• nichole posted an update 6 years, 6 months ago

    At what point does being alive
    ever coexist with our deepest expectations?
    I’ve trudged through thus far,
    at times up to my throat in the quicksand
    of reality and the frailty of our souls and
    the weight and agony of a battered mind.
    I’ve pressed on when my bones quivered
    and my heart stuttered and everything inside of me
    screamed to be relieved of the burdenous nature
    of life, I’ve pressed on when my lungs
    were set ablaze and the wildfire ate my ribcage,
    when everything went black and all I knew was
    a hollow sickness that has never left me,
    and I want to know
    when it is going to fu*king pay off.