• Kari commented on the post, wine 1 year, 1 month ago

    Words flow through my head as if they were pouring into my glass. I only with they would pour just as gracefully and purposefully. I know that every one would be better off with out me. I’m the one the bridges the gap, however, in my case, it is not for the good. I seem to be the opposite of what every one needs or wants. Why am I suddenly a…[Read more]

  • Kari commented on the post, majority 1 year, 3 months ago

    I feel as if I am literally just one single person; with no connection to the real world. Every one has their place, has their reason of being, has their own decisions to act upon…..but somehow I do not. I am just a single person yet I feel every thing and every one that surrounds me decides everything for me. I do not get a choice, or a voice,…[Read more]

  • Kari commented on the post, railroad 1 year, 6 months ago

    Ever since I was little, I was always told what the “right” thing was. I rarely ever was told of other options. it was one way or another. As I’ve gotten older, more experienced in life, I know for a fact that there are so many other ways. I was so scared of what would happen if I didn’t stay on track. I feared failure, of being derailed. Now, I…[Read more]

  • Kari commented on the post, flannel 2 years, 5 months ago

    I often crave the cold weather. I reminds me of snow, getting cozy next to the fireplace, hot cocoa and cuddling up with the softest thing in my closet. That one item has become a staple in many closets; it used to just be something that my dad and brother wore. However, I am now saddened by the thought. The world right now is not what it used to…[Read more]

  • Kari commented on the post, dignity 5 years, 4 months ago

    I am not the same woman I was five years ago. Obviously none of us are the same after such time has passed. I somehow managed to pull myself from the worst possible place I could think of for myself and turn it all around. Unfortunately, I end up back in that dark place again. It is all in my own head; these feelings that I can seem to shake:…[Read more]

  • Kari commented on the post, modest 5 years, 11 months ago

    Some days, as I reflect all the things i have done in my life, I feel I have held so much back. i have not been able to pin point the reasons why I never allowed myself to do certain things or act a certain way, or even wear certain things. Most likely, I feared being judged. by whom, I am unsure of. What I am sure of is I do not want people to…[Read more]

  • Kari commented on the post, disco 6 years ago

    So much of our lives rely on something to turn, to spin or rotate. However you see it move it will always do just that. Move. Now, you have two options on how you look at this. You can see it as an opportunity or you can see it as an advantage. No matter how you want to see it, it will still move. Regardless of what you want it to do, it will…[Read more]

  • Kari commented on the post, tracking 6 years, 1 month ago

    I leaned my back against a tree to make sure they didn’t see me; I kept my distance. Although I could not see them up ahead of me, I knew they were there. I wondered so much what “they” were or even “who” they are. My eyes searched the ground to see where they’ve gone. I found nothing. Maybe a tree branch has broken or they left a fragment of…[Read more]

  • Kari commented on the post, pupil 6 years, 2 months ago

    It was always the back of the classroom for me; I feared that I could be called upon to answer the teachers’ question. Of course, I never thought I was smart enough and always doubted my abilities. As I grew older, and the more I learned about myself and life, I felt more confident in not only my ability to learn but to teach all that I have…[Read more]

  • Kari commented on the post, strung 6 years, 5 months ago

    Many criticize me because I have never been high; I have always been a “goody-goody.” Although, drugs have never been my choice of addiction, my experience may be more similar than most would assume. You lose a clear frame of mind, you go through withdrawals, and quite possibly put yourself in harms way; this was my story. However, when its you…[Read more]

  • Kari commented on the post, distress 6 years, 6 months ago

    It happens once and a while where a person feels helpless, hopeless, worthless and they give up. What is even worse is, they give on up those who can help them the most. More importantly, they give up on themselves. Life is changing every which way and outcomes will differ between each of us. We all take in and put out in different ways. We handle…[Read more]

  • Kari commented on the post, dot 6 years, 6 months ago

    Sometimes, when I am in deep conversation, I can visualize the sentences coming out of our mouths. This can be somewhat troublesome depending on the topic. Once a sensitive subject arises, the moment where the other is waiting for a response, the line of periods suddenly appear. They taunt me to say something back and slowly get closer and closer…[Read more]

  • Kari commented on the post, raven 6 years, 7 months ago

    It’s dark as I proceed closer to the door. I can see the door handle slightly glow as the street light hits it. I am comforted in the fact I can see anything at all. As I grip the door knob, a shiver creeps up and down my spine. It was almost as if something went through me. I gently turn the knob, trying my best for it not to make a sound, then…[Read more]

  • Kari commented on the post, derived 6 years, 7 months ago

    The best feeling in life, that most people try to achieve, is the feeling that they are wanted or needed; best friends are a great example of that. However, once in a relationship, you get that feeling tenfold. You now have this one person that wants to see you all the time, otherwise, their day is incomplete. You need to have them around as well…[Read more]

  • Kari commented on the post, barren 6 years, 8 months ago

    It’s funny how life can throw you something as simple as a word to make you realize what it is you’re truly scared of. It reminds you that you’re human and life isn’t always easy, nor is it hard. I think at times you just need to be alone with your thoughts in order to regroup and sort of just check in to make sure you are happy with the path…[Read more]

  • Kari commented on the post, punished 6 years, 10 months ago

    Remember a time when you felt hurt; when someone did you wrong. Did you feel you deserved it? There was a time where I felt that every pain I experienced, every lie he told me and the lack of love he showed was something I deserved. As if it was payback for something I did. I sought out the men who were bad for me and expected to be walked on. I…[Read more]

  • Kari commented on the post, tornado 6 years, 10 months ago

    The three of us sit together at the dining room table; it is close to their bedtime. As I look into their eyes of concentration, their mouths move and speak of the random things they paint. She tells me about how her painting will be for me and he proudly paints the letter “T” then messily paints over it. I can’t help but smile over their…[Read more]

  • Kari commented on the post, pained 6 years, 11 months ago

    So many different ways to describe love. If you have ever loved before you know it is not always a fairy tale as we grew up to learn; it can hurt. But most know that you don’t always only love once, but you find so many people you can love. Not just as a partner but as a friend or even an adopted member of your family. I have felt more pain in…[Read more]

  • Kari commented on the post, tales 6 years, 11 months ago

    We walked along the sidewalk, hand in hand, and at that moment I realized just how small my hand was to hers. Looking over at our locked hands I noticed how frail yet very strong hers had looked. Her nails were long and well kept with the reddest polish I have even seen. She walked proudly and sternly as if she had somewhere important to go. I saw…[Read more]

  • Kari commented on the post, terrain 6 years, 11 months ago

    It was the perfect day, I thought, to go on a hike. The sun was shining, I had a great feeling in my gut and I was one with nature. The higher up I got the wind blew harder. The sun began to vanish behind the trees. The ground became covered in rock. The climb grew steeper and steeper with every step. I started to lose my breath believing it was…[Read more]