Touch, carefully intoxicated fingers rub a rhythm into your thigh. The rough material grounding you into the now. Innocent they are, just in a need to feel a connection and be close in this darkness. Finding anchor knowing that it won’t stay for long
Was it that obvious? All this time blind and running in the wrong direction? I love you I love you I chant but it isn’t enough. I want to hold you, beg you to stay but nothing comes but those dreamless nightmare that plague my mind. When did I fall, when did we let go? It’s hard to say goodbye when there is no one to hear you
Kill la Kill, those beaming lights shining down from above. Makes me cry to see those lights and know that what is lost will not be found.
I love you, you know, much more than all can handle. Is this the right path? Certainly it isn’t bright where we are right now
We stand, hands pressed, foreheads wishing they could touch. Glass borders hold us apart, but perhaps it is because you threw them up around your mind. I want to take a sledgehammer to it but I’m afraid of breaking you into a thousand pieces too. So instead I chisel glass carvings, little by little trying to get you to open the glass door
I miss the keys dancing under my fingers as a minuet or etude comes to life on my ears, I miss feeling my emotions rage as words can no longer express my feelings. I miss talking through music, trying to reach your heart. But you’ve already turned your ear away to listen to a melancholy tune, even though I am right next to you snatching for your friendship
Lined up, organized, swirling with mysterious liquids. Blue with a dash of golden sparkles. Ombre red ready to burst out of its cap. Mellow yellow with a touch of spring. What will happen when I knock them all down, spill their contents all together?
We get a human with complex emotions constantly at war
A beast, standing in front of the children, snarling with lips pulled back against omnivore teeth. Arms spread out, chest puffed up, a low growl unnatural coming from her throat. She doesn’t think she is being savage: rather, she is protecting her kids the way a tiger mom protects her cubs
Dreams, a misty haze, a thin fog, clouding the eyes, condensation on the window from our mingling breaths. The sun comes out to play and it all vanishes. For those 5 minutes I can believe we are friends, but when the door closes and I turn my back, everything turns to vapors floating to the sky, and I am just an imagination again
These kids, have they not any sense of respect? Any sense of discipline? I was so angry when I heard “This is boring,” and “We only do boring things in this class”. Then why am I here? Why am I taking the time to teach you something that took me 4 years to get okay at? Why are any teachers here in the first place? To change a life, to give a…[Read more]
I want to slam them closed, curse you out behind closed doors, scream and cry as the emptiness catches in my chest. I spew lie after lie in an attempt to appease the angry beast inside me, but nothing changes, it knows it is false.
So many doors, and yet I chose yours. Why do you keep trying to close your door on me with my foot in the door. I…[Read more]
Your shadows, manifesting cruelly in the swirl of smoke and mist. The blatant way the smile disappears when addressing you. Your anger, your frustration, your realization that you are but a farce. I should have never returned, I can never pray for the past. I can only look upon what has happened and move on.
I’m just not a part of your branch anymore, I’m a leaf just barely grasping on, soon you’ll shake me off and I’ll fall, and never be with you all together anymore
It’s sad that I have to tiptoe around you all, when in reality my feelings so strong have truth behind them all. I’m lonely and lost and fluttering away
i just want to disappear again
I need a hold on my reality and my mind
But it isn’t through the abyss that I must work
but through purity and clean thoughts
My positive smile brought you to my side
and I will not let my dark frown push you away
I will become stronger and overcome
I will have faith in us, even when the red string eternal seems…[Read more]
Throw it under, pile some earth on top, bury it so that it may never rise again. I hate what has grown from the tears that have watered it. When did this disdain and hatred grow where love should be? When something is watered with so many bitter tears, with no one to give it love, what would you expect to grow?
I just need your love now.
Who knows what will happen when the next day comes
Who knows if we’ll make it out of this together
Who knows if we have to part ways to come back into each other’s lives
Who knows where I’ll fall when you let go of my hand
All I know is that
I love you
and I will take the fall so I can climb back up
But it will be darkness before there is light
we’re moving in sync, but we’re not actually thinking
our lips our moving, but our minds are miles away
you’re this close to me, but so far away
when will you be available again?
so we can meet again, heart to heart
because it’s lonely and cold where I am
lost, the shadows wrapping me away
vikings don’t wear horned helms
and it goes on…[Read more]
Choices that we face, handed over by an old crone, what shall we do? The consequences of our actions hold such a power we will never know. And in some way, why am I always the one who has to suffer them. No decision I’ve come to, even after much debate, will be smiled on. For once, I wish that when a choice was presented, I could just ignore it…[Read more]