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He was the devil. He stole things from you that you never knew could be taken. But he never lied. He told you the first night you met him, how he would steal your heart, your life, your sanity, your soul. So you can’t help but wonder, did he really steal it or did you give it to him?
» Posted By lilldeh On 09.30.2013 @ 5:39 pm
You tried to bound me into these 4 walls, this square and I guess I kind of let you. And maybe thats why you stopped, just completely stopped. Because I stopped being me so, you stopped being you. It makes sense. I warned you thought, I told you. I’m not good at relationships, I become this weird version of myself. You didn’t listen and wanted me anyway. I guess I’m just trying to figure out who’s fault this is, mine or yours.
» Posted By lilldeh On 11.23.2012 @ 8:42 pm
He believed in art and she believed in science. Thats where the disparity in their love grew from.
» Posted By lilldeh On 11.13.2012 @ 11:26 am
He spent the entire night avoiding me and staring at me from across the room. When I finally corned him and drunkly demanded to know why he decided to kiss me and then avoid me, he put his hand on my cheek and smiled. He told me he liked me, too much and I was damaged. But that was okay, he understood. He told me I was too damaged and afraid for what we could do together, what we could be. So he was going to wait until I had fucked some boys, drank too many glasses of wine, cried over a toilet and broken some hearts. He was going to wait until I was okay and then he would kiss me, again. He told me I was too damaged for us to be together and he wanted me more than life and he would wait for me, wait until I could do this and not ruin it. I started at him, he kissed my cheek and walked out of the room and back to the party where he continued to leave stare at me and avoid me.
» Posted By lilldeh On 11.10.2012 @ 2:22 pm
The first time you kissed me was on those steps. That was a year ago. Yesterday you cried to me on those steps and apologized.
» Posted By lilldeh On 11.01.2012 @ 8:54 pm
We never went anywhere on that old sailboat but we sure did make love on it.
» Posted By lilldeh On 10.24.2012 @ 2:26 pm
Its there, I promise. I have a heart, you just can’t see it. Its behind those walls, nice and safe.
» Posted By lilldeh On 10.04.2012 @ 6:53 pm
I missed them completely, the signs. The signs that it’s over, its coming to a close. I was completely blindsided by it. And fuck did that hurt. Now I’m happy and I think everything is a sign. I think everything is the beginning of the end, that this will be the last moment I’ll be happy because the next time I blink, it will all be over. He’s being patient and good but I’m pushing him away. I’m just so afraid of the fall, the drop, the impact of the cold ground against my warm, delicate heart.
» Posted By lilldeh On 10.01.2012 @ 10:28 pm
These affairs of the heart, are making me nauseous.
» Posted By lilldeh On 09.25.2012 @ 7:17 pm
They said this is how these things usually begin. With nausea and a heavy heart, but it gets better. Love eventually feels good they said.
» Posted By lilldeh On 09.20.2012 @ 11:59 am
This. What ever it is, well it fucking sucks. I don’t think most people will ever feel the feelings I do and I’m so tempted to flush them out with anything, absolutely anything that will make them go away. But I’m so afraid of not being able to feel, being numb. Because at least while feeling this, these things, I know I’m alive. But when you’re numb, well that’s something entirely different.
» Posted By lilldeh On 09.17.2012 @ 4:14 am
It’s like my body was a box of fuses and his words were the match. We never stood a chance.
» Posted By lilldeh On 07.24.2012 @ 9:48 am
Why is it that dream catcher stop working when we grow up, it seems like those are time we need them the most.
» Posted By lilldeh On 03.28.2012 @ 11:14 am
It never about the relationship ending or the heart being broken, it’s about the loss. The pure and raw feeling of not having something that once was a very essence part of you.
» Posted By lilldeh On 02.24.2012 @ 10:47 am
It is a medical fact that a heart is unbreakable. I guess he took that as a challenge.
» Posted By lilldeh On 02.22.2012 @ 12:16 pm
I first saw you cry in the back of an art gallery. You held your head between your legs and choked on the tears that rolled down your face. Your eyes were red and told me things you could never have.
» Posted By lilldeh On 02.21.2012 @ 8:47 pm
If he believed in a god, he would have prayed. But his curse was intelligence and it kept him from talking to the still darken in his room during times of desperation.
» Posted By lilldeh On 02.20.2012 @ 9:26 pm
After flirting with anyone and everyone at the party, I realized how every atom of me, missed you.
» Posted By lilldeh On 02.15.2012 @ 9:38 pm
I sat on the dirt floor of the corn maze and cried after you told me you loved her.
» Posted By lilldeh On 02.12.2012 @ 9:46 pm
What he did to you was wrong, like when a caterpillar doesn’t become a butterfly. Unnatural and heartbreaking.
» Posted By lilldeh On 02.08.2012 @ 7:28 pm
There are holes in the walls because he was never told that everything was okay, and he was loved. And when a child grows up not being told these things, they punch holes in walls to make up for it.
» Posted By lilldeh On 02.07.2012 @ 9:32 pm
Take a picture with that camera, capture my soul because after tonight, it will be the only proof that I ever had one.
» Posted By lilldeh On 02.05.2012 @ 11:50 am
I learned that boys with pretty eyes should’t be trusted and that the odds are in everyone favor, except for mine.
» Posted By lilldeh On 01.29.2012 @ 9:05 pm
And I broke that stupid accordion so he could never write another love song again.
» Posted By lilldeh On 01.16.2012 @ 8:58 am
It’s one of those crisp winter mornings when he pulls on his jacket and leaves. There’s no kiss, only the squeaking of his boots on the cold wooden floor.
» Posted By lilldeh On 01.14.2012 @ 9:08 am
Did you see them? Is that why you left? Did I not conceal the scars on my heart well enough?
» Posted By lilldeh On 01.12.2012 @ 9:31 pm
You swore that my eyes were sparkling that night but I can promise you, on my life, they weren’t.
» Posted By lilldeh On 01.11.2012 @ 11:36 pm
I have a bland taste in my mouth and the smell of semen on my hands when you first tell me about him.
» Posted By lilldeh On 01.11.2012 @ 9:19 am
He bought her lilies, white lilies because roses meant love and love scared her.
» Posted By lilldeh On 01.08.2012 @ 5:20 pm
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You change your own car oil, even when he offers. He doesn’t understand that when things end, your car will still need to have its oil changed. Whether he’s there or not.
» Posted By lilldeh On 01.07.2012 @ 1:14 pm