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conceal

I conceal my truths
from the outside world
for they may try to steal it
and take it on as their own truths
you must find your own truths
do not steal mine
when you find yours
you may wish to conceal them
as to keep them pure and genuine

» Posted By jillmjacobs On 01.12.2012 @ 10:30 pm

prints

there are many prints made by my feet and fingers
that soon enough will have walked all around
all around inside the little bubble in which is the sphere of whatever life i’m living
my prints are small, nay, invisible
you may never see them
or notice them
or even care
but i know they are there
i have made a mark
and the next mark i make
i am sure you will see

» Posted By jillmjacobs On 11.09.2011 @ 11:55 am

autumn

it is technically autumn
but it sure doesn’t feel like it
i feel like autumn is one of those topics
that everyone will write generally the same thing
i always struggle with being an individual
it’s like this thirst that i feel will never be quenched
i will never be comfortable among others
like others
and coexisting
being like everyone else
scares me
but like autumn
it soon changes into winter
it is inevitable for me to change

» Posted By jillmjacobs On 11.07.2011 @ 5:57 pm

downpour

there was a downpour of knowledge
that fell right upon my head
and seeped in slowly through my pores
it down poured so hard that some of it slipped off the sides
slid down my hair
and onto the floor
where i could no longer access it
but what if i lost something that i needed or wanted
while other information was useless
please downpour, come again soon.

» Posted By jillmjacobs On 11.04.2011 @ 4:51 pm

radical

Are my beliefs radical?
not in relativity
when compared to Ayn Rand
yet i never claim modesty
i never remain neutral
if you don’t form your own opinions
someone else will form them for you
no one dare tell me what to think
i am radically independent
and radically me

» Posted By jillmjacobs On 10.21.2011 @ 1:23 pm

setting

i am setting the stage for all that wish to follow
i promise my ideals are legitimate
i am setting up my future to be the best it can be
i am in a new setting
and with new settings come new, more, and different opportunities
let’s explore.

» Posted By jillmjacobs On 10.07.2011 @ 7:03 am

warned

I warned you not to fuck with me
i am a civil person
but i can ease my way into your mind
i was warned that things wouldn’t work out
i was warned that this would all be hard work

i warned you that i was odd
that i needed my distance
i needed my independence
maybe you should have taken me seriously

» Posted By jillmjacobs On 10.05.2011 @ 1:09 pm

crouch

i crouch beneath the couch
to hide from myself
i peel away the layers
but is it voluntary?
i crouch down
and close my eyes
and take a breath
and pretend for just a second
that i do not exist
that i am just viewing this world
while existing apart from it
if i exist at all
but crouching down won’t stop the thoughts in my head
that tick and remind me
i am still part of this bizarre universe

» Posted By jillmjacobs On 09.20.2011 @ 1:23 pm

ant

there are so many ants in my dorm room
although i preach coexistence
by instinct
i continue to kill them
as i feel them climb upon my skin
my desk
or my bed
wouldn’t you do the same?
does practicality make me hypocritical?
are my ideals impractical?

» Posted By jillmjacobs On 09.05.2011 @ 4:37 pm

transport

i transport my thoughts
to imaginary actions
making their way
to reality
but the transportation
of my ideas
and my grand transcapacity
takes me very far
however,
no farther than my own body.
what if i am never fully able to transport the crazy thoughts of my brain into a magical reality?

» Posted By jillmjacobs On 08.20.2011 @ 9:47 pm

root

my root chalkra
is the bottom
chalkra
that aligns the rest
that we are afraid to speak of
for we fear our sexuality
but it is the root chalkra
that completes the path

» Posted By jillmjacobs On 08.01.2011 @ 8:21 pm

lightning

and i’ll think of you again
when lightning strikes the soul of the non-believers
i’ll remember the hopeless light
as it reflects off your sullen face
and drips into the palms
of insanity

» Posted By jillmjacobs On 07.25.2011 @ 8:46 pm

maroon

what to do when no inspiration surfaces you and smacks you on the cheek vibrating to your fingers, giving you no option to write it out?
maroon like red, deep red, which i like
does it come to surfaced wordiness of nothingness and no meaning?
that isn’t what it’s about
is it better to not write anything?

» Posted By jillmjacobs On 07.07.2011 @ 9:07 pm

given

It is a given that I love you
?
that’s no true
i am a bad person for saying so….
it is a given that i am me and no one else
and i dont want to be or try to be anyone else but me
in this time i’m given solitude to rest by heavy mind.

» Posted By jillmjacobs On 07.02.2011 @ 5:35 pm

braid

Braid the broken pieces of yesterdays mistakes
together.
weave them.
they are woven into the beautiful mystery of all that never was and will never be.
methodically
i braid together the unknown pieces of my
yesterday
with my
tomorrow

» Posted By jillmjacobs On 07.01.2011 @ 1:02 pm

rise

rise up to the occasion
absorb the opportunity to grow yourself
and fill that empty place that is waiting for your miraculous growth
it is only within that we can genuinely rise to new levels
make the effort and succeed in become
YOU

» Posted By jillmjacobs On 06.11.2011 @ 9:08 am

forgetting

forgetting the past
is almost impossible
you think you have overcome it
but then you see
it still lurks
silently behind you
waiting for you to stumble
and back it will race to the front of your mind
and remind you how it has changed your life
and how you can never truly and completely forgo that pain.

» Posted By jillmjacobs On 06.08.2011 @ 11:07 am

curious

and in my curiosity
i ponder all the injustices present in the world
i wonder why things are the way they are
and how they could be improved upon
i am curious as to why my mind twists in these mysterious ways in which they seem to always do
i am curious why i feel alienated from the typical teenaged female
i ask all of my questions
i write them all down
yet none ever get answered
for they are unanswerable.

» Posted By jillmjacobs On 05.16.2011 @ 2:00 pm

waver

You waver in the decisions
that mean less to you
than all the smallest big one
yet that minute decision
is the one on which you waver
the one that gives you the least security
what if that one decision
affected all the rest
and subconciously
you have a preferred direction
but how do you know if that will be right
for all other decisions
you may make in the future?

» Posted By jillmjacobs On 05.08.2011 @ 6:51 am

dinosaur

rebelling against the wistful youth
he stares in wonderment
for that he never owned
for that he never longed for
until it was passed his prime
you know it is there
it will always be there
it was once before
it now is extinct
or maybe just evolved

» Posted By jillmjacobs On 05.03.2011 @ 12:00 pm

intersection

the intersection
between
my youth
and adulthood
i am there right now
on the verge of being independent
while parting from what i believed to be independent
independent of self
of mind
of spirit
and now
physically
i will pass through the intersection
and continue on
until i pass another
which will come
before i am ready
before i even realize

» Posted By jillmjacobs On 04.25.2011 @ 1:08 pm

connected

i remain connected
with my child self
and my scared self
and my resilient self
and my independent self
and my upset self
and my stubborn self
and all my selves remain independent
and appear at their own free will
yet are always
and permanently
present
underneath
and connected

» Posted By jillmjacobs On 04.06.2011 @ 11:36 am

ego

i have an ego
but i do not admit it
ego
has bad connotations
egotistical
is a bad trait
but everyone
is
egocentric
the ego is the simple self
the front
for the subconscious
to hide behind

» Posted By jillmjacobs On 04.01.2011 @ 2:52 pm

gym

i do not take gym
people dont like that
they dont think it’s fair
but i have a reason
i just dont like to talk about it
dont tell me it’s not fair
you cannot comprehend
what i’ve been through
so please
don’t prentend that you understand
and that you get a say in it
and that you get to criticize me
i do not like gym

» Posted By jillmjacobs On 03.17.2011 @ 6:32 pm

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