• ashmangus commented on the post, drinking 2 years, 4 months ago

    I can drink a bottle of wine in a night. I don’t know how I feel about it, except that, subjectively, I enjoy it. Objectively, it’s like, “um, slow down, cowgirl.” I should just drink water? But the edge blurs, and I like that. The warm fuzzies inside that say it’s okay to just relax and lackadaisically say anything on my mind without thinking twice.

  • ashmangus commented on the post, recording 2 years, 6 months ago

    I used to make recordings when I felt like I didn’t have anyone to talk to. They’re all really creepy because they’re things I would never tell anyone and I was always really upset. Upset about the world, upset about things I couldn’t change. But I haven’t done one of those in a really long time, which makes me feel pretty good now that I’m…[Read more]

  • ashmangus commented on the post, laughing 2 years, 6 months ago

    I love your laugh. Every time I make you laugh, it shocks me still. But I wish it didn’t. I wish I could keep moving and make you laugh over and over again. I wish I could let go enough that I would have you in tears. I wish I didn’t make you feel bad for her making you laugh. I want so many people to do that for you. I fucking miss you.

  • ashmangus commented on the post, nonfiction 2 years, 6 months ago

    My friend Bree just got admitted into CU’s MFA program for nonfiction. Like, she just told me that today. So, the fact that this is the word of the day seems coincidental. We went to the Sink for drinks before our Dialogue across Difference class. She drank this drink. Screwdriver with grenadine. I had never tried that before today. It was super…[Read more]

  • ashmangus commented on the post, standup 3 years, 3 months ago

    A standup guy. Standup comedy. Those two things aren’t very interrelated. What makes a standup person? I can imagine what my parents would think a “standup person” is, but on my own terms, that feels hard to imagine. Maybe it’s the guy I dumped just last week :/ but it wasn’t right.

  • ashmangus commented on the post, cult 3 years, 4 months ago

    Maybe what I really want to do is start a cult? A humanitarian cult. This is the thing I think about all the time. I think about inspiring others to follow in the fashion of taking care of each other. It seems like such a basic, easy concept that we’ve somehow lost touch with, sooo… I think it could be an easy win.

  • ashmangus commented on the post, apple 3 years, 5 months ago

    My son was eating an apple today as we went for a midday walk; he’s four and wanted to bring it with him in case he got hungry. He asked for a bite and he was so stingy! Finally, he relented. I’m actually not the greatest at eating fruit, especially for someone who insists my child eat it by the handful. When I took that first bite, it was…[Read more]

  • ashmangus commented on the post, nourish 3 years, 5 months ago

    I want our global society to experience real nourishment, and then to prioritize it. I want to nourish my son, and I know the only real way I can do that is by nourishing myself. I’m not really sure I wouldn’t nourish myself the way I should without him. I’d love to be that person, but I like getting to be this, too.

  • ashmangus commented on the post, domestic 3 years, 5 months ago

    “Domestic” is the adjective I was running from when I left Jett’s dad. Or maybe I just didn’t want that kind of domestic. I didn’t just want things. It wasn’t fulfilling. I wanted to be me, moderately wild and passionate. I wanted to be that kind of mother. I’m my kind of domestic now, and I love it. So glad I made it.

  • ashmangus commented on the post, compete 3 years, 5 months ago

    I’ve only ever liked to compete with myself, becoming better and better than I was the day before. I see the beauty in competition between others and the way they help each other grow… sometimes I envy those relationships, but I can also see the distance it creates. Maybe I’ll try to pick up one of those somewhere along the way. Right now, I…[Read more]

  • I overcooked the steak. AND the zucchini. I really am not a very cook. This is because I am so fucking terrible at multi-tasking. Sometimes it makes me feel like there is something wrong with my brain. But who cares. Just pull out another piece of steak or zucchini, and try again. And then eat it. And feel good.

  • ashmangus commented on the post, think 6 years, 8 months ago

    I think too much without knowing what to think. Thinking about everything and nothing and going nowhere.

  • ashmangus commented on the post, wall 6 years, 8 months ago

    I have a wall in front of me. White with nothing hanging from it. Wall reminds me that of the last time I did this whole “one word” thing. I forgot you only had 60 seconds, so I barely wrote anything. And I’m so glad that all that I did with my time this time, was talk about how awful the last time was. Wall.

  • ashmangus commented on the post, systems 6 years, 8 months ago

    I suppose the first thing I think about is operating systems on computers. But that’s not very interesting. There’s also nervous systems. I think of different processes. Rawr, systems.