• AngelDuCiel commented on the post, savage 6 years, 2 months ago

    -Soundtrack of our live-

    Dreams have long passed
    And I wonder if you dream of me too.
    In the mist, we talk like we used to.
    Bold words – underlined
    But still a secret. Our own world
    That spins back into us.. Tangling us together.
    And we listened, to the soundtracks of your life,
    Of our short lives together. Taking in every breath
    And…[Read more]

  • I’m looking down on myself.
    My pathetic life.
    I’ve watched my mind slowly decompose
    My surroundings are moving but I can’t keep up
    Never keep up
    Never can absolve myself.

  • AngelDuCiel commented on the post, barren 6 years, 4 months ago

    I’ve left him, alone and barren.
    Will he forgive me?
    What am I to do next?

    It’s best if he is pushed away
    To save himself from my life of pain
    Maybe one day I can live up to my shame
    Hope he understands, I’m the one to blame.
    I bet he regrets he ever came
    Will he see, things can’t be the same?
    Days run together, it feels like…[Read more]

  • AngelDuCiel commented on the post, oblique 6 years, 4 months ago

    I’m unique
    He said so bleek
    I can’t compete
    But he completes

    I can’t descreat
    Or imagine
    Without him
    Beside me

    I

  • AngelDuCiel commented on the post, casting 6 years, 5 months ago

    you look me in the eyes, hard and stern
    And await my word
    But my words are casted at the sea
    Each tide a wish, crashing on the sand
    Swiping away each and every hope.

    I will no longer go there.
    That spot so haunted
    No matter how much I’m tempted
    No matter how much I’m taunted.

  • AngelDuCiel commented on the post, simplify 6 years, 5 months ago

    You strip me down. You break me down.
    As if I am a sentence on a page or a screen.
    As if I am the clothes I wear or the shampoo I use.
    I was a brand new pencil
    but you took your knife to my skin
    peeling away layer by layer
    until
    im nothing
    but
    lead. And you throw me into the ocean.
    And I sink.

  • AngelDuCiel commented on the post, simplify 6 years, 5 months ago

    I just can’t bring myself to eat.
    To pick up food
    to look for it
    to think it
    It doesn’t get more simple

  • AngelDuCiel commented on the post, timeline 6 years, 5 months ago

    I imagine lines in a tree stump.
    Lines drawn to those lines
    One line drawn to the first circle- This is my rebirth. This is me holding my mother’s hand crossing the parking lot. This is snacks in the afternoon, after school has exhausted me. This is sandwiches after swimming in the pool
    Lines drawn to the fifth, this is my realization that…[Read more]

  • AngelDuCiel commented on the post, weakling 6 years, 7 months ago

    pour concrete into your bones
    but that wont strengthen your soul
    fill in the shadows of doubt
    but that wont make you whole

    pour ink into your mouth
    but that wont make you speak
    sew your eyes open
    but that wont make you see

    spill blood onto your skin
    but that can’t make you feel
    paint a smile on your face
    it doesn’t make it…[Read more]

  • AngelDuCiel commented on the post, flat 6 years, 8 months ago

    His eyes are flat when he looks at me with a hard frown.
    His voice, as well, is flat and course as he lists out his reason why he’s leaving.
    Mae culpa, mai culpa.

    He whispers a lie to me, trying to reassure me of his feelings.
    His words mean nothing when he is about to leave.
    This is what he wants – separation-
    And he always gets what he wants.

  • AngelDuCiel commented on the post, sweep 6 years, 9 months ago

    Are there even real pleasures in life?
    Life moves on whether you’re happy or not.
    Carving its numbers and letters into your face with a careless notion.
    And as time progresses, every little edge gets darker, and darker,making up for the lost memories from the days when you were younger.
    Life means nothing when you cannot remember…[Read more]

  • AngelDuCiel commented on the post, compass 6 years, 9 months ago

    He is my compass, my road back home.
    He is everything I’ve come to adore.
    He is my way to a better life, one
    Drowned in him and
    One I will always cherish.
    He is the road to my dreams and my hope.
    And to a happy, long life.

  • AngelDuCiel commented on the post, must 6 years, 9 months ago

    Haiku:

    I think we should run
    Away; Past the lights and Sounds
    We must not look back.

  • I’m glad I get to experience every day with him.
    Every second is a new life for me.
    I’m glad the light is being brought back in to my life.

    I feel like I’m falling alive.

  • AngelDuCiel commented on the post, placed 6 years, 9 months ago

    He was placed in my mind.
    He is placed in my heart.
    I hear him, but I don’t want to.
    I see him but I don’t want to.
    I know him, and I don’t want to.

  • AngelDuCiel commented on the post, amount 6 years, 9 months ago

    No amount of regret will let me take it back.
    Therefore, I cannot allow myself to regret.
    Or else I’ll be left with nothing but it.

  • AngelDuCiel commented on the post, barrel 6 years, 9 months ago

    I’m like a barrel rolling down a hill, bumping into things. I can’t tell where I’m going or where I just was. All I know is that.. I’m tumbling.
    And in my dreams I’m on fire.

  • AngelDuCiel commented on the post, sure 6 years, 9 months ago

    I’m not sure how many pills I took.
    I just dumped some into my hands a few times.
    It’s quite easy.
    Take a few sips and all your problems magically disappear as you close your eyes and dream.
    They say that dreams are for those who sleep.
    And why live life from dream to dream
    And live to dread the day when dreaming ends.

    I dreamt a dream…[Read more]

  • AngelDuCiel commented on the post, sure 6 years, 9 months ago

    I’m not sure what I’m going to do.
    I’m not sure about what I want.
    I’m not sure that I can be happy.

  • AngelDuCiel commented on the post, soil 6 years, 9 months ago

    I haven’t soiled anything yet.
    Every time I fucking hear a door slam I swear to god it’s him.
    I am so sick of disappointing myself.