• Castiel commented on the post, classic 8 years, 8 months ago

    Dean has often told me that Classic Rock is the only music I should be listing too. He has told me this repetitively over the years. I remember one particular monologue he made some time back in 2011 as we were traveling around the state of Idaho. The ratio stations were just beginning to flicker […]

  • Castiel commented on the post, structured 8 years, 8 months ago

    Before I met Dean Winchester, my entire existence was based on service to Heaven, obeying its structured rules and laws and policies. He changed that, changed my views of almost everything. For the first time in my thousands of years of existence I felt doubt.

  • Castiel commented on the post, woven 8 years, 8 months ago

    I feel like my Father is still out there. Weaving my destiny into that of the Winchesters. I do not think that this is the fate that my Father had originally intended for me, but that this is now the one he wants for me. I can not even begin to fathom why, never would […]

  • Castiel commented on the post, however 8 years, 8 months ago

    The ‘howevers’ and ‘what ifs’ are the hardest pieces of learning to think for myself. When following orders, it was always assumed that my higher ups had already gone through these, but now they are mine to handle, and the responsibility is terrifying, because I fear that a ‘however’ in the fine print might come […]

  • Castiel commented on the post, approach 8 years, 8 months ago

    For many, many years I could not comprehend exactly why my father created humans, I simply knew that he did. But, I think that now I am perhaps approaching understanding. I continue to see how these humans are capable of so much, for better or for worse. They are imperfect and they have the potential […]

  • Castiel commented on the post, policy 8 years, 8 months ago

    Policy. The line witch must not be crossed. The box witch one must reside in. The Rules witch are never to be broken. As a child I was taught the importance of these Rules. Of following my Orders. I was taught that The Rules are something witch one should never question. Never dispute. For they […]

  • Castiel commented on the post, whole 8 years, 8 months ago

    Whole. I have not felt completely whole since my grace was torn out of my chest. But sometimes, when I am in the proximity of Dean Winchester, something else is filled, and though I am still aware of the hole in my grace, the emptiness doesn’t seem to bother me as much.