• C. Ritchie commented on the post, pairs 6 years, 2 months ago

    my shoes still fit the same, my eye sight is just as it was, my jeans feel just as warm and tight. but as i think of myself I start to understand differently. I stand taller in my shoes, see clearer through my eyes, and see a new woman in those old jeans. I’m trying to change, trying to live again, I wish you understood, but then again, this is…[Read more]

  • C. Ritchie commented on the post, dissolve 6 years, 3 months ago

    and i take your hand and it is dissolved all i stood for and believed in myself is wiped away wiped clean as it shall stay as i step away from your burden and your hurt and into my own dissolved of the life I once had

  • C. Ritchie commented on the post, magenta 6 years, 4 months ago

    in a world of grays and browns in breaths filled with exhaustion and fear and a need to relieve the tension that’s exactly what i find with you nothing’s dull nothing hurts no unknown no loss for words no lack of heart where dancing is normal and laughs come easy never embarrassed never worried always better than the last always… friends.

  • C. Ritchie commented on the post, punished 6 years, 4 months ago

    you’d think i’d been punished. lost alone and worried about what they think of me. they think a lot apparently. and in a single conversation my love for someone could turn to confusion, disgust, fear. what does he think of me? flattered or repulsed that i should be the receiver of such a thing such an idea such a fantasy. who am i? my life surely…[Read more]

  • C. Ritchie commented on the post, conjured 6 years, 5 months ago

    and we’ve done it finally maybe done it conjured up a plan for the ages a new way of living and of trying to be the same as before as friends as people as humans in this place so beautiful and quaint and real this place with the bench by the clock and the giving and the dreams. this place where we met, fell in love, and tore ourselves apart.

  • C. Ritchie commented on the post, startled 6 years, 5 months ago

    startled by the silence of it all by the immediate understanding that something had changed that the world was suddenly turning at a normal pace again life was continuing and i was finally a part of it. i was so startled to begin again.

  • C. Ritchie commented on the post, stalled 6 years, 5 months ago

    here i am. moving, loving, leaving things behind. bolting into a new reality a new life a new love for all that surrounds me. i look forward and i hope. above all, i hope for any and everything that lies ahead of me. so so much lies ahead of me.
    right now i am anything but stalled.

  • C. Ritchie commented on the post, swell 6 years, 6 months ago

    Isn’t that just swell that grin that half truth that fear to just say you can’t it’s not the right time maybe later remember when we used to be friends we used to try to spend time together we used to be in love. I used to be in love. Where am I now? Who am I now? You have broken me. You promised to change to grow to learn from your mistakes. Did…[Read more]

  • C. Ritchie commented on the post, due 6 years, 8 months ago

    and then you realize out of nowhere that it’s over all of a sudden it’s all gone and used up and finished but you’re not ready not prepared to give it all up did you do it all did you see everything did you live and love and feel everything you were supposed to? what now that everything’s due?

  • C. Ritchie commented on the post, late 6 years, 9 months ago

    lots of things can stand in your way time rain lack of money or confidence but in this case it was far more than i could overcome alone so i gave up essentially i threw in the towel and wished that i didn’t have to but i did because you gave me no choice you gave so little even when you felt much more things could change but they won’t and as this…[Read more]

  • C. Ritchie commented on the post, somebody 6 years, 9 months ago

    somebody somewhere someone who knows and cares and loves and waits and needs and wants just as i do. sometime something will come to be that has never been before something wonderful and right and new and old and right. it will all be right someday with somebody.

  • C. Ritchie commented on the post, major 6 years, 9 months ago

    it’s here and it’s not going away. it’s more, more than i wish i felt, more than a gaze held between strangers, more than the unspoken words.

  • C. Ritchie commented on the post, teach 6 years, 9 months ago

    i hope i’ve learned i hope i’ve taught i hope i’ve become everything i previously was not i hope i know i hope i’ve found the things i thought were far from my bounds

  • C. Ritchie commented on the post, bury 6 years, 10 months ago

    and here i am buried under it all under your weight and mine under the life i hope to someday lead under the longing for something i still don’t understand i am so deep so beyond repair so beyond anything i […]

  • C. Ritchie commented on the post, upper 6 years, 10 months ago

    and as long as we’re here you there on that street and me here on upper we’ll never see eye to eye and while you may notice the bigger picture you’ll never see the specifics of my story of me even though i know […]

  • C. Ritchie commented on the post, vote 6 years, 10 months ago

    i stand here awaiting a dream awaiting a hope far in the future one for each and every individual one that has no exceptions or rules one that has no boundaries and no stopping point i vote love into the world. […]

  • C. Ritchie commented on the post, help 6 years, 10 months ago

    i cry it so loud that my throat trembles it hurts to say anything but that all i need is someone or something to change me to make everything i know completely different and yet that is so much to ask for i look […]

  • C. Ritchie commented on the post, afraid 6 years, 11 months ago

    it’s true, i’m afraid, afraid of living the life i always dreamed of of reaching for the things i’v always wished for of kissing the man i’m meant to be with of ending certain portions of my life that i’m so very […]

  • C. Ritchie commented on the post, people 6 years, 11 months ago

    standing around standing surrounded standing a midst the masses but it’s those little marks the curve of cheeks below eyes dipped in an icy blue that make two thousand into two me and you so silly and so sweet […]

  • and even with my eyes closed i know exatly what exists beyond them in a dark and energizing way. you’re there far beyond what i understand looking for what i need and desire should come second but i am only human […]