• there is no certainty in my decision
    there is no certainty in this ending
    even though you said there is
    i am still uncertain
    i know with all certainty that i loved you
    that i love you
    that i once did and always will love you in at least one degree
    that you gave me the greatest gift,
    which was learning how to love me.

  • celeste cervantes commented on the post, malice 2 years ago

    how can girls be so malicous
    so ficticous
    so vindictive
    towards girls they hope to call sisters
    how can girls not act like what they say they believe in
    make promises they can’t pull through in
    get a guys hopes up and then leave him

  • i slept for 5 hours and felt fine
    i’ve slept for 12 hours and woken up dazed and confused
    i’ve slept over your calls
    and your calls
    and your calls
    and awoken to you at my door
    it was the best sleep
    where my dreams manifested into your appearance

  • my worries are like fields stretching as far as the eye can see
    you are the reaper of my fields
    you work hard day and night
    in the rain and the burning sun
    you yank from the roots
    you till my land
    you open me up for better things

  • i cant

    i dont even want to anymore

  • in stead of looking at how far we’ve come
    we look at how far we have left to go
    why?
    i mean why is a life a staircase you have to go up anyway
    anyone whos lived can tell you the path isn’t going to be straight and narrow

  • i thought i’d be a good enough influence
    i thought all that i could do well would rub off on you
    i figured when we started becoming each other, you’d take the best parts of me
    i thought our minds would get on the same track
    walk at the same pace
    hum to the same tune
    but we’re not there yet

  • when i finally put the pieces together
    the me between two bouts of her together
    the fact that we were never supposed to be together
    being cheated on stings at least a little bit forever

  • i think waters where its at
    got a water bottle for christmas
    new years resolution is to stay hydrated
    stay healthy
    stay purified
    water is life
    life should be healthy and pure

  • it is my tradition
    i will make it my children’s tradition
    to break tradition when they see fit
    for the only thing that is truly tradition
    is that the never ending progress of time
    does not allow for tradition

  • you are the electromagnetic field whose pull is so powerful that you create a new north
    the compass of my heart only points towards you
    false north
    maybe
    but i have never felt a truer love

  • celeste cervantes commented on the post, loading 3 years ago

    wait
    buffering
    i’m loading
    i need a machine to process what i can’t
    maybe
    that way
    I can keep up with you
    I’ll stop glitching
    You can stop pausing me
    Hoping I’ll be a little faster when you push play again

  • you lift me up like the rising hot air creates clouds
    you make me into storms that create fertile soil
    you release my tension
    you let me get back to stability again

  • i wish you were translucent
    i wish your skin was as see through as mine
    i wish i could see what you’re feeling
    see your pulse quicken when you catch my eye
    see your breath catch when you touch my hand
    but translucent and only translucent
    i want a faint glimpse
    a vague clue
    but even that is better than the silence i get from you
    i don’t…[Read more]

  • my mother’s store is filled with squares of cardboard covered in swatches of cloth
    cobalt chiffon
    turquoise tulle
    silver satin

  • many tiers
    many tall delicious layers
    elaborately deocrated
    fruit filled
    covered in tiny edible pearls and a ribbon around each layer.
    but no one sang happy birthday.

  • you sly little cat
    you old cat
    you tall dark and handsome cat
    you foolish boy
    you’re going to leave for the longest time you’ve probably been gone from anywhere
    you think thats how you can forget about me
    but the worst is
    you probably will

  • I wish I could say that I was complete
    That without you I’ll be fine
    That I never needed you, never will
    I wish I hadn’t built my future plans around a “what if”
    I wish I’d never met you
    You changed me so much
    You made me view the world so differently
    You were exactly what I needed
    But you’ll be completely fine without me

  • oh that boy that swimming boy he’s like a fish out of water when he’s in a crowd. my swimming boy he tries to escape as often as he can but he does seem able to do so without taking someone with him. he thinks he’s strong and brave, my swimming boy, but he’s alone and needy and sweet and even if he doesn’t realize that, all the rest of us do.

  • i want to be undetected and unseen.
    i want to go about life with no attention
    because what if by chance i get bad attention