• Andelia commented on the post, respectable 8 years, 9 months ago

    It’s not respectable to cry. But right now my lashes are standing out, thick with tears and my eyes are a deep green. My aunt recently killed herself. That’s not respectable. My mom likes to blame me for everything, I’m not respectable. I’m stupid and small and I sometimes want to drown myself in the […]

  • Andelia commented on the post, discover 8 years, 9 months ago

    It’s not my fault. I was never looking for it. But there, hidden under ONE layer of folders, all of which had names appealing to me, was the file. I clicked on it, because it had a present on it for an image. And inside I found it. My father was gay. I was six […]

  • Andelia commented on the post, fiction 8 years, 9 months ago

    It’s not true. Half the things I say. Half of them are all made up in order to sound like I live an interesting life. And maybe I do, but I twist the interesting to make it even more dramatic. I have a flair for the fantastic. My last boyfriend called me a fanatic for […]

  • Andelia commented on the post, phrase 8 years, 9 months ago

    I heard this phrase, “A different breed of cat.” i didn’t quite know what it meant, but I really enjoyed the ring to it. So I googled it, hoping to find out the meaning I had already thought it could be. But when you google it, all you get is pet breeding sites and zoology […]

  • Andelia commented on the post, success 8 years, 9 months ago

    I finally found success in my life. Join the Navy. check. Find a boy friend, check. Enjoy myself… But then I realize that success isn’t about the status you hold and the things you have. It’s about how you feel about your life. I suppose I’m heading there, and I’m becoming happy… but I get […]

  • Andelia commented on the post, notice 8 years, 9 months ago

    He never noticed me when I was around. No, the only time I was on his mind was when he was bored. A call, a few laughs, and I was in his arms, in his house. In his bed. I never understood it until he broke my body. I never understood until he didn’t give […]

  • Andelia commented on the post, route 8 years, 9 months ago

    I’m running the same route, but nothing ever feels right. I keep going, always going, like that little pink rabbit. I beat my drum and run to the same beat always. But nothing ever works out for me. I always want to change, but I see her, I see how she can’t change and I […]

  • Andelia commented on the post, library 8 years, 9 months ago

    I had my best kiss in the library. He was an intern, working for little pay and no one was around. A few sharp words were exchanged and I followed him further into the stacks to explain how he was wrong on the topic. He grabbed me. Anger and fear, at first, then passion. It […]

  • Andelia commented on the post, split 8 years, 9 months ago

    My mind is several pieces, all floating around while I think. Sometimes I wonder if I’m another person. Sometimes I know I am. I change and my mind splits. I am two and counting, but no one knows but me.

  • Andelia commented on the post, tarnished 8 years, 10 months ago

    He leaves me on a shelf. Leaves me behind the glass, behind the vintage china. Sometimes he takes me out, remembers the days in the past, but he always puts me back because I am tarnished-just the way he left me. I am tarnished from disuse and I am worn from misuse and now I […]

  • Andelia commented on the post, paperclips 8 years, 10 months ago

    I bend them, shape them as my mind fancies and my fingers obey. Sometimes I don’t like the new form, so I attempt to fix it, but that never works. Once something is bent to a point, it can never truly be bent back into place. But usually I find the new form when I […]

  • Andelia commented on the post, typewriter 8 years, 10 months ago

    I used to have an old typewriter. Click clack click clack, tiii. It was broken. Always halted me from typing the “e” key. Which kind of makes it really look stupid. Once I used the typewriter to type a paper for school, and I wrote in each “e” because my computer was broken. The teacher […]

  • Andelia commented on the post, boa 8 years, 10 months ago

    I got a boa constrictor named Jack. He likes to wrap himself around my arm, which my mom tells me is incredibly dangerous. It probably is. He might kill me someday. Sometimes I wonder about him when he squeezes my arm a little too tight. But I’m sure it’ll be fine. If not…ARGGH!

  • Andelia commented on the post, sheets 8 years, 10 months ago

    I don’t use sheets. I don’t like the feel of them when I’m trying to enjoy my time in bed. They make me feel scratchy and weird and it’s just an all around unpleasant time. Of course, clothes and any sort of covering makes me uncomfortable, but I handle that feeling during the day. Night’s […]

  • Andelia commented on the post, stamps 8 years, 10 months ago

    He stamps people with labels. Smart, pretty, uglier than a coo in heat (I don’t get it either, but he’s been stamped with “hick” by me already). He puts me in this box, this easy to cheat off of and cheat on and use up and slap out and feel up and snuff out. Then […]

  • Andelia commented on the post, temper 8 years, 10 months ago

    I have a poor temper when it involves people I care about, or respect. Or when it involves people who are rude and acting like dumbasses. Those people… I just lose myself sometimes and honestly don’t know what to do with them.

  • Andelia commented on the post, possibility 8 years, 10 months ago

    I believe in endless possibilities. But I know not everyone reaches for them. That’s the reason that some people don’t succeed. They don’t see the possibility and they don’t look for them because it’s too hard.

  • Andelia commented on the post, immense 8 years, 10 months ago

    Little children can be immensely annoying. It’s as if they don’t see boundaries, they don’t understand rules and limits. Good in imagination, normally. But in things like society, it just doesn’t work and, quite frankly, it pissed me off more than just about anything. I don’t want children.

  • Andelia commented on the post, believer 8 years, 10 months ago

    I am a believer. I love God, I believe God. It’s the people that lie. It’s the translator’s that allowed their view to take on a new meaning in the variations of the bible. Those people I don’t know that I can believe all of the time. It’s in human nature to twist things the […]

  • Andelia commented on the post, willow 8 years, 10 months ago

    She wears a willow on her leg. Strong, but flexible. She bends for everyone, but never bows, never breaks. Black and white inks, showing her favorite tree.