• Caitlin commented on the post, orphans 5 years, 1 month ago

    There are tons of them, thousands of them. Lonely. Unloved. Feeling worthless. They fill the buildings to the top and try to bear it all. They cannot help but get their hopes up every time a possible parent walks through the doors. And they cannot help but have their hopes be shattered nearly as many times as that.

  • Caitlin commented on the post, rewrite 5 years, 5 months ago

    I’m rewriting my entire future because now that you’re gone everything has changed. Nothing that I thought was true is. Nothing that I thought would happen will. Now that you’re gone, all I’ve got is my past and my present. I’ve scribbled out my dreams and scribbled out my hopes. It’s time for a new beginning, I’d say.

  • Caitlin commented on the post, clout 5 years, 10 months ago

    Clout. Never heard this word before. Sounds like cloud. And clot. That cloud sure looks like a blood clot. Blood clot. I’ve heard a lot of sad stories about blood clots. Hospitals. I’ve heard a lot of terrible stories about hospitals. Whining, complaining, perfection seeking people. At those hospitals complaining.

  • Caitlin commented on the post, wafer 5 years, 10 months ago

    I had a vanilla wafer in my study hall once. It was good. It wasn’t as good as a chocolate one but it was alright. I’m realizing at this point that that was an awful story and an awful lie. The last time I had a vanilla wafer I was about ten years old, it was before our only grocery store closed down. Sad. Sad memory that one is.

  • Caitlin commented on the post, casting 5 years, 10 months ago

    They are casting their lines. I close my eyes and try not to think about the lives this planet will soon lose. I hear cheering and yelling and my hands go up to cover my ears. I cannot think about this. I should not be here. I pick up a handful of stones from below my feet and throw them where the men are standing on shore. They land in the water…[Read more]

  • Caitlin commented on the post, signed 5 years, 10 months ago

    He signed my yearbook quickly. I was hoping for a “You’re really cute. Wish I could have gotten to know you better, he’s my number #######.” But all I got was a “Have a good summer.” Guess I should have saw it coming seeing I didn’t talk to anyone, all year.

  • Caitlin commented on the post, shoulder 5 years, 10 months ago

    Shoulder. Arm. Elbow. Arm. Hand. Fingers. Nails. His body is perfect. All of him. Sitting on a park bench next to him, looking at the prickly goose bumped arm hair, his sweatshirt is on me. He’s cold. I feel guilty but I’m not willing to give it up just yet.

  • Caitlin commented on the post, taboo 5 years, 10 months ago

    Taboo. A word I use to describe the baby growing in my aunt’s belly. Nobody will talk about it. Nobody will acnowledge that it exists. Taboo. A baby that is expected to be ashamed of itself before it’s even born. Taboo. A dirty word of sadness. Unfairness.

  • Caitlin commented on the post, auburn 5 years, 10 months ago

    His hair was auburn like the leaves. Red and brown. Red and brown. Red and brown. All hour that’s all that was going through my head. Red and brown. Real? Dyed? I would never know. Red and brown. Red and brown. I decided I would ask him after class. So I would know. But no.