• Outsider commented on the post, ordinary 1 year, 10 months ago

    She was anything but ordinary. She was beautiful. When someone looked at her, she made an impact. Her protruding bones were exactly what everyone wanted. Her light frame was one that could be lifted like a feather with a sigh of the wind.

  • Outsider commented on the post, resident 1 year, 10 months ago

    She was the only resident who couldn’t afford her rent consistently. That is why she began sleeping with the landlord. She knew she couldn’t handle being out on the streets again. She felt that she was happier giving up her dignity than having nowhere to call her own.

  • Outsider commented on the post, melting 1 year, 10 months ago

    I sit in my heated car watching the snowflakes melt as they hit the dirty windshield. I wonder if anyone will miss me. I wonder how long it will take before they realize I’m gone. I caress the cold metal of the gun in the palm of my hand and wait for the right moment.

  • Outsider commented on the post, antennae 1 year, 11 months ago

    As I adjusted the antenna on the television set, I watched the screen to see if the fuzziness disappeared. Once I finally got it right, I stood up from my kneel and triumphantly turned around. Not to me surprise, behind me was my sleeping husband.
    I wonder silently “How did I end up here?”

  • Outsider commented on the post, sitcom 4 years, 6 months ago

    I sat there staring blanky at the television, wondering when he was going to be coming home. I drowned my mind in the ridiculous sitcom comedy. I knew he would be home any minute, and that was indeed a dreaded time. He’d probably be drunk when he got home. He’d probably hurt me like he seemed to enjoy doing every night. It was a ritual that I was…[Read more]

  • Outsider commented on the post, flee 5 years, 4 months ago

    “Run.” The voice whispered. “Get out of here.” I knew this was the person that only I saw. This was the person who no one else could see. I understand why. It’s technically due to my schizophrenia, but I couldn’t help but wonder if they were the ones who were messed up, not me. What if this this person really were there, and they couldn’t see the…[Read more]

  • Outsider commented on the post, scalp 5 years, 4 months ago

    I rubbed my scalp and picked out the minuscule things in there. They’d never bothered me. I always itched on my head. But apparently I wouldn’t be allowed to board this ship even in the shabbiest quarters with these little critters living in my hair. Something must be done.

  • Outsider commented on the post, stamped 5 years, 4 months ago

    With each stamp of his tiny feet, she wanted to cry harder because she couldn’t give her son everything he wanted. When the small boy asked for a simple toy, she knew that if she bought him the toy, they’d both have to skip a meal, maybe even more than one.

  • Outsider commented on the post, scale 5 years, 4 months ago

    I looked down at the numbers. No lower. No higher. That’s wasn’t okay with me. I was still 125 pounds and no where near where I wanted to be. I wasn’t happy with me, which is a sick understatement. In all honesty, I was doing everything I could possibly do to reach a goal: paper thin. But somehow, I just wasn’t there yet and no one but me seemed to care.

  • Outsider commented on the post, easygoing 5 years, 4 months ago

    She was exactly that…easygoing. Too easygoing. It was as if she wanted to go with the flow, which appeared to be harmless. But when the “flow” ended up throwing her off of a cliff–or in her case, in front of a speeding car–it turned out that “going with the flow” wouldn’t ever be enough to save her.

  • Outsider commented on the post, rewrite 5 years, 4 months ago

    Over and over again, I tried to perfect the letter. I wanted the perfect words, the perfect explanation, yet an air of mystery still left behind. Each time I rewrote this, I pictured myself lying on my bed, still as if I was sleeping. But I knew I wouldn’t wake up. Somehow the thought of oblivion calmed my chaotic mind enough for me to perfect the…[Read more]

  • Outsider commented on the post, pines 5 years, 4 months ago

    As she sat in the corner of her room, rocking back and forth, she cried. She was pining to have a soul mate with who she could share her last days, but she knew she couldn’t. She had a painful desire to been seen and heard. But no matter how much she screamed for attention, she knew she would never get it. Not after all she’d done.

  • Outsider commented on the post, fools 5 years, 8 months ago

    They were fools. Every single one of them who had poisoned their minds with the garbage that they knew would come out in extraneous ways. They knew there was a time to turn back, but they didn’t take the chance. Now that train is gone, and it won’t ever return.

  • Outsider commented on the post, secluded 5 years, 8 months ago

    I felt like I had personally been secluded by the people around me on purpose. It wasn’t that I didn’t want to know. It wasn’t that they didn’t trust me. It was only for the one reason that I didn’t have anything in return. It was the fact that they kept it from me for reasons of blackmail. That was what really hurt me. Many times I’d felt alone,…[Read more]

  • Outsider commented on the post, plague 5 years, 10 months ago

    I knew there was no returning back to the way things were before. Dark thoughts entered my mind like a plague invading and destroying all things that were good. I knew nothing else but these thoughts. I knew that life as I knew it was over for good.

  • Outsider commented on the post, flat 6 years ago

    I flatten my self against the wall, hiding from the people called the Nazis. They want me, and I know it. I clutch my sleeping child to my breast and hold my own breath. They shine flashlights into the alley, only just missing my own shadow. If my baby decides now to wake up and cry, it is all over. And then she does.

  • Outsider commented on the post, speech 6 years, 1 month ago

    I bite my tongue for fear of my words getting away from me. I tend to have a big mouth that says what it wants to say. That is: it says EXACTLY what my mind is thinking. That’s never a good thing.

  • Outsider commented on the post, end 6 years, 1 month ago

    It’s the end of it all. I can’t do this anymore. Letting you take me into your arms and me knowing it is all wrong. This is not where I’m supposed to be. I know this isn’t how it should end, but I also know that this shouldn’t have happened like this at all in the first place.

  • Outsider commented on the post, knows 6 years, 1 month ago

    Nobody could ever know what I am feeling, unless they’ve gone through it too. Murder isn’t funny. Especially when you are the one being accused of it.

    It was not me who killed my husband. I don’t know what happened, but nobody hears the words of a so-called criminal.

  • Outsider commented on the post, living 6 years, 2 months ago

    Nothing inside of me–or outside, for that matter– wants to be living right now. She is dead, and it’s my fault. I never could have imagined what this was like. My mind wouldn’t even allow me to picture it. But now, I’m living it. I’m living the nightmare.