I have learned so many things recently. I have also learned that there is so much more I need to learn. I must learn to live without him. I must learn to live with him as an ideal and not as an actual person in my life.
The various ways to say what you mean. There are some ways of being precise. There are others that just dance around the subject. I think my feelings are varied. But the intensity always springs up at the wrong times.
I did not want to begin to love you. But it happened. On some level I wonder if what I see in you is just what I want to see. Are you the awesomely nice, smart, kind and giving person? Or are you the narcissist […]
The feeling of being alive. One could say that feeling pain makes you think that you are alive. It reminds me that I have a body. It also reminds me that part of being alive is the process of dying. My body is […]
Asthma is a pain. You can deal with any other kind of pain but when you cannot breath it feels like death. There is always a worry that the asthma will sneak up and steal my breath. It is hard enough to exercise […]
The dark tower is my favorite series. Roland the gunslinger is such a compelling character. Too bad Clint Eastwood is too old to play the part. I would have loved to see what he could have done with the part. Oh […]
I wish I could go to a spa right now and have my favorite spa treatment. I usually feel like a million dollars after. It is the milk and honey vichy spa treatment. I smell so nice and feel so good. I’ve […]
I can’t believe I still have the same red headphone that I”ve been using for months now. I have not lost them. They aren’t broken yet. They are almost as good as the day I opened the package. I like these […]
The stillness of the day is startling after so much activity of the past few weeks. It is really nice not to be doing something every second. It is great to listen to silence. So peaceful…i almost forgot what […]
It is a miracle that I found them. I found him first. It has been heaven and hell. It has been the best of all the world and a horrible pain. I love the things I’ve got from meeting him. But I hate that I love […]
I covered my eyes and hoped that it was just an illusion. But it wasn’t. The reality was there in front of me. I could see the thing that I feared would happen. I knew he liked her but the reality of how deep […]
The lack of manners on the internet is appalling. Just because you don’t like a thing does not mean everyone else needs to hate it too. If you don’t have anything nice to say about something keep your opinion to yourself!