• lily commented on the post, declined 5 years, 1 month ago

    sometimes you need to politely decline
    sometimes you need a night to sit at home by yourself
    we all do
    I do
    and that is okay

  • lily commented on the post, church 5 years, 1 month ago

    i never really belonged there
    nothing made sense to me
    virgins can not produce offspring
    i was afraid to speak my mind in such a place
    after i left
    people asked me why
    they meant well
    they were nice people, mostly
    but not all
    and i felt better when i was not trying to fit in
    when i was not trying to change my beliefs

  • lily commented on the post, overt 5 years, 1 month ago

    since my face does any talking for me
    my expressions tend to be overt
    and i am learning
    to find joy in that

  • lily commented on the post, welcoming 5 years, 1 month ago

    there is something so welcoming
    about walking into the barn
    the horses stick their noses through the bars on their stall doors
    and nicker to say hello
    you can smell the hay
    and the tack
    and the horses
    (of course)
    and everybody you see wants you to be there
    there is something so welcoming
    about belonging

  • lily commented on the post, interested 5 years, 1 month ago

    i am interested in so few things
    i love horses
    i love books
    i love songs
    but lately
    even the things i love
    have been boring me
    who cares about math?
    (me)
    who cares about the latest book?
    (me)
    who cares about their grades?
    (me)
    not me

  • lily commented on the post, adolescent 5 years, 1 month ago

    being this age is so hard
    i feel like i’m outgrowing my friends
    i feel like i’m outgrowing my town
    i feel like i’m outgrowing my house
    i feel like i’m outgrowing myself
    how will i get through this
    when i can barely get out of bed

  • lily commented on the post, motivated 5 years, 1 month ago

    I am the opposite of motivated
    I want to ride horses
    and write
    and read
    and listen to songs
    and spend time with my friends
    and be happy
    and take care of myself
    but it is 9:07 pm
    and I have yet to start my homework
    I do not care at all
    but I am supposed to care a lot

  • lily commented on the post, veteran 5 years, 1 month ago

    My cousin is
    hopefully
    going to be a veteran
    I hope he comes home
    okay

  • lily commented on the post, repressed 5 years, 2 months ago

    it seems like everything i feel needs to be repressed
    if i seem happy, people ask me why and they don’t let it go
    even long after i’m uncomfortable
    if i seem sad, there has to be an interesting reason, right?
    wrong.
    i don’t want to constantly explain myself
    leave me to my emotions

  • lily commented on the post, selective 5 years, 2 months ago

    I feel like everyone is so selective
    and I’ll never make the cut
    my hair is too wild
    my face isn’t angular
    I weigh too much
    I’m not smart or pretty or funny or like-able
    and I’m never going to be good enough

  • lily commented on the post, values 5 years, 2 months ago

    who is to say what a human life is worth
    how much is too much
    and what is not enough
    does a human life have worth
    or are we all just here in passing
    ?

  • lily commented on the post, grateful 5 years, 2 months ago

    i am grateful for you
    for your energy
    for you willingness to please
    for your strength of mind and
    for your strength of body
    i am so glad to work with you
    and with others like you
    you make me feel valuable

  • lily commented on the post, forefront 5 years, 2 months ago

    in the forefront of my mind
    is a whole lot
    and a whole lot of nothing
    it is so hard to clear my thoughts
    and i do not know what to do
    i am everywhere
    and nowhere