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Touch, carefully intoxicated fingers rub a rhythm into your thigh. The rough material grounding you into the now. Innocent they are, just in a need to feel a connection and be close in this darkness. Finding anchor knowing that it won’t stay for long
» Posted By Spark On 10.23.2014 @ 1:26 am
Was it that obvious? All this time blind and running in the wrong direction? I love you I love you I chant but it isn’t enough. I want to hold you, beg you to stay but nothing comes but those dreamless nightmare that plague my mind. When did I fall, when did we let go? It’s hard to say goodbye when there is no one to hear you
» Posted By Spark On 04.02.2014 @ 8:18 pm
Flashing lights, bumping music, I want to take you dancing. We’ve talked about it, going out, just us two in each other’s vision. We smile at each other, our eyes catch in the dark, and like a dream you vanish
» Posted By Spark On 01.22.2014 @ 12:17 am
Kill la Kill, those beaming lights shining down from above. Makes me cry to see those lights and know that what is lost will not be found.
I love you, you know, much more than all can handle. Is this the right path? Certainly it isn’t bright where we are right now
» Posted By Spark On 01.20.2014 @ 2:52 pm
We stand, hands pressed, foreheads wishing they could touch. Glass borders hold us apart, but perhaps it is because you threw them up around your mind. I want to take a sledgehammer to it but I’m afraid of breaking you into a thousand pieces too. So instead I chisel glass carvings, little by little trying to get you to open the glass door
» Posted By Spark On 11.06.2013 @ 12:49 am
I miss the keys dancing under my fingers as a minuet or etude comes to life on my ears, I miss feeling my emotions rage as words can no longer express my feelings. I miss talking through music, trying to reach your heart. But you’ve already turned your ear away to listen to a melancholy tune, even though I am right next to you snatching for your friendship
» Posted By Spark On 09.24.2013 @ 2:03 am
Lined up, organized, swirling with mysterious liquids. Blue with a dash of golden sparkles. Ombre red ready to burst out of its cap. Mellow yellow with a touch of spring. What will happen when I knock them all down, spill their contents all together?
We get a human with complex emotions constantly at war
» Posted By Spark On 08.30.2013 @ 12:08 am
A beast, standing in front of the children, snarling with lips pulled back against omnivore teeth. Arms spread out, chest puffed up, a low growl unnatural coming from her throat. She doesn’t think she is being savage: rather, she is protecting her kids the way a tiger mom protects her cubs
» Posted By Spark On 08.21.2013 @ 1:16 am
Dreams, a misty haze, a thin fog, clouding the eyes, condensation on the window from our mingling breaths. The sun comes out to play and it all vanishes. For those 5 minutes I can believe we are friends, but when the door closes and I turn my back, everything turns to vapors floating to the sky, and I am just an imagination again
» Posted By Spark On 07.29.2013 @ 10:43 pm
Smile, nod, laugh, wiggle, yell, shake, light tap, repeat
Smile, nod, blink, tilt head, yell, clap, palm on back, repeat.
Smile, laugh, chuckle, yell, squint, hold hands, pretend, repeat.
» Posted By Spark On 07.27.2013 @ 12:39 am
These kids, have they not any sense of respect? Any sense of discipline? I was so angry when I heard “This is boring,” and “We only do boring things in this class”. Then why am I here? Why am I taking the time to teach you something that took me 4 years to get okay at? Why are any teachers here in the first place? To change a life, to give a different perspective, to inspire a new way of thinking. So until these little irreverent punks get it together I will allow my heart to be torn to shreds if not to teach them to appreciate those around them. So that the next teacher they have will not have to deal with these kid’s disrespect
» Posted By Spark On 07.24.2013 @ 12:26 am
I want to slam them closed, curse you out behind closed doors, scream and cry as the emptiness catches in my chest. I spew lie after lie in an attempt to appease the angry beast inside me, but nothing changes, it knows it is false.
So many doors, and yet I chose yours. Why do you keep trying to close your door on me with my foot in the door. I don’t want it slammed shut, I don’t I don’t, because with it you take my best friend away. The only one who knows me to the core, but maybe I’ve lied to myself, and maybe all this time you’ve looked at me with irritation and I was just knocking at your door.
Please don’t shut it now. I just need you now.
» Posted By Spark On 07.21.2013 @ 12:56 am
Your shadows, manifesting cruelly in the swirl of smoke and mist. The blatant way the smile disappears when addressing you. Your anger, your frustration, your realization that you are but a farce. I should have never returned, I can never pray for the past. I can only look upon what has happened and move on.
» Posted By Spark On 07.05.2013 @ 5:02 am
I’m just not a part of your branch anymore, I’m a leaf just barely grasping on, soon you’ll shake me off and I’ll fall, and never be with you all together anymore
It’s sad that I have to tiptoe around you all, when in reality my feelings so strong have truth behind them all. I’m lonely and lost and fluttering away
i just want to disappear again
» Posted By Spark On 04.13.2013 @ 2:13 am
I need a hold on my reality and my mind
But it isn’t through the abyss that I must work
but through purity and clean thoughts
My positive smile brought you to my side
and I will not let my dark frown push you away
I will become stronger and overcome
I will have faith in us, even when the red string eternal seems pulled
So please, don’t let me feel the tough love because right now
I just need your arms
and I’ll be whole again
» Posted By Spark On 12.29.2012 @ 5:25 pm
Throw it under, pile some earth on top, bury it so that it may never rise again. I hate what has grown from the tears that have watered it. When did this disdain and hatred grow where love should be? When something is watered with so many bitter tears, with no one to give it love, what would you expect to grow? \
I just need your love now.
» Posted By Spark On 12.29.2012 @ 2:40 am
Who knows what will happen when the next day comes
Who knows if we’ll make it out of this together
Who knows if we have to part ways to come back into each other’s lives
Who knows where I’ll fall when you let go of my hand
All I know is that
I love you
and I will take the fall so I can climb back up
But it will be darkness before there is light
» Posted By Spark On 12.23.2012 @ 11:03 am
but of different mind sets
one, to not let go
the other, to learn to say goodbye
when hej hej becomes farvel
life becomes a hole you must
learn to climb from
but never will
» Posted By Spark On 12.13.2012 @ 1:47 am
we’re moving in sync, but we’re not actually thinking
our lips our moving, but our minds are miles away
you’re this close to me, but so far away
when will you be available again?
so we can meet again, heart to heart
because it’s lonely and cold where I am
lost, the shadows wrapping me away
vikings don’t wear horned helms
and it goes on and on without an end
» Posted By Spark On 12.11.2012 @ 2:46 pm
Choices that we face, handed over by an old crone, what shall we do? The consequences of our actions hold such a power we will never know. And in some way, why am I always the one who has to suffer them. No decision I’ve come to, even after much debate, will be smiled on. For once, I wish that when a choice was presented, I could just ignore it and float away. Because no matter which way is right or wrong, it will never play out well for me.
» Posted By Spark On 12.10.2012 @ 2:29 pm
Remember those times we lay around just enjoying the company of one another, eating snacks and watching a show we couldn’t comprehend? Those days are not gone, just passing away for a bit, right? I am here I will be here as long as you need me. Even as you push me higher, I will drag you along with me because I will not allow you to fall into your own deep dark despair without a hand to help you up to higher ground
» Posted By Spark On 12.04.2012 @ 4:22 pm
What is it? Is it a splash of light blue with white clouds painted across a dark canvas? Is it sparkles of gold and silver thrown onto a burnt road? Is this suppose to last forever, or just point us in the right direction?
I don’t need a miracle. I just need you
» Posted By Spark On 09.04.2012 @ 1:32 am
You’re searching through thick glen, wandering aimlessly through endless plain, battling with merciless emotions, sleeping under a starry sky, waiting for the rain to stop falling on a sunny day, running from the darkness of your mind, just to find that someone that will help open the happiness that is locked in your heart
» Posted By Spark On 08.04.2012 @ 11:00 pm
Memories, snapshots of the was and has been. A smile in the eyes, a laughter caught in bubbles floating to the sky. Awkward, shifty eyes, never captured the true emotions and love for the time. Forever only lasts as long as the photograph, and the camera only holds a sweet and sorrow history. I want to return, and look through those lenses again. At a time where forever was too short for us, and a lifetime was entwining us
» Posted By Spark On 08.02.2012 @ 5:14 pm
I convicted myself of the crime, and now I’m paying the price. I was a fool, letting anger and frustration get the better of me. This time, I might not have a happy ending. I know that I shouldn’t be so optimistic, but that doesn’t mean I’ve stopped believing. Or praying that I’ll be given another chance to change everything again.
» Posted By Spark On 06.01.2012 @ 1:32 pm
Waiting back into our memories, digging through the music pulsing through my head, endless nothings flowing out of my brain… Go back, go back into that unforgettable time. I can’t tear it apart, but can only embrace the boldness so that every time I hold someone’s hand, it’s be just as special as that first time
» Posted By Spark On 05.25.2012 @ 12:00 am
I want to pile all my emotions on you, let them flood all over. I want to pile my grief and insecurities and lie them there for you to see. It’s lonely being the only one who is part of this conversation, being the only one who wants to be a part of it. little things, one by one, stack together, until it becomes a tower of terror that we cannot face alone.
what would it be like to eskimo kiss again, like the first time when blushes and shyness lightly wrapped how enamored we were. to simpler times when you actually liked talking to me.
» Posted By Spark On 05.20.2012 @ 1:24 am
In the middle of my chest, a bubble has begun to form, expanding larger and larger with each passing memory. The void, it consumes, re-processing thoughts, finally learning to let them go. In the empty space that’s leaving my frame unstable, I’ll plant more daffodils and find more turtles with mustaches. Then perhaps it wont be so empty anymore
» Posted By Spark On 04.30.2012 @ 11:39 pm
With the slightest push, he tips me over the edge. My fury, my frustration, boils over. What patience I have wears thin, and his hurtful words and cruel disposition make me want to scream. But then, the slightest touch, slightest touch of care, pulls me back again. Because in the end, we’re just cats fighting for dominance, but will snuggle together at night to withstand the furies of the world and the weight of responsibility
» Posted By Spark On 04.20.2012 @ 1:48 am
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i feel weaker by the minute, i feel blander by the second. i’m terrible at waiting, but i’m also scared of people. i want to cry out, i want to be heard, but what good would it do me? i’m yelling but it’s no louder than a whisper. i’m a stranger in my head. but everything is bland and i just want you to stay, to paint my world in more than just black and white, in the misty gray my injured eye can’t see
» Posted By Spark On 01.10.2012 @ 5:59 pm