• I want to be a recording artist
    But I have had the creativity beaten out of me
    By a world that only celebrates
    Those who are the same
    Who feign originality
    And I have tried
    And tried
    To reach the version of me
    Who could write
    and sing
    without shame
    but it is very likely
    that she has slipped away

  • fluxandflow commented on the post, steak 2 years, 6 months ago

    I have moved from a place
    Of constant crisis
    and instead have moved
    to a place where I float
    unconcerned with each and every thing
    waves pass over me
    and I come up for air gently
    without struggle
    harmonious with my environment

  • fluxandflow commented on the post, tutorial 2 years, 6 months ago

    Now offering tutorials:
    How to have no idea what you’re doing
    How to be really good at one thing for two years
    How to get bored with all the things you try to make careers
    How to go in the wrong directions for bad reasons

  • fluxandflow commented on the post, element 2 years, 6 months ago

    Every place I go
    For a little while
    I feel like I belong
    I feel like its for me
    But after some time passes
    And I finally think it’s safe to relax
    And delve in
    It turns out
    I’m out of my element
    And I must go somewhere else

  • fluxandflow commented on the post, brighter 2 years, 6 months ago

    She stepped outside, her hair shining in the sun.
    Trees swayed in the breeze, shadows moving away to make her face brighter.

  • fluxandflow commented on the post, ordinary 2 years, 6 months ago

    She popped her gum as she walked down the street wearing uggs, a sorority sweatshirt, and leggings. She thought she was special but she wasn’t.

    I walked past her wearing combat boots, black jeans, and a military jacket thinking the same.

  • I am discovering just how much having you around makes my brain calm down
    You take all the bad thoughts and make them disappear
    I can actually experience true quiet when you’re around

  • fluxandflow commented on the post, lining 5 years, 2 months ago

    There were icicles lining the gutter and droplets forming on every dead bud of the tree branch. The sun had finally come out to play but for once I would have preferred the clouds.

  • fluxandflow commented on the post, bury 7 years ago

    I bury my head in the pillowcase and inhale the comforting scent of my own bed.
    The sun is peeking through my curtains and the space heater woke me up a little early, but I don’t really mind.
    This is the first […]

  • fluxandflow commented on the post, dominant 7 years ago

    The only difference between you and I
    Is that we have different dominant sides
    You care more than I ever could
    And all I’ll ever do is wish I could

  • fluxandflow commented on the post, scene 7 years ago

    It’s just a fucking scene
    In the movie that is my life
    One scene
    That’s it
    So why is it so hard
    For me to let it go
    To get to the next one
    To stop

  • fluxandflow commented on the post, signs 7 years ago

    I told him I was looking for the service road to the falls, and asked if there were signs or trail markers I could follow to help me there.
    He said, “Son, out here there are no signs. Nothing points you in the […]

  • fluxandflow commented on the post, breath 7 years ago

    You told me to take a deep breath
    I told you it wouldn’t help
    I never use my brain
    Things get tough and I have no solutions
    Only ways to let the sadness swallow me whole
    But you have cracked open my […]

  • fluxandflow commented on the post, affairs 7 years ago

    You and I
    We
    Are a series of affairs
    We will never stay until the morning
    We will never make each other breakfast
    Or fall desperately into each other
    No house
    No kids
    Just time filled with physical […]

  • fluxandflow commented on the post, despite 7 years ago

    Despite the fact that you claim to care about me
    You still hold back all your smallest secrets
    And dodge all of my warm gestures
    Without a single consideration
    How am I supposed to believe you
    And how am I […]

  • fluxandflow commented on the post, porter 7 years, 1 month ago

    The trail is steep
    Footing is not easy on loose rocks
    And I have no porter
    To guide me to the top
    To carry my things
    To support me
    So I will keep on climbing
    Further and further
    But where the hell is the summit

  • fluxandflow commented on the post, banks 7 years, 2 months ago

    Standing along the banks of the river, it wasn’t enough for me.
    I needed the salty ocean air, the wind in my face, the feeling of irresponsibility and a carefree life.
    I wanted to get away so badly, and all it […]

  • fluxandflow commented on the post, concept 7 years, 2 months ago

    I’ve thought of a million concepts. A million reasons why. Hundreds of ideas. But none of them explain why I can’t stop thinking about you even when you’re 3,000 miles away.

  • fluxandflow commented on the post, holder 7 years, 2 months ago

    I heard the ding as my phone lit up in the cup holder. I reached around the arm rest to pick it up from the place it had grown so accustomed to. You were offering me a home, but I couldn’t impose.

  • 30 compressions
    1 breath
    I tried
    They carried him out
    On a stretcher
    And they flicked on their sirens
    And drove away
    Hope was useless
    I knew he was gone