• terradi commented on the post, cages 8 months, 2 weeks ago

    The bars are not real. I know that, though I feel them brush against my skin as I strive to move forward once more. The bars are only in my mind. He was kind enough to explain that to me as he departed, leaving me to my fate. And yet knowing they are not there is different than actually breaking through them. Feeling the slap of hard metal against…[Read more]

  • terradi commented on the post, executives 8 months, 3 weeks ago

    I listen because that is the safest way. Not to get ahead as we once believed it might be. But simply to survive. Listening, following orders. Not questioning or thinking too much. All of these are things the Executives favor. All of these are things which help to increase our chances of survival.
    Of course, nothing is complete or absolute. There…[Read more]

  • terradi commented on the post, tradition 9 months, 2 weeks ago

    This is the way it has always been. The way it always will be.

    These are the words used to brick people in; to chain them to things they don’t like. To justify the unjustifiable when logic cannot be used. These are the words used to ignore sense and rationality for the sake of emotion, primal and unreasoning.

    These are the words that hem me in.

  • terradi commented on the post, resolve 9 months, 3 weeks ago

    A new year. A new chance. This time I’ll do better. This time I’ll keep those promises. This time I’ll do it — no more drinking, no more smoking. I’l be okay. I can do without them. I’ve done it before, granted never for very long before that urge sets in — no. I can do this. I have to do this. I worry that I’m running out of time and that this…[Read more]

  • terradi commented on the post, simmer 9 months, 3 weeks ago

    The heightened passion, so evident in the halls between classes, it settles down here. Furtive glances, passed notes. Occasionally the daring held hands. But they dare little more under teacher scrutiny. For fear of mocking. For fear that their romance, as fragile as it is, might be subjected to peer judging and humiliation. For fear that maybe…[Read more]

  • terradi commented on the post, dash 9 months, 3 weeks ago

    Every nerve screaming with fire. Pain. urgency as my lungs are about to burst. My legs quaver and wobble but I musn’t stop. If I stop, if i look back, pause, or hesitate for only a moment, they’ll be upon me. And what happens after that puts more speed to my flight. Freedom is elusive, but as long as I am running, I may still have a chance. As…[Read more]

  • terradi commented on the post, almost 9 months, 4 weeks ago

    Flashing lights, cheers, and trophies. The resounding sense of victory and the cries of teammates as they celebrate the impossible. They’ve won. They’ve really done it.

    I watch it all from afar. Knowing that if that one kick had gone the other way, it would have been me there, the center of attention, the crown star of a celebration. But not…[Read more]

  • terradi commented on the post, moving 10 months ago

    Lurching, the train straggles on, rocking its occupants gently back and forth as it continues to cross between city to city. The young child sitting next to her mother begins to nod then falls asleep to the lullaby of the train’s motion and sound.

  • terradi commented on the post, centered 10 months ago

    Ohm.
    I am one.
    Except maybe when sometimes I’m not. I mean, everyone has off days here and there right? And to have one bad day doesn’t mean that they’re all bad days. And what does I am one mean anyway? Who made up this whole meditation thing.
    Ahem.
    Starting again.
    Ohm.
    I am one.
    Really now … is that something that was added when they…[Read more]

  • terradi commented on the post, persistent 10 months ago

    “If stubbornness could kill ya, you’d be dead.”
    The words floated up to Mari as she continued her ascent up the rock wall. The angle was steep, one of those outward curves that required you to defy gravity if you wanted to hold on. She’d already tried and failed on it four times, and was warming up for a fifth. She grinned, wedged her foot in a…[Read more]

  • terradi commented on the post, compass 10 months ago

    The tiny dial looks far too dainty to navigate the world, I think to myself as I hold it aloft, watching it hover and flit gently back and forth as I twisted it towards North. There. In the distance, towards the tallest of the icy peaks on the path ahead.
    Thought so.
    With a sigh, I reshoulder my packs, and begin the long trudge down from the…[Read more]

  • terradi commented on the post, atlas 10 months, 1 week ago

    I skim my fingers along the spine of the book, a listing of places and locations, destinations and travels all far too numerous to visit within my short lifetime. So many possibilities … so many limitations. To go everywhere, or to go only a few places and to know them well? The doors beckon within the pages of this fragile book as I try and decide.

  • terradi commented on the post, domestic 1 year, 5 months ago

    Ahh. Domestic house panther, that’s the life for me. Free food, all the water I can drink, and someone to scoop my litterbox regularly, feed me treats, and get that itchy spot juuuust behind the ear. All of these things I like. I even tolerate when they don’t quite get the itchy spot or when they get it just enough that it gets even more itchy.…[Read more]

  • terradi commented on the post, abundant 1 year, 5 months ago

    Abundance sounds like such a good thing. Until you have too much of it. Found this out the hard way with the replicator on Thursday. Seemed innocent enough, thought I could walk away for just five minutes and leave it running without issue. Then five minutes became fifteen and fifteen became twenty because I found one more thing I just HAD to do…[Read more]

  • terradi commented on the post, chosen 1 year, 6 months ago

    Chosen. It is one of those words that carries a lot of weight. It comes with the expectation of honor, of purity, or being exceptional; worthy. It marks one as elevated in the community — one who serves a greater purpose; a higher calling.

    Until it doesn’t. Until one falls or fails or doesn’t quite measure up to the legends in everyone’s mind…[Read more]

  • terradi commented on the post, scientific 1 year, 6 months ago

    Science is simple to me. It is or it isn’t. It’s a theory with strong backing, or it’s a theory which is yet to be tested. You can decide what’s true or not true, what’s useful or statistically significant versus what is just caused by correlation or the placebo effect.You can throw away an old proven theory, but only if you have a new one which…[Read more]

  • terradi commented on the post, delivery 1 year, 7 months ago

    Oh I know it’s not the sort of delivery that I’m meant to be writing about right now, but let me tell you, there are days where I fantasize about some sort of delivery from all of this. An instant win, instant gratification. Instant decision that I’ve worked hard enough and that life should be easy from this point on.
    Which is what we all…[Read more]

  • terradi commented on the post, pan 1 year, 7 months ago

    Silver flash, the morning light hitting the pan, making its scratched, battle-hardened surface look like a precious commodity rather than the tool that it was. Just for a moment, I pretended that I held treasure in my hands and not a tool. But there was work to be done, breakfast to be made. And for that a tool was a thousand times more useful…[Read more]

  • terradi commented on the post, reflecting 1 year, 7 months ago

    Reflecting always brings to mind for me a pool. Still, silent, and unsullied by debris or any other sort of clutter that might muck up one’s view. Reflecting is the activity of quiet minds or quiet moments in a day.
    Reflecting is, in many ways a luxury. Especially for those of us in turbulent times, or in pools where everything is not so crystal…[Read more]

  • terradi commented on the post, charmed 2 years, 9 months ago

    First glance I was hooked. That smile. Those eyes. That perfect, perfect voice. You had me at “grab this and RUN”. After that, I would have followed you anywhere, done anything. Even if we hadn’t been surrounded by explosives going off all around us making chasing you the only sane option.