• Personality is a rather surface level of anyone’s life. You have to wonder sometimes what’s behind that personaltiy you find so engaging. Is it just a show meant for public consumption, or is it real.

  • I defended my toast from an onslaught by my cat. I shooed her away. She persisted. I ate my toast in fear of my cat.

    Only crumbs were left when she licked the plate.

    And I felt as if I’d deprived her.

  • I defended him at every point, stood up for him until I had nothing else to say. He accepted it in his own quiet way, never giving me a clue about how he felt. Could I see it in his eyes and have missed it somehow?

  • spiderjunior commented on the post, prisoner 6 years, 1 month ago

    I am a prisoner of desire. It rules me. Especially in the morning, when my energy is high. I cannot control my impulse. I have to do it even though I know it’s disaster in the making. What do I need to do to

  • spiderjunior commented on the post, polar 6 years, 2 months ago

    His eyes were polar after a restless night. He spoke quietly and moved slowly, as if he were in some pain. I asked him nothing. I could feel his silence and his reluctance to open up to me. It was nothing new. But

  • spiderjunior commented on the post, coach 6 years, 4 months ago

    Stop the coach, he ordered. The driver ignored him. Traffic was light and the bus was loaded. Passengers began to fidget. The man who ordered the stop became more insistent. He rose from his seat and approached the driver. The lady behind the driver gasped and began to cry.

  • spiderjunior commented on the post, icing 7 years, 2 months ago

    Icing songs in the morning in the shower. Why? Because underneath is a cake that cannot be denied. I am hungry, and I am wet. It makes for a difficult endeavor. Napkins don’t work under these conditions—unless they’re cloth.

  • spiderjunior commented on the post, icing 7 years, 2 months ago

    The icing on the cake was that for the first time, I encountered someone who I knew would return what I felt. It had been years, lifetimes even, since I’d known that kind of relationship, that kind of reciprocity. […]

  • spiderjunior commented on the post, quest 7 years, 5 months ago

    My quest is for love. Nothing less, nothing else will do. Whether it’s self-love or love of another, somehow I have to uncover what’s there inside me to give away. This is a lifelong ambition stronger than any otehr desire.

  • spiderjunior commented on the post, sound 7 years, 6 months ago

    THe sound of the sea, the sounds of birds, teh sound of thunder, or of rain, or of the wind in pine trees. These are the sounds I crave, the sounds I need to hear more of. They gladden my heart, soothe my ears.

  • spiderjunior commented on the post, bitten 7 years, 6 months ago

    I’ve been bitten by a Swedish car, a Saab convertible. I’d never have imagined the bite would be so acute, so long-lasting. How is it different? The car has teeth. S

  • spiderjunior commented on the post, beehive 7 years, 8 months ago

    The palce was a beehive of purposeful activity. People worked there with quiet efficiency, packaging goods for shipment to all corners of the earth.

  • spiderjunior commented on the post, liberty 7 years, 9 months ago

    Do I know what liberty is? Am I free enough to really do what I want, free enough to love everyone I want to love, without reservation(s), without hesitations? That’s what liberty is, the freedom to express and give love as I see fit.

  • spiderjunior commented on the post, liberty 7 years, 9 months ago

    Liberty is misunderstood by many, unappreciated by most, and underused by all of us. It’s also the name of a Subaru car.

  • spiderjunior commented on the post, dozen 7 years, 9 months ago

    a dozen eggs for breakfast? That’s too many. The chickens won’t be able to keep up. Why did I marry a giant? I’ll never know. But I love her even though she’s a beast from toe to toe.

  • spiderjunior commented on the post, dozen 7 years, 9 months ago

    I had a dozen cats whom I loved dearly. They were a grand assortment of colors and furs, some vivid in appearance, some with short hair, some with long. They all got along splendidly, which everyone thought was quitee

  • spiderjunior commented on the post, beckon 7 years, 10 months ago

    She beckoned with all her might. She was ancient, fading, but I could see the desire in her eyes. She wanted love in these final hours. I could give it to her, and in such a way that she’d have a proper exit from this world and a headstart into the next.

  • spiderjunior commented on the post, return 7 years, 10 months ago

    No deposit, no return, no foolin”. That’s how it is today. recycling is serious stuff. And it doesn’t work. Just don’t buy it in the first place. You willl notice I can’t type. Pitiful.

  • spiderjunior commented on the post, slouch 7 years, 10 months ago

    I told him, do not slouch. YOu’ll never get the part. He did not listen. He just kept smoking his last Marlboro. I warned him about that, too. The kid just didn’t listen to anyone and he wasn’t going to listen to me. I knew it.

  • I shuffle as I walk along because something happened that I can’t figure out. I can’t deal with it now. It has gone to my legs. They are weak. They are depressed. I am depressed. So I shuffle. My entire deck has been washed clean.