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I styled the side of my day to reflect rainbow when the sun hit it
I am lazy afternoon
cup of caffeine new to me
I have a new job of turning living into my career

» Posted By Tescia Schell On 10.21.2015 @ 3:24 pm


I never thought I would be this deep in. I used to be so scared and now, through the fear, I push forward into what is usually referred to as ‘the light’. I’m not sure if it’s light out where I land. I’ve always liked the evening in fall. So I’d like to start there. Use the light of the moon on an adventure.

» Posted By Tescia Schell On 09.30.2014 @ 9:40 am


They can’t feel themselves
Daleks ruin humanity
the cockroach of the universe
but somehow they are always
stepped on

» Posted By Tescia Schell On 11.08.2012 @ 10:34 pm


the glass in the ground
illuminated her face
making the lines bright

shimmering shards of last night’s
last year’s lazy walker

she lay there like a dart fallen off of the board

» Posted By Tescia Schell On 11.05.2012 @ 5:49 pm


i report a help call sir!
please take me to the planet where i can multitask the most

» Posted By Tescia Schell On 09.26.2012 @ 4:48 pm


the dive begins
sink information deep into my brain
so i can excavate it later
will this homework ever end
I’m looking for a different kind of madness

» Posted By Tescia Schell On 09.20.2012 @ 8:14 pm


three muscles flex
preparing to sift through the etcha sketch
travel through the lines in the road
you find yourself already trapped in the box
running running running along one line that wrapps around everything
raps quietly on
on my chamber door
on my heart
making my rhythm
life push start
kick bass
and i’m stuck on that line again

» Posted By Tescia Schell On 09.07.2012 @ 3:23 pm


the weather seeps in between the wood planks on the deck
your hair is all wet and deflated
whether i could dream you away or closer
i’m not sure if i would
i’m not sure you really exist
or if i’m sending out too much on a wish

» Posted By Tescia Schell On 09.05.2012 @ 7:42 pm


the combination
of the both of you in my head
is giving out to much power to you two

too much hasn’t happened
i miss you
i will never know you
you will never understand
the ocean sounds my brain makes

» Posted By Tescia Schell On 11.04.2011 @ 12:03 am


the profound lack of lines around your eyes
says your not wise yet
the crows still bark in your mind
they have not reached the mud of your skin
keep calling it clay if you want
either way you’re still waiting for an imprint
its just a couple of footprints from a bird to you
but really its about learning how to get yourself out of the mud
to think and love at the same time
realize you are hollow bones

maybe i honored it
maybe i didn’t

i know i am fragile
because i keep cracking at odd angles
sometimes i feel silly for thinking that i might find
something that makes me feel full
and doesn’t weigh me down

but at times i need a little grounding
because as a human i can be astoundingly stupid
i forget i don’t want to float away
or be stuck in the same place

In those moments where i am atmospheric
surrounded by tree branches
and the cosmos
the violet humbles me
while i realize each leave
is a moment
i have lived

maybe i honored it
maybe i didn’t

i climb down the trunk into the grass
and meet the frogs and animals i couldn’t
when my head was caught up in the air

» Posted By Tescia Schell On 11.02.2011 @ 11:14 pm


the artistry of nineteen
of late night
of love insanity
is all but one
is all but lost

i wonder if you’re thinking about me?

i hope so

» Posted By Tescia Schell On 10.27.2011 @ 1:37 am


i want to match you up with blue corn pancakes
maybe its because you told me you only eat once a day
or because they have nothing to do with you
and nothing is void
nothing is a blank to fill
so i will call you blue corn pancakes
when im hungry for the kind of nervous you give me
they feel like the vibrations from a ray gun in the sixties that
disintegrates everything
then something groovy happens

i want this nothing between you and me
to be an awakening
but i’m only nineteen
age age age
is the baseball player
of my loss
with you
you’re a damn good catcher

i could say nothing happened
null and void
but i went crazy
wishing i knew how to hit a home-run
wishing i could celebrate with blue-corn pancakes after
it reminds me of a childhood memory i never owned
never did
never will
is a blank to fill

» Posted By Tescia Schell On 10.24.2011 @ 1:56 am


i am sitting in an upside down umbrella
scooping out the rain with the scrunched up bowl of my hands
i float along from puddle to puddle
these little lakes barely contain
all of your thirst i want to quench
if i can at all
i don’t know your ends

i bob to the next body of water
and feel your thigh as i swim through
this lazy river of remembering fights
recalling every holy instance
it’s just that i thought you sung me a love song back there
and that you meant it

» Posted By Tescia Schell On 08.24.2011 @ 11:44 pm


in this simple morning
i didn’t want your silk
i wanted your canvas
painted or not
it’d show me what was left to do
to add to the work
or hang you up
and admire as something
not apart of me
admire you as something
i hold
on the walls of my mind

» Posted By Tescia Schell On 08.24.2011 @ 9:55 am


this morning you made me lock all of the hurt in the dishwasher
nest in the forks and spoons

» Posted By Tescia Schell On 08.05.2011 @ 8:21 pm


is that the last time i’m going to see your house?
being kicked out on wasp wings
i want more than anything to resolve everything
and you could quit being so selfish
and quit taking my selflessness on rides
that make olympus look low hanging
this morning began another mourning.
i want to quit counting
your lore

» Posted By Tescia Schell On 07.31.2011 @ 9:31 pm


You are my crazy
i held you in my phone
like you were about to break
and me crying was going to save us both
but dad going back to rehab
isn’t making feel better anymore

checking in after you check out
of every promise
to every day
with each injection that you take
makes my belief in you
wash away with the rivers
of what every you can get into your veins
they leave quick dont they

you’ve eaten all of the salt water taffy
my eyes can make
maybe it was sweet to you
but just take a second to stop taking
use a moment to just give yourself to the rain

it wont wash away the needle points or liquor stains
but it’ll make you feel real awake
and maybe awake is the closest thing
your going to feel to alive today
but at least its a start
because one day I’d like to see you wake up to your life
just as it is
it wont be perfect

you might feel lonely at first
but maybe then we can commiserate
because all this time
that you’ve checked in and out of my life
as if i were some shanty hotel
where you keep your happy moments
as if they were secret
as if you better not use them too much
because they might dry up

all this time
i’ve tried writing writing you
into a figment of my imagination
then into a fairytale
where your limbs are tree branches.
i get to look at you everyday
hold your hand as i make noise
with the fences i skip past
into a fairy tail where you are the breeze
and when I’m in a sketchy situation
and it gets real windy
i know its time to leave

because good papas
keep their babies warm and safe
and i hope in reality
you’d do the same
if you weren’t so sick everyday

though i don’t believe starting in the same place
is always going to get you to similar ends
i was just thinking we could start a new trend this time
and you could come visit me more than when i was five
i promise to try real hard to quit resenting and blaming you
and start just letting you be
the person you are

you are my crazy
your are different things
you are my father
and you are the breeze

» Posted By Tescia Schell On 06.19.2011 @ 9:53 pm


sometimes i’m blue
due to the presence of you
this is just a little something
as i stand at the station
watching you wave into blur
as i ride away on someone else’s kisses
maybe were lovers in another dimension
where the sky is purple n’ shit

i should have roped you up
when i had the skills to
instead i wasted them on old boyfriends
and the should’ves and could’ves
now all i have is half an arm extended
to help you up
after your heartbreak

i only have the littlest wish it was because of me
and the smallest hope that you’ll come dashing after me
to find my affections
hidden in a box
under the bed of my breathing

I’m going to whisper at you all day
how i want to lie in bed with you all day
play patty cake
because i like pushing buttons

the funny thing about any of this
is that the sky is purple
during sunsets and early morning wake-ups
ans still the things that i want
don’t come easy
or sometimes at all

» Posted By Tescia Schell On 06.14.2011 @ 9:36 pm


i wanted to make you my canteen
i wanted to kiss you whenever i was thirsty
and you’d cure my yearning by being my date to dinner
and my light-hearted lover

Maybe it’s because i’m a lady
and your a woman
but lady
i’m the woman that’s been wanting to love you lately
i want us to be the adventure that saves me
makes me realize my walk through the jungle
helps me love my life daily

i know i might be a problem
you don’t want to figure in your head
maybe the numbers are just too big
and i know eleven years means the difference between
what cartoons we watched when we were kids
but can we just cuddle for a bit?

if i could pick a daisy for every butterfly i get when i see you
i’d be able to bring you a bouquet every morning
with a box full of butterflies
i hope your not grossed out that they came from my belly
but i promise, they’re not covered in my breakfast
they didn’t come from my stomach
they came from my diaphragm
in the cocoon of my lungs
when i first whispered your name
is where they originally sprang

i want to kiss you endlessly
make you chocolate-chip pancakes while you sleep

» Posted By Tescia Schell On 05.26.2011 @ 7:05 pm


My throat is glowing red
from swearing to the picket fence dream
now i say it in vain
i know there is no tire swing
on the other side of this day dream
that i call my brain
that cranks out silly little notes
on a treble clef that no one will ever hear

» Posted By Tescia Schell On 05.12.2011 @ 10:28 pm


i drew my third eye
on my forehead with eyeliner
the other day
hoping to find out why
you are so good at making me feel like shit

keep talking bullshit
it fertilizes my fits
i will always care about you
but now i choose quit
no restart
no back to menu
leave me alone for a little bit
though i don’t want you to

its funny how sometimes
what we need
isn’t what we want

if it was up to me
i’d start over blank
so we could write everything
in a different font
and change our minds
and decide to love
instead of fear

we bath ourselves in insecure
when all we really need is a change of clothes
a change of fright
because we’ll always be afraid of something
but why not take each other off the list tonight
and stand toe to toe
because i know i can be a little crazy from time to time
but i care about you
so much that sometimes
i want to wrap my head around you
and ask why you don’t care about me too

sometimes love is a one way street
and its hard to accept
that you will never meet back up
with everything you just gave out
like when you gave out from under me
and let me drop like a penny in a well
but no wishes will stop my pouting

i need to learn to do it alone
send you light and love
then let it go
just let it go

» Posted By Tescia Schell On 05.06.2011 @ 2:24 pm


There is a trailer hitched to the car that i am
sometimes its heavy
or I don’t even notice it.

Today i made a conscious attempt
to clean it out,
give stuff away,
and throw out the trash.

As i walked in the walls made of trees
started growing back to what they were
and you were sitting in the corner
looking like the puddle the witch turned into
after Dorothy threw water on her.

At first i wanted to pick you up
into my body
hold you in the hinges of my arms
shape you into the person i wish you were

But you’ve been spoiled
sitting back here too long.

» Posted By Tescia Schell On 04.27.2011 @ 8:21 pm


at the intersection
of anger st and desire
stuck at a red light
picking fights with the people in the cross walk signs
drawing tic-tack-toe lines on my body
hoping to win
or lose —
just gain you
or let it go
so long as I’m ready for the green
so i can get away from this traffic machine
holding me here
in this birdcage

i need to get out
to nature
to the wild
to the wild santiy
my mind makes
when i’m out of the city of people
and confuison
diluted meanings

and just breath

» Posted By Tescia Schell On 04.25.2011 @ 11:07 pm


like rewind
we keep watching the same section
of our lives
over again
as if any more listening
would help write knew maps
find gold in a bucket of iron
but were running out of metal
all that’s left is the stuff that reflects
that were just settling for each other

» Posted By Tescia Schell On 04.24.2011 @ 9:42 am


riding in a dream boat
cut off at the head by my alarm

This morning is like Styrofoam
until you crush it.
then there’s too much racket
to get back to sleep

» Posted By Tescia Schell On 04.23.2011 @ 7:50 am


a little crazy
too many foreign things
makes my calmness
but a long water later
I’m at a different place
so blame me
that my heart goes zig zag
and takes everyone with it
that in my anxiousness
all i want is a good fit
around my hand
or something around my body
like a hug
because last time i checked
we were all about making each other feel good
but i want it for more than just this moment
i want it to fill all of the other directions of this second

» Posted By Tescia Schell On 04.21.2011 @ 11:08 pm


Back to back
you scratched the itch
and now i am slit
with shoulder blades showing
no wings
no judgment i can bring
about you

i just want to be whole
without the hysterical.
You so easily can get me besides myself.
But aside form myself i cant see anyone else
in the picture frame of my today.
I wish my hardest for you.

i am alonely most always
but i am learning to love the alone
because it means
there will be no phone
ringing in my body
telling me to call you .

my chest percussion
and breath rhythm
are doing just fine
keeping up with bedtimes
and writing back pen pals

» Posted By Tescia Schell On 04.14.2011 @ 10:28 pm


you are severe
in the ways you passify
lets talk instead of watch tv
lets be
instead of being something were not

i wish on all of the lucky things
like dandelions
and meteors barreling through the atmosphere
that you can be the person i need you to be

wishing only works when you mean it

» Posted By Tescia Schell On 04.13.2011 @ 5:00 pm


The success of green buds
begs for me to smile with the sun.
Spring arrives in time
with the tempo of chirps
and blue feathered flaps.

» Posted By Tescia Schell On 04.04.2011 @ 4:11 pm


i trust this sleep about to happen;
the rolling hills of my cerebellum
turn into a pause,
a serene moment
where everything is frozen
like a wasps wings spritzed with hairspray.

Prayers in the morning are ones of hope,
at night they are asking how to carry on.

I will wait
until the day opens its east eye
to peek in with all the light and love i need
to feel i conquered the night
and savor that much better–
that i refrained from you.

» Posted By Tescia Schell On 03.30.2011 @ 11:32 pm

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