• Lola commented on the post, worst 1 year, 5 months ago

    I hear it every day It’s in my head
    Like a melody or a song you can’t forget
    It lingers like a whisper from a friend
    Or the credits at the end
    Of a movie you wish you could forget

    You’re the worst it says
    I’ll never forgive you it says
    Why are you still here it says

    Hopelessly hopeless I feel

    I no longer reply
    I’m too tired To…[Read more]

  • Lola commented on the post, religious 2 years, 6 months ago

    I use to feel secure in the religious blanket my mother covered us with as children. When I began to have my own ideas I thought there was no way a being in the sky could rule over the entire existence. Now I can’t help but feel the energy there. The unspoken words and incomprehensible warmth of love. Although I cannot doubt the presence I can’t…[Read more]

  • Lola commented on the post, buddha 3 years, 6 months ago

    The buddah is so full of joy. He seems to have no regret or sadness. He sits content with his demise. He sits there perhaps laughing at everyone at how worried we are at the little things. At nothing.

  • Lola commented on the post, stereotype 5 years, 11 months ago

    walking had always been more difficult than sticking a needle through my bare flesh. id rather stare at the blood race down my dry neglected skin a thousand times and stare as my dna traces my every outline and watch it seep through the indents and the pores. a visible mark to prove to those around me that i am alive not a demerit. while you watch…[Read more]

  • Lola commented on the post, brisk 5 years, 11 months ago

    things were going too slow,
    it felt as if everything was shattering
    around me into pieces
    in flashes of images

    i couldn’t control my scenery
    i asked what you could do for me

    you said close your eyes and wait
    you said all i had to do was sleep

    our hands met our eyes followed
    suddenly summer led to fall

    we walked through the rest…[Read more]

  • Lola commented on the post, affection 5 years, 12 months ago

    and then she kicked ’em all out, except for one
    I wonder if she knows what its like to have fun

    I guess i’ll just sit here and pretend I didn’t see
    and then process it all like I am she & she is me

    now i’m just being silly, all i crave is your

    A tt (ff) E (c) n TION

  • Lola commented on the post, affection 5 years, 12 months ago

    She craved one thing more than anything else
    She craved it more than she craved possessions

    She knew not what it was or where to find it
    She looked and she looked but it seemed to be a pointless

    She locked herself in her room and took all her cats with her

    And as much as she might have disliked me I was the only one who understood how…[Read more]

  • Lola commented on the post, stampede 6 years ago

    soon you’ll disappear and you’ll have face them
    no matter how invisible you think you are your fear won’t
    help you evade them

    if you manage to escape like a rock you’ll be forever frozen
    but you’ll never escape earth’s erosion

    there’s no use in hiding

    run, run deep into the woods and wait for the foot soldiers
    a stampede will devour…[Read more]

  • Lola commented on the post, parachute 6 years ago

    i had not expected much
    that day
    i didn’t care at all if the sky
    was gray
    i jumped out and began to plummet

    into a place no one knows
    is sad and full of no hope

    did i have a parachute or would i fall
    into a world that wont let you stand tall

  • Lola commented on the post, scale 6 years ago

    the scale is unbalance and im trying my hardest
    the scale is unbalanced has anyone noticed

    i ignore the scale because it tells me im not okay
    but what can i do when theres no where to run away

    the scale whispers its all your fault
    the scale whispers its not in the stars

    but what can i do where theres no where go
    i ask the scale if…[Read more]

  • Lola commented on the post, lunacy 6 years ago

    sometimes i feel just like the moon
    am i too close to this body of water and land
    why cant i move away and find something
    else to do

    am i insane or do i constantly do everything
    all over and over

    i find myself repeating things, is this dejavu
    or just a disorder

    am i the moon or just a loner

  • Lola commented on the post, gallery 6 years ago

    display me like they do in the myriads of galleries
    but never show them my face
    show them what i look like when i cry
    but never show them my face
    show them what i look like when i feel like
    im dying inside, but i beg you not to
    show them my face

    let them wonder what it’s like to live inside
    this body and let them picture what it is like…[Read more]

  • Lola commented on the post, aura 6 years, 1 month ago

    It wasn’t something I heard often, and in between all those meaningless words she caught my attention. A light inside of me flickered when she said the word “aura”. She claimed to know all of our auras and the semblance of the stories within. My curiosity peaked with the idea that she might see the darkness inside of me. If she knew that at times…[Read more]

  • Lola commented on the post, vapor 6 years, 2 months ago

    I need to get it all out of my head
    and I need it to be as quick as water
    becomes vapor with uncertainty,
    about its decision
    its metamorphosis

    but I don’t want to know about it
    I don’t want to talk about it

    I just want it out, out of my head

  • Lola commented on the post, plaster 6 years, 2 months ago

    I plastered their faces on the wall
    I wanted to see what they would look like
    if they were all happy

    My face didn’t belong up there with theirs

    I couldn’t even muster the energy to go
    on for as long as I should

    The plaster dried up and I had no time
    to prove to them, that I too could be happy

  • Lola commented on the post, meow 6 years, 2 months ago

    “You’re the cat’s meow” she whispered silently under her breath.
    The chilly air made her voice visible under the night sky.

    He put his arm around her waist and held her tightly next to him.
    There was something about her that made him want to keep her safe.

    Underneath the universe, earth floats by
    we’re all microscopic underneath the…[Read more]

  • Lola commented on the post, raven 6 years, 3 months ago

    It’s still sitting there, it is still perched on that branch
    it’s been months since it’s tried to escape
    I tried to shoo it away, I tried to push it away
    but most importantly I tried to kill it away

    it was no use, I gave up

    rocks did nothing, neither did sticks
    I didn’t want to try bullets

    It’s still sitting there, perched on that…[Read more]

  • Lola commented on the post, willful 6 years, 3 months ago

    I cannot agree with myself. All of these decisions that I am making and all of the choices I am going to make, have I already made them, or is it all just a dream? I’m stuck wondering if I have a chain around my neck, but who is tugging it? More questions than there are answers. This chain it pulls me, I’ve got a collar too, written on it, “wi…[Read more]

  • Lola commented on the post, decoy 6 years, 3 months ago

    they are everywhere
    their purpose is to distract you
    from reality, from the truth

    we are being brain washed
    into thinking we make our
    own decisions, but
    the truth is that we don’t

    you, me, and everyone is a decoy

    just possibly misplaced

  • Lola commented on the post, stilts 6 years, 3 months ago

    They’ll make you big and tall
    you may or may not be afraid to fall
    but think about what might happen
    if you’re stuck all the way up there
    the lady folk won’t kiss you
    and if you bend over you’ll fall
    the men they’ll feel tiny
    not manly at all

    so think twice before you decide
    to climb in those stilts
    think thrice before you decide
    to…[Read more]