• sheirin commented on the post, shepherd 7 years, 5 months ago

    Guided. Guided I was by my impractical thoughts of how strong I was, how ready and able I was. Then finally one day I discovered I was not superwoman. I stopped shepherding myself with these thoughts of perfection, and finally started feeling.

  • sheirin commented on the post, trade 7 years, 7 months ago

    I’d give anything for one – even if just for a day. To trade the day for someone else’s. Someone not so alone, so broken, so alone. The days go by so slowly, and I’d give it all for one that just didn’t.

  • sheirin commented on the post, boiling 7 years, 8 months ago

    Sitting here, indoors, I feel like I’m about to have a sun stroke. I can’t think, can barely move for fear of falling faint. Thoughts of our last conversation swirling around in my mind. I get up for water and realise as I fall to the ground that the only thing boiling in this freezing […]

  • sheirin commented on the post, muse 7 years, 8 months ago

    She would be perfect. Not in that goes-to-church, loves-her-daddy kind of way. Not at all. But the way she looked – as in looked at everything; the way she carried – as in herself; and just the way she was. She was the perfect muse.

  • sheirin commented on the post, bow 7 years, 9 months ago

    She always had it somewhere. Sometimes it was tied in her hair, on her necklace, around her wrist. She always had that yellow bow somewhere. I see the colour yellow and all I can think of is her. Today I reached into the cupboard in the bathroom – the one downstairs. And it glided its […]

  • sheirin commented on the post, curious 7 years, 11 months ago

    Killed the cat didn’t it? I’ve always hated cliche’s like that. They were never really true anyway. When have i ever been hurt for being curious? So, i say. I say I haven’t. and I’m yet to be. Curiosity is for the adventurous.

  • sheirin commented on the post, eyeliner 7 years, 11 months ago

    I came over one morning to help her apply her makeup – you know, the blushes and the eyeliners and the lip-stuff. So much she had forgotten, but how to be beautiful was not one of those things. I rang the doorbell and she opened. “Yes?” Being beautiful she still knew, but today she forgot […]

  • sheirin commented on the post, fluorescent 7 years, 11 months ago

    She caught my attention that one May 6th. She walked off that platform, looking like the travel had got the best of her; but she had my attention anyways. The way she walked like she knew exactly where she was – when she obviously didn’t – and the way she wore that fluorescent ribbon around […]

  • sheirin commented on the post, chorus 7 years, 11 months ago

    We talk, we laugh, we dance, we sing alone. We learn our own words, to make our stories heard. We want the world to know MY story; she wants HERS told; and everyone says their OWN. But then, something beautiful happens. Chorus. And we talk, we laugh, we dance, and we sing it together.

  • sheirin commented on the post, deadbolt 7 years, 11 months ago

    left me out. i came back to get my things, but she had put a deadbolt on the door, to keep me out. i’ll never know what i had done… if it had been loving her too much until she could not take it or not remembering that she didn’t love me. but all i […]

  • sheirin commented on the post, trailer 7 years, 12 months ago

    Well, I was only watching to pass the time. Then: flashes, sounds, descriptions. Memories. Why was the timing so? I remembered it all, just as I had forgotten it. All in 30 seconds of picture, and now, forever.

  • waiting. waiting. here i am. where am i? left. no, no. right. i am going to turn right now. okay i’ve turned right shit why did i do that? gary just called. he said to go left there. or did he say right?