• annaise commented on the post, stalled 6 years, 1 month ago

    me. i am temporarily in place waiting for a kickstart into gear, i am floating aimlessly with no traction in a vacuum, i am waiting, i am unstable, i am fearful of that prod in that unforeseeable direction, i am nervous and alive and alight with the flame of fear evoking tremors in my limbs that i did not know could feel so real, i am a cloud

  • annaise commented on the post, leathery 6 years, 1 month ago

    the sinewy skin between his jagged shoulder blades expanded and i took my stethoscope away, my job complete. the diagnosis had been almost immediate, but i found more struggle than anything as i attempted to choke out the words:

    lung cancer

    terminal

    as your flesh will continue to wither and your bones become frail, you will segue fluidly…[Read more]

  • annaise commented on the post, grasped 6 years, 1 month ago

    to have hands and thumbs and joints that move and are capable of holding onto things to keep them near to you, to take something in, to attach it to you, to encompass it, to bring it in, to be able to realize that it’s not about what you’re able to take in but what you’re able to let go; the deep abyss. the sweet darkness. the unending void. the…[Read more]

  • annaise commented on the post, fatigue 6 years, 2 months ago

    my body drained and fragile slumping into the corner of a barren room, waiting for the sweet release of slumber, my throat dry and cracking as i try to voice what’s been plaguing the forefront of my brain — i’ve been running for so long and trying not to think about how bad i fucking miss you but i do, i think about you still and it’s been a…[Read more]

  • annaise commented on the post, plays 6 years, 2 months ago

    an instrument
    a show
    in the park
    tation
    with me
    sports
    checkers
    production
    manager
    with your mind
    with your heart
    with your soul

  • annaise commented on the post, claims 6 years, 2 months ago

    small claims court
    kate claims she can’t depend on me for anything and i agree

    this word brings back a lot of memories
    my first twitter name was ‘kateclaims’
    claims.
    ugh.
    exclaims would be better.
    a claim isn’t verifiable
    it doesn’t sit right —
    it’s an account.
    it’s what you’re being held accountable for
    when you could just be…[Read more]

  • annaise commented on the post, features 6 years, 2 months ago

    they arrange themselves quickly, not not quickly enough to conceal the initial response — one of shock and delight, casually construed into a nonchalant smirk. i reach toward you and hesitate, my arm extended, fingers reaching for the secret revelation of your true reaction. i grasp and let it fall as the words escape your lips: “that’s cool.”

  • annaise commented on the post, forth 6 years, 5 months ago

    and now is the time in which i should go forth, towards my brothers and sisters and everything i’ve ever dreamed of, to happen all at once.

    but instead i remain a pendulum
    to and fro between the most shameful […]

  • annaise commented on the post, charge 6 years, 6 months ago

    i felt it

    you were miles away, but with your every word i knew that there was some vibrant force behind it. just like that, as my eyes danced across the slender helvetica and bore into your soul, splayed out […]

  • annaise commented on the post, possible 6 years, 6 months ago

    is it possible
    am i capable

    yes
    i know i surely must be
    but the chances of it happening
    are slim
    and fleeting
    as quickly as the sun set
    this evening
    as i walked my old beagle
    around this […]

  • annaise commented on the post, walls 6 years, 6 months ago

    the walls are thin
    and a lack thereof
    i can hear every cough
    rustle
    and breath
    of my family members
    we are a living
    breathing
    mini community
    that barely knows each other.
    my nearest wall is […]

  • annaise commented on the post, combine 6 years, 6 months ago

    combine.

    i need to compile every fragment of my being together. i want to collaborate everything i’ve ever known and ever been and ever seen and ever thought of to be present in this moment, today. i need to […]

  • annaise commented on the post, signs 6 years, 6 months ago

    it’s like that mel gibson movie.

    what happened to that guy, anyway? i remember my mom loved him, way back when. him and kevin costner. the name kevin always makes me think of home alone. i miss that movie. my […]

  • annaise commented on the post, vote 6 years, 6 months ago

    you’ve only ever been given one choice before, and now, you’re faced with this? so much to think about and not enough time to make the Decision. will it matter, in the end? does anything? i need someone to slap […]