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Like clockwork, the arrival of autumn prompts a spirit of quiet reflection. I watch the leaves cascade gently to the ground and occasionally I wonder how you are. The flames of love have long since fallen into eternal sleep and the wind blows a small cloud of ashes by my face. The moment passes, and the faces fade back into blissful indifference.
» Posted By aura.rayne On 09.23.2017 @ 6:10 pm
I’m missing you, baby. Up all night going crazy. Esto no me gusta.
» Posted By aura.rayne On 05.10.2016 @ 11:37 am
There must be a reason why, whenever we compete, the rest of the world vanishes into the intensity of each other’s gaze. Why our hearts race and we are filled with an almost maniacal ecstasy. The heat of opposition bears an uncanny resemblance to the fire of long-forgotten desire. What a fitting tribute as we celebrate your coming union, and a silent acknowledgement of the fact that, in a different world, it might have been us exchanging vows.
» Posted By aura.rayne On 05.07.2016 @ 7:50 pm
A beautiful mosaic, tiny little pieces of someone’s heart which they have chosen to share with you. Or just some pretty swell tunes.
» Posted By aura.rayne On 04.18.2016 @ 7:56 pm
The simplest of events are the ones with the most profound effects. This is what I’ve learned. The dream that started the whole thing came back to haunt me with its simplicity. I simply cannot. It simply never worked. I must simply ignore it. It’s simply over. It may be 1916 in your head, but it’s 2012 in mine.
» Posted By aura.rayne On 10.28.2015 @ 5:42 pm
Grinning from ear to ear, his small hands slowly reeled in his catch. As he pulled the little sunfish out of the water he presented it to me proudly and I took it from him, full of praises. From the end of the dock I could see his father watching us, smiling.
» Posted By aura.rayne On 10.26.2014 @ 10:06 pm
I just ate an entire box of cookies in less than 24 hours. My only souvenir is an empty box and a bewildered stomach.
» Posted By aura.rayne On 10.23.2014 @ 3:19 pm
This word has been used before. I know, because I distinctly remember what you wrote in relation to it. An ode to someone who was not me. And thinking of that causes the beast inside me to stir. It reminds me of what I used to be, what I still could be, if I were to put aside my lamp. You remember her, because you can still feel her claws tearing your heart to pieces. Bottling up her pain and fury until all she could do was hunt you down and eat you alive. Just like animals. Good song…I digress. I’m sorry. I’m sorry I could not find healing in time to spare you the terrible wounds I dealt you. All I can do for you now is love you from far away, and cover you with the prayers that I could never fulfill.
» Posted By aura.rayne On 10.22.2014 @ 9:23 pm
I was thrown off the horse before I even knew I was supposed to ride. Curled up on the floor holding my shattered bones, I trembled and shivered as the sweat dried on my skin and left me frozen. As time went on, I knew I had only three choices: hurt myself, hurt others, or face my terror and get back on that damn horse.
» Posted By aura.rayne On 10.08.2014 @ 10:04 pm
My body is a mere canvas on which misery can display its artwork.
» Posted By aura.rayne On 05.24.2014 @ 12:03 pm
I can’t help it if that’s how my brain works. Your words were x, your actions were y. X did not equal Y. So can you really hold it against me if I decided it was an irrational equation?
» Posted By aura.rayne On 04.12.2014 @ 10:26 pm
My heart tends to be incredibly stubborn. It doesn’t change its mind easily and it doesn’t like to be told what to do. However, when it does finally concede to a shift, my subconscious is quick to let me know.
» Posted By aura.rayne On 03.07.2014 @ 7:47 pm
Gal’, avec évidence tu m’dis que t’aimes quand j’te donne le maximum quand
ensemble on danse à l’horizontale.
Oh Gal’, avec élégance on s’donne du kif comme personne jusqu’au summum j’ai
succombé à ta beauté fatale. On part au corps à corps et nos deux coeurs s’emballent, j’te ferais du bien tout en te faisant du mal.
» Posted By aura.rayne On 02.16.2014 @ 11:58 am
I tried to offset my inner darkness by enveloping myself in your light. So it shouldn’t come as a surprise to me that my midnight ink wasn’t something you wanted to make your constant companion. It’s a shame really, I almost believed I was worth loving there for a minute.
» Posted By aura.rayne On 02.14.2014 @ 6:31 pm
Starry, starry night, gave you quite a fright.
Creatures of the night, ready for a fight.
And I don’t see your knight, guess she saw your plight,
Fear took its bite, and she gave up on her right.
Ouch, that must hurt.
» Posted By aura.rayne On 02.06.2014 @ 8:58 am
Don’t be offended if I ask to dissect you, I just have to know how so much light can reside in one place. So you wanna play with magic? Boy, you should know what you’re falling for. Baby do you dare to do this? ‘Cause I’m coming at you like a dark horse. Are you ready for a perfect storm? ‘Cause once you’re mine, there’s no going back.
» Posted By aura.rayne On 02.01.2014 @ 7:33 pm
Thus I seek refuge in the embrace of music. With a mind occupied on finger placement and smooth arm movements, among the eighth notes and time signatures, I know I can be done no harm.
» Posted By aura.rayne On 01.15.2014 @ 11:10 pm
Be careful making wishes in the dark, can’t be sure when they’ve hit their mark.
You can’t have my heart and you won’t use my mind, but do what you want with my body.
Just don’t get too close, it’s dark inside. It’s where my demons hide.
» Posted By aura.rayne On 12.31.2013 @ 3:05 pm
I am on a mighty quest, a journey of dragons, princesses, and horses. Lots of horses. I have a mission to stop the hate. My machine gun rests comfortably in one arm – recently emptied of the usual ammo of poison and angry thoughts – and feeling much lighter with its new bullets of kindness and gentle words. It takes a little getting used to, especially the part where I don’t turn the barrel towards myself, but I like it. Slowly, the hatred drains out of little holes cut along the bottom of the wineskin, and I feel its immense weight begin to lift.
» Posted By aura.rayne On 12.22.2013 @ 9:47 pm
Time that is spent on a worthless pursuit cannot be reclaimed. The desperate pleading for affection which inevitably leads to treatment worse than a dog’s – who at least receives treats and pets for good behaviour – is a merciless and lethal cycle. How caught up was I in my own pain that I could not see the way she hurts you. You are tough as nails, you rarely cry, you are the strong one, but I see you, beloved sister. I can hear the agony in your breathing and see the deadness in your eyes as you check out yet again, knowing that nothing you do will ever be good enough. That you will never be good enough. I am sorry, dear sister, and I promise to be here for you as you have always been here for me.
» Posted By aura.rayne On 12.07.2013 @ 1:04 am
When we met, you seemed as gentle and harmless as a trickling stream. Little did I know that, as the rain continued to pour, your torrent would swell my heart and I would become engulfed in the passionate fury of your typhoon. Behind those gentle amber pools I can see reflected the same hot-blooded madness that inhabits my own mirror.
But then I turn around and find two pairs of very different colours, and the hurricane continues.
» Posted By aura.rayne On 12.02.2013 @ 12:42 pm
I wanted so badly to be the good guy, the safe place, the one who made all the monsters go away. But instead of being your hero I became your nightmare, and now I’m the one you’re trying to escape from.
» Posted By aura.rayne On 11.15.2013 @ 12:03 pm
Without hesitation I slid down onto my knees. Now what does that tell you? Palms up, eyes down, awaiting the next command.
» Posted By aura.rayne On 11.13.2013 @ 10:24 pm
This time it wasn’t a matter of sneaking across the border in the middle of the night, terror lodged in one’s throat and palms drenched in a cold sweat, hoping that the patrols were far far away. It was a legal crossing, in the bright daylight, passport in hand. I didn’t leave a note to say that I was going or to say when I’d be back, but I knew that this time I was free to leave. Smiling, I handed my passport to the border guard.
» Posted By aura.rayne On 11.05.2013 @ 3:20 pm
I could hear her brisk steps on the pavement, the sound fading quickly as she left me alone in the dark. Panicking, I felt the walls around me in an attempt to discern my location. “Am I in the doghouse again? No, but I didn’t do anything wrong this time, did I? I can’t be in the doghouse. I can’t be in the doghouse. I’ve been very good. Haven’t I? Have I? What did I do? What? Did I make a mistake? What could I have done? Whatever it is, I’m sorry! I didn’t mean to! I’ll be good, I promise! Let me out out – please – let me out! No…I can’t be in the doghouse…can’t…I was good…let me out!”
» Posted By aura.rayne On 10.28.2013 @ 8:33 pm
I’ve spent a long time with this word already. I don’t think it needs any more of my attention.
» Posted By aura.rayne On 10.27.2013 @ 10:48 pm
Even after all this time, this is the only solution I can come up with, and it is a futile one. I can’t escape. No matter how far I run or how hard I try, I can’t get away. I am found out and dragged back, cuffed and chained. It is my beating heart that binds me to my affliction, but I am not yet desperate enough to stop its course. So how do I get out? How do I flee? Show me this, and I will be free.
» Posted By aura.rayne On 10.21.2013 @ 11:08 pm
The others were baffled at his behaviour, but I was not. He met my eyes for a brief moment, begging me to understand. I did. Almost a year clean, without so much as a glance at a needle, yet when his old dealer came over to offer him a free hit…he crumbled. He didn’t want it, he knew he didn’t want it, but he couldn’t say no. And as I looked at the sorry man I felt his pain and shame as my own, for though my addiction didn’t come in the form of needles and pills, I was just as much the heroin addict as he was.
» Posted By aura.rayne On 10.20.2013 @ 1:30 pm
You were stolen from us far too early, yet from the moment I was born you believed in me. You never got to watch me grow from a little girl into a young woman and you will never dance with me at my wedding, but I still carry the music notes you tucked away in my heart when you asked me to sing with you. I love you Grandpa, and every song I sing will forever be dedicated to you.
» Posted By aura.rayne On 09.30.2013 @ 7:20 pm
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Stirring, he yawned and took me in through half-open eyes. I could see his confusion as the memories of the previous day took a moment to flood back in, before he grinned and flung himself back on the pillow. I laughed, reaching out to run my fingers through his tousled hair.
» Posted By aura.rayne On 09.24.2013 @ 2:10 pm