• in the quiet stillness, i can do nothing but wonder where you are and if you’re thinking of me.

  • helen lindsay commented on the post, glowing 8 years ago

    oh, to be glowing.
    to be a ray of happy light, spilling onto others.
    instead of a cluster of shadows, casting sadness upon everything.

  • You are the chief operating executive of my own life.
    though i might make executive decisions, You ultimately make them happen.
    You also sign my paychecks. so thanks.

  • i never know what you’re doing.
    even though you do.
    you always do.
    a slick step, a quick lip.
    the heart skips a quick beat.
    and i am lost in a sea of awkward confusion.
    at least you’re here with me.

  • helen lindsay commented on the post, bee 8 years, 2 months ago

    everything ended for you in a split second.
    buzz, buzz, buzz, land.
    with a bend of my elbow i crushed everything about you. your body. your mind. your past. your present.
    your future.

  • helen lindsay commented on the post, tables 8 years, 3 months ago

    i wish i could have been in the temple when Jesus turned all the tables.
    what a freakin’ BA.

  • helen lindsay commented on the post, flare 8 years, 3 months ago

    my coworkers at my old job used to call me “linds flare.” as in, a play on “lens flare,” a video effect used to transition between shots.

    it was probably the coolest nickname i’ll ever have.

  • yesterday was valentine’s day. several women my age were huddled in a corner stuffing their face with chocolate, cursing the wretched holiday amidst their singledom.
    all of it makes me ill. from chocolate to sadness.

  • helen lindsay commented on the post, needle 8 years, 3 months ago

    hey you! yeah, you over there with the camel! think you can jump through this hoop?

  • helen lindsay commented on the post, coward 8 years, 3 months ago

    “coward” is the name of my all time favorite poem:

    Bravery runs in my family.
    – e.e. cummings

  • helen lindsay commented on the post, alarm 8 years, 3 months ago

    it sounds like an alarm in my skull. all of the banging and clanging is too much to handle. i pop a pill or five to drown out the sound, but all i get is limbs that turn to rubber and a stomach that turns to knots. why won’t it stop? it never stops. and […]

  • the only place on this earth where negatives can be turned into positives.

  • there are so few of you. you’re all huddled together by the coast, basking in the warm air and seabreezes.
    we are an island, two hundred miles north, surrounded by brown leaves and tailgaters.

  • not sure why, but when i got married i felt the pressure to be the best cook in the entire world. i was raised on hamburger helper and velveeta, but for whatever reason i thought i was a worthless wife for not knowing how to cook. so i employed some helpful friends to teach me. […]

  • helen lindsay commented on the post, whim 8 years, 4 months ago

    the man who would end up becoming my husband moved here from chicago “on a whim,” he says. though, was it really just a whim? or was it part of a bigger plan? one that was planned for him long ago? either way, i’m glad it happened. and from here on out, whenever i feel […]

  • helen lindsay commented on the post, wake 8 years, 4 months ago

    everything is quiet except for that one sound. that one, persistent sound.
    the sound of waking. the sound of the beginning.
    nothing existed before, and anything is possible.
    though dark and uncertain, the world is waiting. is mine.
    is awake.

  • helen lindsay commented on the post, phrase 8 years, 4 months ago

    a phrase can mean a thousand different things depending on the way you say it. think about it. for instance, the phrase “i love you” could mean so many things. “IIIII love you.” “i LOVE you.” “i love YOU.” i’m pretty sure i’ve been told that phrase so many times and interpreted so many different […]

  • the opposite of failure. i’ve had several successes in my life. but the weird thing is that i’m the only one who can’t see them. i’m the only one who never remembers them. i wish i had a list of all my successes somewhere so i could grab it and use it as a shield […]

  • helen lindsay commented on the post, split 8 years, 4 months ago

    i just cut and run.
    i’m sorry.
    i could have stuck around. i could have told you why.
    but i just left. split.
    right down the middle like the gash left in our past.
    i’m sure you probably thought you deserved better
    but you didn’t.

  • some say wishing is a waste. i don’t believe them.
    i think most of my favorite life experiences have been wishes come true.
    moving to london.
    meeting the man of my dreams.
    marrying the man of my dreams.
    grace.
    hope.
    life.
    love.
    all wishes. all worth it.