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I want to be a recording artist
But I have had the creativity beaten out of me
By a world that only celebrates
Those who are the same
Who feign originality
And I have tried
To reach the version of me
Who could write
but it is very likely
that she has slipped away
» Posted By fluxandflow On 04.17.2017 @ 8:05 pm
I have moved from a place
Of constant crisis
and instead have moved
to a place where I float
unconcerned with each and every thing
waves pass over me
and I come up for air gently
harmonious with my environment
» Posted By fluxandflow On 04.03.2017 @ 7:56 pm
Now offering tutorials:
How to have no idea what you’re doing
How to be really good at one thing for two years
How to get bored with all the things you try to make careers
How to go in the wrong directions for bad reasons
» Posted By fluxandflow On 04.02.2017 @ 8:00 pm
Every place I go
For a little while
I feel like I belong
I feel like its for me
But after some time passes
And I finally think it’s safe to relax
And delve in
It turns out
I’m out of my element
And I must go somewhere else
» Posted By fluxandflow On 03.31.2017 @ 8:41 pm
She stepped outside, her hair shining in the sun.
Trees swayed in the breeze, shadows moving away to make her face brighter.
» Posted By fluxandflow On 03.30.2017 @ 8:38 pm
She popped her gum as she walked down the street wearing uggs, a sorority sweatshirt, and leggings. She thought she was special but she wasn’t.
I walked past her wearing combat boots, black jeans, and a military jacket thinking the same.
» Posted By fluxandflow On 03.29.2017 @ 7:35 pm
we met exactly the way people are supposed to meet
and you sat with me when I was nervous and shy
and you kissed me when I thought people might see
and you laid with me on your roof
and now we’re here
» Posted By fluxandflow On 08.30.2015 @ 10:36 pm
Hiding your emotions is not honorable
when you are gone you turn into a monster
Am I really going to let my heart be ripped apart again
I do not want any of this
» Posted By fluxandflow On 08.30.2015 @ 10:02 am
I am discovering just how much having you around makes my brain calm down
You take all the bad thoughts and make them disappear
I can actually experience true quiet when you’re around
» Posted By fluxandflow On 08.12.2014 @ 12:59 am
There were icicles lining the gutter and droplets forming on every dead bud of the tree branch. The sun had finally come out to play but for once I would have preferred the clouds.
» Posted By fluxandflow On 08.09.2014 @ 12:32 am
I really hate the word mother
It reminds me of you
And my brain already does enough of that subconsciously
In my sleep
all the time
You were my mother
But you were not a mom
and I don’t have any desire
to try to mend that
So universe, please stop reminding me.
» Posted By fluxandflow On 09.29.2013 @ 8:32 pm
I bury my head in the pillowcase and inhale the comforting scent of my own bed.
The sun is peeking through my curtains and the space heater woke me up a little early, but I don’t really mind.
This is the first morning in a long string of mornings that I’ve been happy. I’ve had a wonderful twenty four hours.
And I was ready to start another twenty four hours.
» Posted By fluxandflow On 10.15.2012 @ 6:34 pm
The only difference between you and I
Is that we have different dominant sides
You care more than I ever could
And all I’ll ever do is wish I could
» Posted By fluxandflow On 10.09.2012 @ 7:08 pm
It’s just a fucking scene
In the movie that is my life
So why is it so hard
For me to let it go
To get to the next one
» Posted By fluxandflow On 10.05.2012 @ 4:41 pm
I told him I was looking for the service road to the falls, and asked if there were signs or trail markers I could follow to help me there.
He said, “Son, out here there are no signs. Nothing points you in the right direction. You just got to guess left or right.”
“Oh, well, thank you for your help anyway I guess.”
I tried to fight the sense that I would inevitably get lost along the way, but eventually realized that it was going to happen and I would be better off accepting my fate.
I got back in the car and turned the key in the ignition, watching the needle rise to full. I had one tank of gas and an entire day to get there. I would make it happen.
» Posted By fluxandflow On 10.01.2012 @ 7:00 pm
You told me to take a deep breath
I told you it wouldn’t help
I never use my brain
Things get tough and I have no solutions
Only ways to let the sadness swallow me whole
But you have cracked open my skull
And peeked into its darkest recesses
Blown out the dust
And urged it into working order
Because for the first time I admitted to myself
That it would help if I took a deep breath
Because not everything is ending
And I am not dying
And as long as I’m breathing
As long as I’m trying
I am alright
And things will be okay
I will be okay
» Posted By fluxandflow On 09.27.2012 @ 12:13 pm
You and I
Are a series of affairs
We will never stay until the morning
We will never make each other breakfast
Or fall desperately into each other
Just time filled with physical nights
And mornings of regret
» Posted By fluxandflow On 09.25.2012 @ 4:23 pm
Despite the fact that you claim to care about me
You still hold back all your smallest secrets
And dodge all of my warm gestures
Without a single consideration
How am I supposed to believe you
And how am I supposed to be your friend
» Posted By fluxandflow On 09.18.2012 @ 4:02 pm
The trail is steep
Footing is not easy on loose rocks
And I have no porter
To guide me to the top
To carry my things
To support me
So I will keep on climbing
Further and further
But where the hell is the summit
» Posted By fluxandflow On 08.18.2012 @ 8:33 pm
Standing along the banks of the river, it wasn’t enough for me.
I needed the salty ocean air, the wind in my face, the feeling of irresponsibility and a carefree life.
I wanted to get away so badly, and all it took was getting in the car and driving.
But I had nowhere to go.
» Posted By fluxandflow On 08.13.2012 @ 5:53 pm
I’ve thought of a million concepts. A million reasons why. Hundreds of ideas. But none of them explain why I can’t stop thinking about you even when you’re 3,000 miles away.
» Posted By fluxandflow On 08.12.2012 @ 10:29 pm
I heard the ding as my phone lit up in the cup holder. I reached around the arm rest to pick it up from the place it had grown so accustomed to. You were offering me a home, but I couldn’t impose.
» Posted By fluxandflow On 07.24.2012 @ 7:57 pm
Every time I drive by your house I feel like an agent on patrol.
» Posted By fluxandflow On 07.19.2012 @ 8:58 pm
They carried him out
On a stretcher
And they flicked on their sirens
And drove away
Hope was useless
I knew he was gone
» Posted By fluxandflow On 07.18.2012 @ 10:34 pm
If the minute hand was a sonar scan
searching for a moment
when I wasn’t thinking of you,
it would turn up with nothing.
Because your eyes are at ten and two,
and I’m staring at you
like a kid stuck in class,
counting the seconds
until I can be with you again.
If I count until you’re mine,
I’ll be counting ’til the end of time.
» Posted By fluxandflow On 07.17.2012 @ 9:08 pm
The turbines powered up and my grip on the arm rests tightened. What was I doing? Where was I going? Suddenly I wanted off this plane so badly that I had to clench every muscle in my body not to hop out of my seat and go running down the aisle to the exit. I couldn’t stay. Nothing was right anymore. But would anything be right where I was going?
» Posted By fluxandflow On 07.09.2012 @ 6:10 pm
One strap on her overalls dangled, unhooked, just the way she liked it. She jumped from bar to bar on the playground, her pigtails bouncing along beside her like two clouds on either side of the sun. She was bright, and she would rise each morning and live.
» Posted By fluxandflow On 07.07.2012 @ 1:39 pm
We’re like children that act recklessly in class and don’t care if they’ll get detention. We danced around the halls of our childhood and brushed our fingertips along the walls of our dreams. I’ll never forget the time I spent with you.
» Posted By fluxandflow On 07.06.2012 @ 3:30 pm
The modem clicked as I tried to connect to the Internet. I didn’t had patience for its little hitches right now, I needed to talk to you. You’re 500 miles away and I’m sitting here with my existence relying on a tiny machine to keep us connected. I miss you.
» Posted By fluxandflow On 07.05.2012 @ 8:29 am
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My eyes gazed down the railroad tracks, following them off into the distance until they disappeared. There was a strange sense of fear about standing where something that could kill me would soon pass through. It struck me how as a child, I played on them carelessly, leaving pennies for the trains to flatten. The day you start thinking about consequences is the day you’re an adult.
» Posted By fluxandflow On 07.03.2012 @ 3:56 pm