• cosmic commented on the post, scan 4 months ago

    I scanned the words
    of one of my last posts.

    It was about my sister.

    I forgot how i used to think about her
    with rage red and hot

    now my feelings towards her have cooled
    and hardened a bit

    i no longer fear her

    I pity her and love her,
    at a far, far distance,

    where her words and actions lose their sting.

  • cosmic commented on the post, defined 5 years, 3 months ago

    we shouldn’t
    define ourselves by our hardships
    but what we do in the face of them
    said a wise man

    but it’s hard to be righteous
    in the face of violence
    it can make you go against
    your own creed
    the nature of your soul

    am i not to be proud
    of standing up for myself
    when no one else did
    even if it was wrong?

    should i have…[Read more]

  • cosmic commented on the post, harm 5 years, 4 months ago

    She never meant to harm she says
    she was harmed she says
    but the bruises on my cheeks
    filled my soul with empty grey?

    I harmed her she says
    she was harmed she says
    tell that to my diary,
    is it filled with lies or is she?

    I’m the crazy one she says
    she was harmed she says
    who can i believe
    her words or my memories?

    You’re the…[Read more]

  • cosmic commented on the post, strung 5 years, 11 months ago

    You Cut out her heart
    Put it on a string
    She was your puppet
    From the very beginning

    You could’ve been nicer
    But you were always drunk
    Your numb mind couldn’t decipher
    That she’d been sunk

    You were too conceited
    To see through the facade
    So her,you treated ,
    As if she could withstand all

    You knew it was wrong
    That She…[Read more]

  • cosmic commented on the post, undetected 5 years, 11 months ago

    Do not try to find me
    Beneath the trees’ shadows,
    hidden from your screaming wind,
    i am covered by angels
    protected from your cold and sin.

    Do not try to find me
    In these days warm and sunny
    I am below the earth
    the dirt and bedrock protects me
    from your laughter and mocking mirth

    Do not try to find me
    here or anywhere,
    any day…[Read more]

  • cosmic commented on the post, sisterhood 5 years, 12 months ago

    Sisterhood
    is a bond
    of the womb
    you are not
    my sister
    we share blood
    (blood that you spilled)
    but you never
    treated me like a sister
    to you i was:
    a nuisance
    a game
    you paid attention to me
    when it was convenient for you
    well, here’s what i say:
    you’re a nuisance
    i won’t be a part of your game
    and if you try
    to spill my blood…[Read more]

  • cosmic commented on the post, shattered 6 years ago

    my heart is shattered,
    she is gone.
    she had been mine
    for so long.
    all good things
    must come to an end,
    but i never thought
    i’d lose my best friend.
    through thirteen years
    her soul adhered
    to mine own;
    now i can’t stand
    to be alone.
    her great brown eyes
    haunt my dreams.
    my soul is ripping
    at its seams.
    but i lay her down,
    and…[Read more]

  • cosmic commented on the post, calamity 6 years, 2 months ago

    I can feel it in the air
    like that strange calm
    before the storm.
    something’s going to happen, he says.
    no duh, a storm.
    no, he says, something more
    a disaster, he says
    that’s specific.
    he frowns,
    just pretend, please.
    Fine. a giant turtle will eat all the grass in the entire world
    he scoffs,
    no. more like
    an apocalypse,
    when…[Read more]

  • cosmic commented on the post, pained 6 years, 2 months ago

    Curtains blowing in the breeze,
    Footprints in the sand.
    you cannot go on in life,

    so it is largely unplanned:
    you’ll gracefully cast yourself
    Into the silent, dark ocean.

    there’ll be little commotion,
    soon overtaken by everlasting peace,
    as you lie upon the water

    floating past this disease.
    to do this you were compelled:
    to end…[Read more]

  • cosmic commented on the post, truth 6 years, 2 months ago

    Do you really think
    you can handle this?
    Sweetie, I wrote
    the book on lies
    so much sweeter
    than
    what
    is
    real
    Fantasies stay in a mind
    Can’t wait for it this time
    this
    is
    not
    true
    Ignorance is bliss
    and it will stay
    that way
    if I have a say
    you can’t handle the truth
    but
    I
    can’t
    handle
    these
    lies
    so…[Read more]

  • cosmic commented on the post, withered 6 years, 2 months ago

    I am withering away
    like a dandelion in the breeze
    can’t you see?
    If I disperse
    in all the cardinal directions
    how will I ever be able to
    find myself again?
    You don’t understand
    health is everything
    and I am
    sick
    It’s not my fault,
    it’s this disease
    I’m tired of people
    telling me
    to get over it
    because I can’t
    when my body and…[Read more]

  • cosmic commented on the post, conjured 6 years, 2 months ago

    I can still conjure your image
    straight from thin air
    (you took away my breath
    from the first day I saw you)
    Your eyes appear first
    crinkled like half-moons,
    brown like the dirt
    from which flowers grow,
    and in their mixed color
    I see your soul
    (mixed too)
    Then
    your smile
    laugh lines lopsided
    as if you laughed so hard once,
    you…[Read more]

  • cosmic commented on the post, embellish 6 years, 3 months ago

    Everyone embellishes,
    so it’s fine if I do…
    right?
    just
    a
    little
    white
    lie
    innocent as the acid
    I swear I’ll never pour in your eyes
    just
    a
    little
    white
    lie
    who said darkness is bad,
    when white is the color of the snow
    that kills the grass
    just
    a
    little
    white
    lie
    harmless
    that’s a lie

  • cosmic commented on the post, flailing 6 years, 3 months ago

    Don’t you see?
    This is an ocean
    You can’t escape
    Flail all you want
    Cry
    It doesn’t care
    It’s the ocean
    You’re just a speck of sand
    on a beach.
    You are nothing
    There are things bigger than you,
    stronger than you
    and there is nothing you can do.
    (but it’s okay because the sun
    will shine on your bloated body
    and maybe,…[Read more]

  • cosmic commented on the post, fatigue 6 years, 3 months ago

    This fatigue is taking over me
    This is my final decree.
    My head is clouded from lack of sleep
    All I do is weep and weep.

    I wait for these meds to work out right,
    but time simmers so slowly this very night.
    No lover can withhold my pain,
    here I am doomed to remain.

    I lie alone, trembling in my bed,
    there’s a pounding in my…[Read more]

  • cosmic commented on the post, musical 6 years, 4 months ago

    I don’t try to hid behind a mask,
    This is really what I think,
    Well, I feel torn between two,
    I feel my mind is on the brink

    Angels cry because of my ways,
    let out demons of mine I’d sworn I’d someday slay
    This is a war that has occurred before,
    been jotted down for centuries as lore.

    A person’s mind is a battlefield,
    Lores’…[Read more]

  • cosmic commented on the post, satisfy 6 years, 6 months ago

    The only thing that could possibly satisfy me is holding your dying body, as you whisper all your regrets to me, and I’ll forgive you for the last time. I’m so tired of forgiving and, then,you’ll never again do anything to be sorry for… It’s better this way.

  • cosmic commented on the post, thought 6 years, 6 months ago

    I thought things would be different,
    but this feeling never goes away.
    I thought things would be better
    but hope is just so fake.

    I thought there would be happiness
    but disappointment is left in my wake.
    I thought this feeling would disappear
    but it remains unwavering and near.

    I thought I would find true love
    but I only found true…[Read more]

  • cosmic commented on the post, fresh 6 years, 7 months ago

    The wound was fresh in her chest. He could still hear those screams, echoing all around his skull, and he slowly slumped to the floor, dazed. Killing was easy, but the aftermath… that was hard. No more […]

  • cosmic commented on the post, signs 6 years, 7 months ago

    When her depression was finally gone, she realized she could no longer write. She stared at her page filled with strange lines and signs and scratches of a pen, and realized she could never again turn what used to […]