nichole posted an update 6 years, 6 months ago
At what point does being alive
ever coexist with our deepest expectations?
I’ve trudged through thus far,
at times up to my throat in the quicksand
of reality and the frailty of our souls and
the weight and agony of a battered mind.
I’ve pressed on when my bones quivered
and my heart stuttered and everything inside of me
screamed to be relieved of the burdenous nature
of life, I’ve pressed on when my lungs
were set ablaze and the wildfire ate my ribcage,
when everything went black and all I knew was
a hollow sickness that has never left me,
and I want to know
when it is going to fu*king pay off.