• Hayden commented on the post, soar 4 years, 5 months ago

    I have seen many juliettes running from their romeo (remembrance)
    too many trees shedding their leaves in this falling world
    I am wistful; you are not lucid
    I think of the many planes that have disappeared; I think of you. your smile
    keeps me up in the clouds with them. So I can remember. How I felt, How I felt.
    soaring above me is the gates…[Read more]

  • Hayden commented on the post, farmers 4 years, 7 months ago

    i still love you when you’re high/ as you dry my eyes/ I am burning for you/ i want to kiss you with our eyes open/ eyes open/ our hearts only meant it x3/ lips touched once and never again

  • Hayden commented on the post, locket 4 years, 8 months ago

    a working list of things i want to share with you sits by my bed

    you were the first person to touch me

    i still feel you in my dreams

    i think about kissing you on new years

    the lipstick stains, flushed cheeks

    i think about your smiling eyes

    as you dry mine i feel restless.

    requiem plays in the backround

    and i start to…[Read more]

  • Hayden commented on the post, weathered 5 years, 1 month ago

    My body is weathered.
    When I think of you again, under the lilac bush
    I will retreat back into my shell of thinking you were the one.
    Each night before going to bed I will pray the rosary
    hoping you’ll find you’re way back to me.
    Soon even then I will convince myself that it is only the summer heat.
    You are no longer what controls me,…[Read more]

  • Hayden commented on the post, wreath 5 years, 6 months ago

    i wish i could be like you
    crafty for hours on end
    making wreaths for the holidays and
    pumpkin pie.

    this year i didn’t even pick out a tree.
    each side, both persistent for an outcome found me,
    indecisive, in my room, hours on end
    writing what i couldn’t always write.

    i didn’t want anything to do with you, i wanted everything.

  • Hayden commented on the post, unthinkable 5 years, 6 months ago

    you ask me each time i dwindle
    i fall in love with you each time- you ask me
    if i’m thinking about you or what
    and i say i’m thinking about your cuteness
    you held my hand on the backroads
    turkeys flocked before our eyes
    i thought i saw my life flash before my eyes
    turns out it was only love
    flashing back to when i was unable to admit it

  • Hayden commented on the post, sandcastle 5 years, 7 months ago

    chincoteague island as a young one
    i grew fishing for crabs and capturing sea ponies by polaroid
    now i grow, fishing for you- smitten.

  • Hayden commented on the post, canopy 5 years, 7 months ago

    as a child i was overcome by guilt
    i found myself laying in bed more often
    under a canopy of my thoughts,
    i almost wasted away.
    these days, i found myself confusing dreams with reality
    neither living nor dying,
    i almost wasted away.

  • Hayden commented on the post, scale 5 years, 8 months ago

    o god
    you’re such a
    such a
    demon.
    you’ve got me by each-
    a wish.
    scale down to a penny,
    the copper will melt for me, upon
    you and everything.

  • Hayden commented on the post, submerged 5 years, 11 months ago

    for a moment i am submerged deep in sleep:
    i introduce you to my mom,
    hold you close, thank
    you for taking me home.

    you are a rosary of which i pray each night
    i can then say
    ive seen you quiver.

  • Hayden commented on the post, delight 5 years, 11 months ago

    it has delight
    the fact
    the butterfly bush
    makes so many memories
    or what once was
    my yard.

    i miss the berries under my foot
    gone red like the blood to come:
    a yard makes so many memories.

  • Hayden commented on the post, wistful 5 years, 11 months ago

    i am antsy on our vintage red couch,
    it sinks to the floor.
    the apartment building is musty;
    the robins came back.
    blue disappears through the ground and spouts to the bay-
    only in my dreams
    we lay crying.
    you moved to the hotel downtown:
    almost six years later it is remodeled,
    an ipitome of ugly.
    for one reason (maybe more)
    i was…[Read more]

  • Hayden commented on the post, wistful 5 years, 11 months ago

    you spend wistful beginnings, at our spot
    daisy sprouted next to canisters of spraying paint
    grown by graffiti on never ending cable cars.
    i never was until our summer- now anxious
    we don’t speak.