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adopt

wouldn’t be funny if your parents adopted me? then we would actually be brother and sister. i don’t know why that scenario comes to mind, but it does. maybe because deep down, I really wish I could say you actually are my brother. =]

» Posted By laughalot On 02.09.2012 @ 4:06 pm

butterfly

I drew a butterfly on my leg. i said to myself, if you drag out that ol’ blade of yours, you kill the butterfly. and so i left the butterfly there for weeks. i didn’t cut for weeks. now i feel i can’t survive with out this butterfly; this butterfly that saved my life.

» Posted By laughalot On 02.08.2012 @ 9:16 pm

walls

I don’t know if you would call these walls bad. They’re more boundaries. Places I will not allow our friendship to move to. places in my heart that are guarded. not to keep me from getting hurt, but to save them for my husband. the part of me that really likes you, tells me to tear down the walls. but the part of me that knows what’s best says, “Stand strong, don’t give away your heart to someone who can’t promise you a future.”

» Posted By laughalot On 02.07.2012 @ 12:04 pm

camera

my camera has captured the moments that are done and over with. the people i miss, the people I’m closer with… the times when all i could do was pray.

» Posted By laughalot On 02.06.2012 @ 9:49 am

wagon

I remember the days full of wagon rides, Webkinz, lightening bugs, Tamagotchis, friends, scooters….oh how i miss those days. what i would do to go back to that completely genuine happiness..before fake smiles were introduced to me.

» Posted By laughalot On 02.01.2012 @ 11:51 am

function

without these sunsets I couldn’t function. sometimes sunsets are the only way I get through the day. God knew I needed one today.

» Posted By laughalot On 01.30.2012 @ 7:27 pm

plans

“For I know the plans I have for you; plans to prosper you and not to harm you.” Jeremiah 29:11
I lay my plans at the cross, because I know you have much bigger things in mind for me. :)

» Posted By laughalot On 01.25.2012 @ 9:29 am

hinge

I’ve finally let God repair the hinge on the door to my dreams, my destiny. He gave me the key, but reminded me to open the door at the right time; when He tells me to- not when I feel like it.

» Posted By laughalot On 01.23.2012 @ 2:43 pm

scarce

The kind of people that will be your friend unconditionally, without asking in anything in return, are very scarce, unfortunately. The nightmares I have about you send me warning signals that someday, you might actually try to hurt me. I sure hope I’m wrong.

» Posted By laughalot On 01.22.2012 @ 11:01 am

liberty

God has come and He will bring liberty and justice. every prison door will be opened.

» Posted By laughalot On 01.19.2012 @ 1:20 pm

below

I am below the happiness I had for a quick moment. now here I am again..this dark pit seems extremely familiar. when, some one please tell me, when will things make sense? I’m tired of this nauseating roller coaster.

» Posted By laughalot On 01.17.2012 @ 1:05 pm

accordion

I play an accordion in this circus; everyone laughs at things I do and say. They see my big, red smile and assume that it’s a real smile. They think that underneath all my makeup, I’m actually happy.

» Posted By laughalot On 01.16.2012 @ 9:13 am

bland

Religion is bland. It’s something that holds us down, keeps us from touching the sky. Jesus came to break that barrier so that we could have a relationship with Him, instead of a religion about Him.

» Posted By laughalot On 01.11.2012 @ 6:45 am

savage

You’re a savage little demon, you tried to pull my life apart at the seems. You succeeded, at first, that is…. but things are going a little bit different now. I ain’t living for you.

» Posted By laughalot On 01.10.2012 @ 6:33 am

lilies

“You are a set apart white lily. Focus on your Prince, let Him be your lover.” These words never get old for me, these words make me feel so beautiful.

» Posted By laughalot On 01.09.2012 @ 9:58 am

apron

Put on your apron and grab a broom; it’s time to clean house. Time to let go of the things that held you to the ground. Time to pursue Him. Smile, my dear :)

» Posted By laughalot On 01.06.2012 @ 7:14 am

thorns

I’m digging you out of the thorns; I want you up where I am, by the water and grass and sunshine. A place of tranquility. Take my hand, we’ll do this together. One step at a time.

» Posted By laughalot On 01.05.2012 @ 7:11 am

trunk

I laid myself out one the trunk of the car as the hot August heat melted into my skin, waiting for my brother to arrive. Minutes seemed like hours out in the suffocating heat. But you never came.. You never came.

» Posted By laughalot On 01.04.2012 @ 7:18 am

glimmer

I see a glimmer of hope in your eyes. Hope of me seeing myself as beautiful.

» Posted By laughalot On 01.02.2012 @ 10:38 am

bridge

Standing at the top of the bridge in the pouring rain, looking down at the water beneath me. My feet are an inch away from falling. I jump, hoping this will be the end of pain. But I awaken in a white room and my body feels numb. This was, indeed, a big mistake. One I can’t fix or take back; all I can do is wish.

» Posted By laughalot On 12.30.2011 @ 12:39 pm

flood

They say, “A flood is coming. It will wipe out every mistake, every heartache. You will be happy once again.” But how can you be so sure? I’ve lived 7 years with these mistakes, this heartache- this absence of happiness. One Son can really help me onto my feet again? I’m incredibly hesitant to believe this.

» Posted By laughalot On 12.21.2011 @ 11:32 am

dusk

I remember the walks at dusk..trying to clear out my head..trying to figure everything out. I remember sitting on a park swing, looking up at the moon..thinking about how nice it would be to escape the pain and hurt.
Tell me, why haven’t these days come to an end, yet?

» Posted By laughalot On 12.20.2011 @ 1:34 pm

scar

Every scar reminds me of the pain, the hurt..the times when I couldn’t handle the constant heartbreak. Each scar I’m ashamed of, but I’m also proud of them..because it means I was strong enough to survive.

» Posted By laughalot On 12.19.2011 @ 8:01 am

sleeve

I pull down my sleeves and forget about shorts, just to hide the scars that remind me how weak of a person I truly am.

» Posted By laughalot On 12.16.2011 @ 7:39 am

gown

there’s no gown that could make me feel beautiful. there’s no day that could make me feel happy. i’m just downright miserable.

» Posted By laughalot On 12.12.2011 @ 7:01 am

beckon

I come to you at your beckon and call. i am a slave, a servant. my master is the past. i dont attempt to escape because of my fear i won’t be able to.

» Posted By laughalot On 12.10.2011 @ 1:22 pm

sneaky

So you think you’re sneaking, eh? You think you can talk me into putting the gun to my head? you. are. wrong. my past will not dictate my future. i refuse to let those old ways control me any longer.

» Posted By laughalot On 12.08.2011 @ 9:14 pm

obey

i refuse to obey the patterns of yesterday. my past will not dictate my future.

» Posted By laughalot On 12.03.2011 @ 8:14 pm

slouch

they say “don’t slouch. look perfect. be perfect.”. i. am. human. but yet there are still these ideas in my head that i must be perfect, when no one really knows what perfect means.

» Posted By laughalot On 12.02.2011 @ 7:26 am

dim

it feels dim. dark. scary. alone.
is this what it would feel like if i started cutting myself?
so many questions. no answers.
how long will this go on?

» Posted By laughalot On 11.29.2011 @ 11:00 am

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