• Ellie commented on the post, trap 7 years, 4 months ago

    I’m being trapped by you. The 27th of this month you’ll let me go. But for now your getting ready to go away while you keep me in a shoe box with holes stabbed into the top. You’ll keep me under your bed and one […]

  • Ellie commented on the post, quest 7 years, 6 months ago

    Questing myself, launching myself into your body. Falling short of a new relationship with you. Realizing what she said was true. “I just define love on being able to do nothing for a really long time and be […]

  • Ellie commented on the post, maze 7 years, 9 months ago

    The maze in your head was nothing compared to the holes in your pocket. You say you don’t care, and you love her. But what happens when I love you? I tried telling myself it wouldn’t work. “I saw how you looked at […]

  • Ellie commented on the post, dusk 7 years, 11 months ago

    It’s my birthday today and all I want is you. I’m a walking-talking cliche, but I don’t even know who YOU are anymore. I have any idea shared between a few people but all I know is my stomach is about to jump me and I feel like shit and I just cried after getting […]

  • Ellie commented on the post, sneaky 8 years ago

    There’s this boy that is sneaky. I had heard of him and his ridiculous nickname. Never actually had the pleasure of meeting him and sure as hell not smoking and drinking with him. He stood around the fire in that green sweatshirt and talked about the Occupy Movement. We smoked and drank together and when […]

  • Ellie commented on the post, shuffle 8 years ago

    The grass and sun is melting all around me, I can’t help but think of my new home. The shit I won’t ever get tired of. The shit my body longs for. Cheap cigarettes and expensive prides. Fake McDonald’s, and real plants. Mud used medically and weeds grown sporadically. Freckles on dark skin and a […]

  • Ellie commented on the post, solitaire 8 years ago

    I love you, I love you, I don’t love you anymore. You’re not what I want now. Cobachi, Sonora, Mexico is my dream. My ridiculous dream. My en-ethical dream. We’ve fallen in love. From it’s caves, to it’s ranches, and beautiful people.

  • Ellie commented on the post, profound 8 years, 1 month ago

    You had the likeness about you that people were quickly attracted to and when they found out you had an std they talked shit about you behind your back. They didn’t want to be around you anymore. You were a disease in the punk rock scene which wasn’t really punk rock of you. I hope […]

  • Ellie commented on the post, passionate 8 years, 1 month ago

    Inadequate compassion is what you always held and always denied. You don’t believe in anything but you believe in love. You don’t understand it, but you still believe in it. Kind of like Santa Claus. I ruined everything because now your sober and now Halloween is over.

  • Ellie commented on the post, compassion 8 years, 1 month ago

    Watching Jerry Springer, learning how to compare my life to their shitty ones. Creating new habits and dropping habits. Dropping appointments and keeping appointments. The nicotine in my heart is where you used to be. You’re now homeless and hopping my veins in hope for love. I won’t give myself up for you. I love […]

  • Ellie commented on the post, setting 8 years, 2 months ago

    I remember faintly something I had accidentally memorized from reading too much. It was our first date and we laid in the back of your mother’s truck looking at the stars and we were ten feet from the train tracks. Every thought was running through our heads and we were climbing to the bottom of […]

  • Ellie commented on the post, port 8 years, 2 months ago

    The wind nearly fell out of your body the day you forgot how to love me, and I just listened to the clever clicks of your tongue as you told me the bullshit I always wanted to hear. I built and jumped off that bridge a long time ago. Then this feeling springs up on […]

  • Ellie commented on the post, destruction 8 years, 3 months ago

    Tell me what I’m supposed to do. Were the pills worth it? Are you okay up there? Do you need anything? I’d be willing to get up there to help you. I miss you, Chris. Don’t ever take 7 oxys ever again. I will never forgive you for this. I just wish you would have […]

  • Ellie commented on the post, elastic 8 years, 4 months ago

    My feelings are elastic. They stretch and stretch and never tear or worn down. I’m stringer now. I don’t love you anymore. I don’t love you anymore. I don’t love you anymore. In fact, I’m done with love for quite a while. Thank you. I’m not sad anymore.

  • Ellie commented on the post, bulb 8 years, 4 months ago

    What do you call a flower before it blooms? A bud? No, fuck you. Okay. No, wait. Bullshit. There’s no meaning to this post for I am much too drunk to be writitng.

  • Ellie commented on the post, boiling 8 years, 4 months ago

    I was so incredibly nervous on my ride home. I had thought you just wanted to know if I had any pot. I didn’t and you offered to shotgun your lucky with me and I agreed without thinking. I missed the hot rain and your fake anger.

  • Ellie commented on the post, root 8 years, 4 months ago

    It was thin. Paper thin. The roots under our feet. At the beginning. When we grew they grew longer. Grew deeper. When she came into the picture she took us out of the light and put us in a closet. We ran out of sun, and she didn’t water us. We had died so incredibly […]

  • Ellie commented on the post, lightning 8 years, 4 months ago

    We got really stoned this morning and I was happy but it was awkward. Until you started laughing and my sleeping pill kicked in so I was really fucked up and we talked about cats and feminazis. You talked really loudly and wouldn’t stop laughing so I shh’d away at you and sent you home […]

  • Ellie commented on the post, violent 8 years, 4 months ago

    How do you make someone who you want them to be? ASK THEM. Tell them what the fuck you’re feeling and get it out of the way before the relationship gets worse. I learned that the hard way.

  • Ellie commented on the post, violent 8 years, 4 months ago

    You never started with that approach. But he did and I never told you. He’s an angry person. He raped me time after time again. I said no. I was unaware that constituted as rape. Now I go to Slut-Walks.