• sturmzie commented on the post, brisk 5 years, 5 months ago

    It started slow but then after a few days I was consumed by it. It took over my entire body. I was miserable but I could not escape it. Is it possible? I became consumed on how to get rid of it and prevent it so that I was spending all of my time reading about it as it ate me alive. I could not go on any longer. I was finished.

  • sturmzie commented on the post, easygoing 5 years, 6 months ago

    he walks to and fro about the earth bringing people with him whoever wants to join. Everyone enjoys his company. How could they not. He does what he pleases without a care in the world. He seems to know everything,about everything. Except for authority;hat is one word he does not understand.

  • sturmzie commented on the post, scuba 5 years, 7 months ago

    Out his element in this strange world he almost wanted to hold his breath. It didn’t seem real. Everyone was so different and the words they were saying were so strange and sharp. It was like being underwater and not knowing which way was up or down. He could never relax fully because there was no resting place. Even in his own bed he was uncomfortable.

  • sturmzie commented on the post, senator 5 years, 7 months ago

    He tells me sweet words that I want to hear but his lies spill through his handsome brown eyes. His lips were so sincere, or so it seemed. I should have known better than to put all of my trust in him.

  • sturmzie commented on the post, solidarity 5 years, 8 months ago

    Learn to walk, go to school, learn to drive, get a boyfriend, get a car, fight with parents, graduate, move out, make mistakes, get a job, find love get married, buy a house, have kids, get a dog, reflect on life, realize you have taken it for granted, start to appreciate life, die

  • sturmzie commented on the post, fasting 5 years, 8 months ago

    I thought everyone felt miserable, that was the norm for me and the people around me. I’m kinda pissed nobody helped me. Really? Nobody ever noticed something was wrong?I had little to no social contact with people outside my family because in my mind they were intruders. Forcing themselves on to me with their judging eyes and lofty stares. I…[Read more]

  • sturmzie commented on the post, incomplete 5 years, 10 months ago

    I liked it, yet it didn’t look quite right. Something was missing was it someone or something I didn’t know. Did I need to take things away or people? Should I take away me I could not tell.

  • sturmzie commented on the post, decompose 5 years, 10 months ago

    All of my failures decompose my mind, body, and spirit. I am not what I once was, but I have never been what I wanted to be. I continue to decline into what I am not sure.

  • sturmzie commented on the post, secluded 5 years, 11 months ago

    The room she sat in was dark and gray. The carpet was gray. The bedsheets were gray. Even the bouquet on the table was gray. Her words were gray because nobody heard them. And her prayers were gray because she had been led astray.

  • sturmzie commented on the post, delve 5 years, 11 months ago

    I searched everywhere for it but I couldn’t seem to find it. Confusion. I turned back and looked in places I had already looked, I thought I might have missed it.Frustration. I couldn’t find it anywhere how could i have been so stupid to lose it. Anger. Where is love? Where is its hiding place?

  • sturmzie commented on the post, shattered 5 years, 11 months ago

    She was broken but she put her hands together in the praying position anyway. It seemed odd but she closed her eyes because it seemed to help her focus on the conversation she was having with him. “Do you love me?” she asked. She knew he loved her and that was enough for her in that moment.

  • sturmzie commented on the post, lullaby 5 years, 11 months ago

    His love is a lullaby, singing softly to those who will listen. He is there for you.

  • sturmzie commented on the post, auburn 5 years, 11 months ago

    Her skin was dark with natural beauty but all she could see was that she was different. Different isn’t bad sweet heart, especially your kind of different. Better is different.

  • sturmzie commented on the post, burning 5 years, 11 months ago

    She was burning with passion yet she could not express it. There was nobody there for her. She yearned for that affection that everyone else had, but she kept it to herself.

  • It is my hidden secret, that would take away from my credibility if I ever had any to begin with. It is my demon and addiction that I feed on. It is a love substitute. I cannot control it.

  • sturmzie commented on the post, rating 5 years, 11 months ago

    I rate her a 4. She is simple and plain, with not many words. She doesn’t greet you with a smile instead she sits with her arms folded looking at the ground. She does not look up. She is me.

  • sturmzie commented on the post, bagel 6 years ago

    He was pouring his heart out to me, but all I could think of was the bagel sitting on his desk. How deliciously tender and salty it looked. Oh, he is waiting for a reply um…”I don’t know what to say, I’m sorry”, and he continued with his whining.

  • sturmzie commented on the post, smudge 6 years ago

    She tries to clear the mud on her window so she can see but it just leaves a smudge. Mud splattered everywhere covering her pickup, where were you last night? What did you do?

  • sturmzie commented on the post, lamb 6 years, 1 month ago

    I ignored the lamb of God when he wanted to get to know me. I wanted some time to myself. That time to myself was not fun like I wanted it to be. It was self destructive and painful.

  • sturmzie commented on the post, conjured 6 years, 1 month ago

    My thoughts are demons conjured up from only God knows where. They whisper dark and painful memories and fears. They tell me that I will never know him and to be afraid because he will not help me. They tell me he will crush me like an ant in the kitchen, just minding its own business trying to survive, not knowing its own fate.