• nichole posted an update 4 years, 3 months ago

    Hoping to post here again. Anyone still hanging out here?

  • catyeah commented on the post, doors 6 years, 4 months ago

    God is supposed to open doors for people, and show them love and compassion and forgiveness. If God really is what the Westboro Baptist Church claims He is, I’d rather die than live on His earth.

  • catyeah posted an update in the group Group logo of Image Notebook Image Notebook 6 years, 5 months ago

    I love the extra five seconds he gave me.
    “I wish I could,” he had said.
    “Oh well,” I had responded, “next time.”
    And as I walked back to Elle’s car, I turned around and saw him watching me, looked dejected and sorry and sad. His skinny shoulders slightly stooped, his eyebrows creased with both worry and confusion, like he was trying to look…[Read more]

  • catyeah posted an update in the group Group logo of DreamsDreams 6 years, 6 months ago

    Make me gorgeous, make me into a star. Make me into someone that everyone wants to love, and everyone else loves to hate. Make me the kind of woman who can make people fall in love with me the moment they see me. Let me wink and suddenly have complete control over an entire room. Let me be mysterious and exciting and a legend. Let me live on in…[Read more]

  • catyeah posted an update 6 years, 6 months ago

    oh how the wants of the heart evolve

  • catyeah posted an update in the group Group logo of Call It A DiaryCall It A Diary 6 years, 6 months ago

    I don’t know what to do. You ask me what’s wrong, and I want to tell you, but I know that if I do, you’ll tell me to stop being dramatic. You’re my dad, aren’t you supposed to care? Aren’t I supposed to be your princess? Or at least something to you?
    You say that you “worry” about me, but somehow that “worry” doesn’t kick in until 1045 at night…[Read more]

  • catyeah and Profile picture of RachelRachel are now friends 6 years, 7 months ago

  • catyeah posted an update in the group Group logo of dear you...love medear you…love me 6 years, 7 months ago

    Dear You,
    I see you, and I feel happy.
    You smile at me, and I’m at home.
    Love, Me

  • catyeah posted an update in the group Group logo of dear you...love medear you…love me 6 years, 8 months ago

    Dear You,
    I wish I could hold onto that look in your eyes when you said goodbye today.
    I wish I could never forget how long you took to turn around.
    I wish I could burn a picture of your smile into my mind and never forget it.
    I wish we weren’t so hopeless.

  • catyeah posted an update in the group Group logo of dear you...love medear you…love me 6 years, 8 months ago

    Dear you,
    Thank you. That was the first time I ever really let myself cry in front of someone that wasn’t family. You made me feel safe, and you didn’t judge me, or laugh at me, or mention it the next day. You just hugged me, asked me if I was all right, and brought me a birthday cappuccino the next day. I can’t begin to tell you how much that…[Read more]

  • catyeah posted an update in the group Group logo of TruthTruth 6 years, 8 months ago

    What if I turned around and told you the truth? What if the next time your face was three inches from mine, I tilted my head, closed my eyes, and kissed you?
    What if I wasn’t kidding about staying up all night watching movies together?
    What if my jokes aren’t jokes?
    What if I really truly want to be with you?
    What if you weren’t going away to…[Read more]

  • catyeah commented on the post, geometric 6 years, 8 months ago

    Geometric. A word that evokes almost no creative thought what so ever. Geometric. Meaning something related to geometry? Math. Really. The least creative thing possible. Thanks. Way to leave it open-ended.

  • nichole changed their profile picture 6 years, 8 months ago

  • nichole posted an update 6 years, 8 months ago

    I should spend every moment kissing you.
    For all the times I couldn’t,
    for all the nights I spent tossing and turning
    wishing for nothing more
    than the scent of you beside me,
    and the freedom to kiss your temple
    while you slept, unaware of the roiling
    and growing and burning of my love
    and my longing.

  • nichole posted an update 6 years, 8 months ago

    i
    step one,
    crack open the ribs
    like the plastic cover
    for your newest toy.

    ii
    step two,
    discard the things inside
    you don’t need; instructions
    and warranty, first.

    iii
    step three,
    enjoy until you grow tired
    of its limits and downfalls and
    quirks, then discard.

  • nichole posted an update 6 years, 8 months ago

    When the agony of breathing
    usurps the treacherous pleasure
    of your tongue grazing mine,
    I’ll know I’ve been dreaming all along.

  • nichole posted an update 6 years, 8 months ago

    there are a hundred people
    making love and war in my head;
    all of them demanding attention,
    all of them claiming a right to
    this body I inhabit, claiming
    they were the one meant
    to move these limbs and pull
    the levers and sift through
    the jumble of thoughts
    left behind from
    a hundred different lives
    lived before this one.

  • nichole posted an update 6 years, 8 months ago

    I once knew a girl with eyes that shone
    like Venus on a clear night
    and the sound of her voice
    made crickets quiet down to listen.

    But she was a flighty bird,
    a burning-out star trapped
    in our atmosphere, screaming
    and dying to get out, to breathe in

    space dust and toy with vortexes
    and we were all too selfish
    to recognize the gradual fading
    of…[Read more]

  • nichole posted an update 6 years, 8 months ago

    I think about how you may have been a trigger
    I never quite tripped.

    You took me to the place
    where your family buried your horses,
    a wide patch of land surrounded by
    dying trees and yellowed grass,
    and we talked about things greater than ourselves
    and we walked a little more.

    I don’t think I would have loved you,
    despite the kindness you s…[Read more]

  • nichole posted an update 6 years, 8 months ago

    i
    the paint is peeling
    in the corners,
    drooping downward.

    ii
    the night hangs heavy,
    a mouthful of molasses caught
    in the back of my throat.

    iii
    your absence fills the room
    like cotton and I feel smothered
    and lonely.