• Jason commented on the post, spilled 5 years, 10 months ago

    I’m in warrior mode
    having gone more than two months
    without a day off
    without reprieve.
    Most weeks I only sleep six hours a night
    and I trudge forward
    with resolve sharper than I ever knew
    prior to this two month deluge.
    This is not a poem.
    This is my awe on the page,
    an ink bottle tipped over,
    with its contents finding solace on the page.

  • Jason commented on the post, punished 5 years, 11 months ago

    At the end of the day
    with an already full shame tank
    I listen to the weathered words
    of a divine inner hatred
    for the freedom you never had
    and are intent to deny me
    as you remove my right
    to celebrate myself
    and discipline myself.

  • Jason commented on the post, satisfy 6 years, 4 months ago

    Cry for what you want
    And it will come.

    Grieving is the way out
    and the way in.

  • Jason commented on the post, institutions 6 years, 4 months ago

    Bureaucratic little bastards
    teeth gnashing, gnawing into the air, latching onto anything that willy allow, even for the slightest amount of time, the opportunity to feast right through flesh till bones do crack and splinter,

    revealing that secretive marrow I held so dear.

    Before I knew it to be cancerous,

    feeding them. Sustaining…[Read more]

  • Jason commented on the post, employees 6 years, 4 months ago

    Little bumble bees
    Listening to the queen bee
    fly into the night.

  • Jason commented on the post, somebody 6 years, 4 months ago

    Our differences make us the same.
    Our similarities make us different.
    There it is,

    written on the wall.

    For you to see before your lids droop deep down

    into the darkness you are scared to know.

    Kiss it. It will kiss you back,

    sweetly, smoothly,

    This doesn’t feel right this doesn’t feel right this doesn’t feel right.

    Don’t…[Read more]

  • Jason commented on the post, want 6 years, 7 months ago

    With burning passions, inner fire, and intense desire.

    I lay my hands on your torso.

    O, sweet dreams of your embrace surround me.

    Your facelessness speaks to my craving

    for the mistress I call Art.

  • Jason commented on the post, manners 6 years, 7 months ago

    No.

  • Jason commented on the post, assaults 6 years, 7 months ago

    There was a time in my life before it happened.
    Before the viciousness of a gang-initiation welcomed explosiveness into my life

    I do not want to go back to that time before

    and I do not want to move to a […]

  • Jason commented on the post, secret 6 years, 7 months ago

    I’ve cried myself to sleep more nights than not in the past nine months.

    And each night, I take a deep breath and say to myself “Oh, I will dream tonight”.

    And I do, remembering them more and more often, no […]

  • Jason commented on the post, trap 6 years, 7 months ago

    I once asked through relentless tears
    “Does it get better?”

    Your simple “No” confirmed what I already knew

    and my heart broke even further from the front this time, to the back.
    Pinning me against the […]

  • Jason commented on the post, statement 6 years, 8 months ago

    Do you always do as you are told by the world around you?

  • Jason commented on the post, statement 6 years, 8 months ago

    The blank pages around me fill with words while I look upon them.

    Meanwhile,

    The books of words around me, wanting to be read, bleach to an off white each time they open

    rendering themselves […]

  • Jason commented on the post, harness 6 years, 8 months ago

    I strapped myself on unknowingly.
    Dragging the weight of the family forward,
    ingesting their sins
    so that they may enter heaven
    while I fall down to hell
    a bigger sinner
    than I ought to have been.

  • Jason commented on the post, motion 6 years, 8 months ago

    My pocket watch ticks
    In the darkness, I hear it
    Time is passing by.

  • Jason commented on the post, walls 7 years, 1 month ago

    Dear brother of mine,

    Upon our last dinner I thought you would follow me out. I thought I would leave. Either way I was wrong in both accounts. You haven’t called, you don’t respond anymore, you haven’t read […]

  • Jason commented on the post, savage 7 years, 2 months ago

    Digging my toes into the clay beneath my feet I ready myself I brush my hand upon my face in elegant strokes, accenting here, twisting there; changing the expression on my face to that of a warrior. I snarl and rasp and wheeze and gnash my teeth in preparation. Fists fly and spin me round, […]

  • Jason commented on the post, scar 7 years, 3 months ago

    Christ said “You shall not get out till you have paid the last penny”. Katabasis; the descent, the downward, the sinking through the floor. I must travel down and leave. I must leave every bit of self I have now behind and let it fade and rise anew, from the ashes of the grief I […]

  • Jason commented on the post, downpour 7 years, 4 months ago

    The last rain I stood in I was ill prepared for. I knew it would happen. But I carried no umbrella, wore no outer layer. It started in the middle of dessert which was simply tea with nothing to eat, the beginnings of an ulcer already bearing it’s ugly face inside me. A dear friend […]

  • Jason commented on the post, downpour 7 years, 4 months ago

    I know that I am at the end of something.
    Something grand.
    Something long overdue and something poignant.

    I keep thinking about the beginning. And that’s how I know.

    And if I keep myself free, I will not be young Werther the way I am now