that talisman, was the day my life changed forever.
» Posted By paridhirustogi On 12.11.2012 @ 2:39 am