• LailaLCR commented on the post, choose 6 years, 3 months ago

    “Choose your weapon.” I think…..well, wet noodles are unweildy and I don’t really want to pick anything that will actually hurt somebody. I know! A water squirter! Like you use for cats. “Ffft Fffft, be nice!” “Ffft-Ffft, too rude!” That will work.

  • LailaLCR commented on the post, speech 6 years, 3 months ago

    Speech class was the one that terrified me. I hyperventilated every time I stood up there with my carefully crafted words on oversized index cards. I just could not do it. Until one desperate speech group came up with a plan. They sat all the way across the back of the room, behind the teacher, miming me breathing slowly “in” and “out.” The “out”…[Read more]

  • LailaLCR commented on the post, politician 6 years, 3 months ago

    How good a politician would I be? I like to think I would be lousy at it. It doesn’t seem noble or complimentary. But I bet I am wrong. I bet would be pretty good. I just couldn’t do it day in and day out. Eventually, I would just throw up my hands, yell, “Whatever!” and move on to something less frustrating. Like my current job….oh, wait a minute…..

  • LailaLCR commented on the post, promise 6 years, 3 months ago

    The promise of this day is not what I had hoped or expected. Still, it’s a good day. I am whole and happier than I planned to be. There is more wealth and richness than I looked forward to finding.

  • LailaLCR commented on the post, barrel 6 years, 3 months ago

    A barrel of wine sat in the corner of the cellar. It had been forgotten for so long that it despaired of ever being anything more than vinegar. Even that fate seemed unlikely. A disappointed vintage from a sad year on a dismal acre of land.

  • LailaLCR commented on the post, now 6 years, 4 months ago

    Now, the air is warm inside and cold out. The trees are still twinkling one day later. The cats are doing their best to obstruct any clear view of the tv. The dog is pacing around the table, hoping a cookie falls off, all on its own. My husband and godson are occupied with screens of their own for the moment. And Harry Potter 7 is on the agenda…[Read more]

  • LailaLCR commented on the post, sate 6 years, 4 months ago

    Can we sate the desire to know what will happen by focusing on what is happening. I hope so. If the present moment is not enough to soothe this anxious desire to foreknow, then I am done. So I notice the warmth of my socks, the sigh of my dog, the peaceful snore of a napping husband whose foot is on mine.

  • LailaLCR commented on the post, July 6 years, 4 months ago

    I just read an e-mail that reference July and I cannot even imagine why. It’s December and I am totally doused in Christmas-icity. July isn’t even imagineable or for that matter interesting.

  • LailaLCR commented on the post, both 6 years, 4 months ago

    Both of us wandered through the gate and out of the backyard. He stayed a little behind, sniffing daisies along the sidewalk. I slapped the soles of my trainers against the concrete and breathed in through my nose out through my mouth. He yipped and sniffed and snorted.

  • LailaLCR commented on the post, object 6 years, 4 months ago

    The object of her affection moved across the room unaware of her gaze. She kept herself to herself except that her thoughts reached out where she withdrew. The sun shifted from one side of the room to the other, still, she remained.

  • LailaLCR commented on the post, past 6 years, 4 months ago

    I have done this entry in the past. The very recent past. Like last night. Oops.

  • LailaLCR commented on the post, past 6 years, 4 months ago

    I smelled something baking the other day as I walked through the shops. I found myself flying backwards through time on the scents. I was there, again. Right where I had been, just then.

  • LailaLCR commented on the post, under 6 years, 4 months ago

    Under all this turmoil, the water is much calmer than you might imagine. It runs deep and clear, sometimes warm and sometimes cold as ice, but not ice yet. So right now, bouncing in the waves on the surface, I just want to dive deep and swim down for a little while before turning upward again.

  • LailaLCR commented on the post, local 6 years, 4 months ago

    I love to shop locally during the holidays. The owners are just as stressed but they are still more fun than the folks in the big chain stores. Everything you buy is a double treat. One for you and one for them. And they usually have cookies or cocoa or something sweet.

  • Institutions, with or without walls, surround me. They dominate the landscape like fierce giants, transformers. Benign one moment, they fly to new heights in smoke of rearrangement when threatened and I wonder, where is their life force?

  • LailaLCR commented on the post, employees 6 years, 5 months ago

    The employees left the building one by one. It had been a long day but no one was quite ready to leave. The guy sweeping up the McDOnald’s across the street thought they looked like a basketball team getting off the bus after an away game.

  • LailaLCR commented on the post, measured 6 years, 5 months ago

    “I’ve measured out my life with coffee spoons.” My little English Major’s heart almost burst in Bible STudy the other day when someone quoted “Love Song of J Alfred Prufrock” as we studied Psalm 139. In 20 years of ministry, it was a unique experience.

  • LailaLCR commented on the post, arts 6 years, 5 months ago

    Arts and crafts always brings summer camp to mind. I loved to do arts and crafts on the deck of the main log cabin dining hall whether the afternoon was hot and sunny or storming wildly. It was my favorite place to be. I liked the art part but moreover was the attitude with which everyone would just hang out and be together.

  • LailaLCR commented on the post, somebody 6 years, 5 months ago

    Somebody loves me more than I thought possible. Then another somebody. Then I realize I love me , too. And I can love somebody better than I ever thought I could.

  • LailaLCR commented on the post, use 6 years, 5 months ago

    Use it all up. Don’t waste anything. I wonder if I’ll be able to break even or if, at the end, there will be too much of one thing and too little of another. Will there be some little edge unfinished? Some little fragment hanging over?