you’d think that by now
i’ve already learned my lesson
but i guess i haven’t
i still have the tendency
to let my walls down
a little too quickly
and i still fall a little too hard
i don’t show it though
i think i put way too much faith, trust, and time
into people who don’t deserve any at all
small yet fatal mistakes
in the end
I think the worst part about all this
is that I don’t even know what I did wrong.
I don’t even know what I did to deserve this.
Maybe I’m just not meant to be happy.
Maybe this is how it’s supposed to be.
Maybe I was destined to be miserable.
Maybe I’m cursed.
hey dad, how have you been?
oh, i’m doing alright, i guess.
it’s been hard, you know?
everybody keeps telling me that things will get better,
that eventually it’ll get easier.
it all just sounds like a bunch of bullshit to me.
it’s been nearly ten years,
and it feels like things just get harder as each day passes by.
i hope things are…[Read more]
I hate having to make choices.
This or that?
I don’t know, I can’t choose.
My confidence is so low, I feel like every choice I make is wrong.
I hate having a low sense of self-worth.
I hate being so insecure.
I hate hating myself.
I wish I were able to see what would have happened if I had picked the other choice instead.
Just so I can see…[Read more]
People always tend to relate the size of somebody’s waist to their beauty.
I don’t understand why.
How big someone is doesn’t necessarily change how beautiful they are.
People come in different size and shapes, and nobody’s perfect.
Beauty is in the eye of the beholder.
Just because something isn’t beautiful to you, doesn’t mean it isn’t…[Read more]
i think in the end,
everybody regrets the chances they didn’t take.
the relationships they were scared to have,
the decisions they took too long to make,
and the good night kisses they didn’t steal.
we regret not talking to the seemingly perfect boy in biology
or asking the girl of our dreams to prom.
life’s too short for regrets,
so we…[Read more]
She grabs the razor blade and places it on her wrist.
She slides it across her already scarred skin.
The feel of the cold metal slicing through her epidermis.
The river of red forming along her forearm.
Finally, she feels bliss.
Many nights, like tonight, I wonder why I have been placed upon this earth.
I am not intelligent nor beautiful.
I have no special talents.
Sure, I participate in a few sports and arts, but I don’t exceed in any of them.
I have nothing to offer.
I’m just a waste of air,…[Read more]
The amount of time I spend thinking about you is just…crazy.
You’re on my mind when I wake up.
You’re there when I’m about to sleep.
When I’m out shopping,
When I’m conversing with friends,
When I’m watching a movie or listening to music,
You somehow find your way back onto my train of thought.
You even pop up in my dreams…[Read more]
Sometimes, it really sucks being female in this society.
People are always underestimating you, underestimating your strength and intelligence.
Plus, there are so many double standards.
For example, if a man slept around, people would congratulate him.
But if a woman were to do that, derogatory comments are thrown her way.
Why is that?