• Trey commented on the post, creature 4 years, 6 months ago

    Where did I even go? It’s not as morose, the question, not as it used to be. Now I’m moreso staring at the wall, inquisitive expressions casting no shadows, and wondering out loud. Where’d I go? Am I really still interested in being an author or have my dreams turned into minimum wage acceptance and a desire to just exist for a while? Eh.

  • Trey commented on the post, plague 4 years, 6 months ago

    We only ever took the pledge. No one knew what would happen. No one even thought about it.
    What do you do when the entire world expects you to destroy it?
    I was a plague before they recruited me. What do I do now?
    What do I do now??

  • Trey commented on the post, plague 4 years, 6 months ago

    i drip into them and take whatever’s loose. They belong to me after a few smart laughs, a few good talks. oh, how we both love all the same obscure things, oh how we both seem to be the awkward ones. and then i take them. i take everything they can offer and i warp it into something bad. i make them melt.
    by the time i’m bored, done with the sex,…[Read more]

  • Trey commented on the post, bleeding 4 years, 7 months ago

    She held her mouth in proud defiance. No one would heal her. She knew more than anyone that this was the end. This was it. All her life, all the harm done to her, all the begging and pleading, it was over. And all she needed was a nice scented candle and some green tea to end it off with. To give in to it. It was time.
    She soaked in the heavy…[Read more]

  • Trey commented on the post, scatter 4 years, 10 months ago

    It ignites. and everyone around can finally tell just how horrible he really was. all those lives, tossed at the center of such a glowing blaze. all those lives.
    he was just another person in my life. another victim turning regular old folks into victims. but i watched that blaze with a sadness that no one else will ever feel. not in a million…[Read more]

  • Trey commented on the post, himself 4 years, 10 months ago

    A new low. I thought of the boy who had to raise himself, had to love himself, had to deal all by himself because mommy left. And he didn’t know what mommy knew, just that it was just him. and when she came back, there were walls. there were doors slightly ajar, but she just didn’t have the strength to push them open. and when they closed, she…[Read more]

  • Trey commented on the post, past 4 years, 10 months ago

    and every day I feel something different. it catches up, the smiles, the laughter, all the good that i overlooked. why now? why when i’m trying my best to let it drift off into nothingness is everything invoking smiles and random revelries? I wanted them so bad…I hope it never happens again…

  • Trey commented on the post, under 4 years, 10 months ago

    little things bite at me. i find myself enthralled when someone doesn’t like me, need me, appreciate me. it gets under my skin and hurts me. it ends certain parts of me. and i thought this was over. i thought that was so high school horror story, wishing everyone would crowd around me with smiles instead of malice. but there’s always that one…[Read more]

  • Trey commented on the post, soon 4 years, 10 months ago

    I hoped it wouldn’t come to this. That we’d forget one another, that the skies over our heads would grow dimmer and dimmer until we couldn’t tell who was where. But it’s a lot to ask, huh? When you want someone so much that your bones break at the thought of them forgetting you. So I’ll wait for you there. And I’ll see you soon.

  • Trey commented on the post, soon 4 years, 10 months ago

    She waited. Pondering what life could be like without the faint musk of failure trailing behind her, rendering her useless. And it wasn’t clear, no, it never really had been. But she knew it wasn’t another person she needed. Not another job. No, what she needed was a new life. Her next turn. And she’d get it. Soon.

  • Trey commented on the post, library 4 years, 11 months ago

    They loom. All around me, shadows of the past, the future, the present. They gloat with their complete lives, so much more put together than I’ll ever be. what can I say? I never really had the spine for this.
    And I wonder where it all stops. When my chapters come together to form my boring book. And what section of the library I’ll be banished to.

  • Trey commented on the post, employees 4 years, 11 months ago

    Oi. I’ve been long lost to the working world, waking every day to the sound of no plans and an empty schedule. It’s not so amazing, free time. Sometimes I miss the quick pace and horrid moods of others, telling me what to do and say and think and feel. At least then I had the nerve to have an actual personality. Maybe without all the pressure, I’m…[Read more]

  • Trey commented on the post, arts 4 years, 11 months ago

    It always begins with a smile. a bit of paint on the nose, a freckled grin in the right direction. we spun the clay together, not Ghost style but side by side, and I realized what I wanted right then. Maybe everyone would hate me for leaving him, but I wanted her bad enough to take that risk. Right there in that art class.

  • Trey commented on the post, upper 5 years ago

    we were roaring. screaming. saying so much in our bursts of hot breath that there was no room for words. we’re all just so connected, the unwatched, the pushed. we’re all just so typical that it burns the skin. […]

  • Trey commented on the post, help 5 years ago

    it finds me. buried beneath all the wine and cheese, all the tears of a flexible schedule and a healthy lifestyle, it reaches for me. all those real things that haunt me, they keep me heavy. where’s the real me? […]

  • Trey commented on the post, affairs 5 years ago

    Let’s see where this takes us. You knew I loved him the day we melded bodies, the day we became the extra in the room. And I still do. And I always will. From his smile to those gorgeous teeth, sinking deep into […]

  • Trey commented on the post, afraid 5 years ago

    just let go. don’t understand a thing or want for nothing, young lady, young man, it was all over a long time ago. it was all just a dream, a facade pushed on you by the consumers in your nightmares, telling you […]

  • Trey commented on the post, people 5 years ago

    they swarm. holding candles filled with lead, they pour molten thoughts into my life. all over my decisions. and each one tastes a little different. burns a little harder, maybe less, maybe more. i’m always […]

  • Trey commented on the post, begin 5 years ago

    we rushed. there was never any time to scream, to laugh, to giggle about our situation. there was only time to move, to banish, to disappear and reappear over and over again. this isn’t love. it’ll never be. we’re […]

  • Trey commented on the post, despite 5 years, 1 month ago

    Of all the things we could’ve loved, we fell for each other. The whore and the addict. Sending waves of less than cares, tons of neverminds and maybes. We always would belong to the seedy underground. But I still […]