• Jen commented on the post, presented 6 years, 6 months ago

    he presented her with the gift. With trepidationhe handed it over, gilt wrapped with extreme precision. The uncertanty writen all over his face. Was it expensive enough, did it say the right thing? did it convey how much he desperately wanted to claim her as his own? was it subtle enough that her boyfriend wouldn’t realise the importance of such…[Read more]

  • Jen commented on the post, both 6 years, 6 months ago

    its not yours its not mine, its us both. We decided to do this we both needed it, wanted it craved it. Yes it was destined to happen, when you walked in the room I instantly felt you, when I danced with anyone else you r body begged to claim me as your own. It was only a matter of time, but baby it was always us both.

  • Jen commented on the post, himself 6 years, 6 months ago

    what he didn’t know about himself was that he was loved, loved for the man he is inside, not the lad everyone sees outside. Real. He needs to learn to love in return, freely and wholey and then he will be happy.

  • Jen commented on the post, local 6 years, 7 months ago

    it was clear he was nervous, perhaps waiting for someone, perhaps waiting for someone he had not seen in a long time, or never seen before. I summised as I sat containing my own joy at seeing my beloved as stepped off the plane, any minute now. No, it was his daughter, she flew into his arms, coated in an NYU shirt and grown up so much since he…[Read more]

  • Jen commented on the post, soon 6 years, 7 months ago

    I waved as he got on the plane. Determined not to let the tears sliding down my cheeks show in my smile, the distance covering the fake grin splashed across my face. Two weeks without him I thought, soon, this plane will bring you back to me soon.

  • Jen commented on the post, teach 6 years, 7 months ago

    of the thousands of kids, the hundreds of beseaching eyes, the tens of pleas yours was the face I remember. A billion drops of rain, a million blades of grass, a hundred breakfasts, lunches and dinners each day goes passed and everything in it teaches me something new, and something special

  • Jen commented on the post, use 6 years, 7 months ago

    they use me and abuse me and throw me around, smile and nod when no answer can be found. I work and toil to be of use, when all I feel in the end is obtuse.

  • Jen commented on the post, interest 6 years, 7 months ago

    how could he not know I was interested in him, I caught myself stealing glimpses of him all the time, could not help but burst into smile everytime he looked at me, I was a giddy teenager all over again!

  • Jen commented on the post, steps 6 years, 7 months ago

    baby steps, teeny tiny baby steps. Ilet out a long slow breath, calm smooth yes I can do this, deep breath, shoulders back, chin up, eyes stealed. I am not your punching bag, I am not your slave and I will not be your word whipping post. I am leaving you. Today.

  • Jen commented on the post, begin 6 years, 9 months ago

    fresh start. leaving him behind was the best thing I could do, the hardest thing I did and at the same time freeing myself from all the bindings I had created. I did this for me for my life for my begining […]

  • Jen commented on the post, together 6 years, 9 months ago

    hand in hand we walked together, first as kindergarteners, as school kids on the way home, as neighbours and finally as lovers. All my life we have been together, apart from today today is the first day I walk […]

  • Jen commented on the post, texture 6 years, 9 months ago

    my fingertips upon your skin, my soft hands clawing at your coarse chest hair, the texture of the Egyptian cotton sheets slipping beneath our bodies

  • Jen commented on the post, salvation 6 years, 10 months ago

    you. Its you, its always been you. I think of you to get out of bed in the morning, think of you as I stir my tea, think of you every moment of the day. You are my salvation, my life, my love.

  • Jen commented on the post, magazines 6 years, 10 months ago

    click click, everything in place, the heat of the day starting to drag on me, I feel heavy, as heavy as this gun in my hand. I slow my breathing down, focus, in tune with the birds singing around me, the cars […]

  • Jen commented on the post, refuse 6 years, 10 months ago

    I could not say no. It was too hard to refuse. I had waited for this moment all my life, yet dreaded it at the same time. Now, sitting at the table with the aged manilla folder in front of me, there was no […]

  • Jen commented on the post, carbon 6 years, 10 months ago

    black charcoal. He held it deftly in his hand as he sculpted my naked form on the crisp white parchment in front of him. Only fair he had said as he striped his clothes from his god like body in an instant my […]

  • Jen commented on the post, side 6 years, 10 months ago

    Its not about the point of the argument I stated in my most confident voice, its that you never take my side. He hung his head, knowing I was right, there was just no way this was ever going to be the same again.

  • Jen commented on the post, bench 7 years, 5 months ago

    she sitting on the park bench, with all her worldly posessions. Happy. A healthy reminder that not all that glimmers is gold and that life is good without all the material posessions we seem to think will make us happy.

  • Jen commented on the post, conceal 7 years, 5 months ago

    its hard to hide behind a smiling face, to conceal the fear held behind. Its hard to laugh when you want to cry, when you realise your life is a lie. How do you break free from a world, when its a place you don’t want to be? continue to hide, careful conceal.

  • Jen commented on the post, cast 7 years, 11 months ago

    enter stage left. The entire cast was on stage, and I could feel my skirt slipping. That moment of extreeme panic as you grimice in a smile and take your second bow, knowing that the third and final could be terminal. Nope, made it through the third bow and now just to do an awkward […]