• Tarryn commented on the post, deranged 3 years, 2 months ago

    I am deranged
    Estranged
    Fully loaded
    A ghost with the ability to rip
    You heart is nothing
    It will not save you
    Not when the deranged girl
    The can’t be saved girl
    Gets to it
    Because I will eat it while it’s
    Still beating
    Beating up what you have given me
    I am deranged
    I am

  • Tarryn commented on the post, witnessed 3 years, 2 months ago

    I’ve never witnessed anything like how you hated me
    I couldn’t understand, all I’d ever done was try to please you
    But I smothered, I guess
    I was crazy and uncessary
    Or so you told me
    You couldn’t imagine staying in one place for so long
    One place with one person, the way I had decided to stay with you
    But the decision was never really…[Read more]

  • Tarryn commented on the post, listening 4 years, 2 months ago

    I keep listening to this voice inside my head
    It takes away any of my perfect words
    And leaves me with a doubt I cannot conquer
    I have no words, am left fathomless
    Where do I go from here
    My fingers are stuck, locked, failing at creating poignant thoughts
    Nothing happens
    Nothing here
    Nothing
    Nothing

  • Tarryn commented on the post, sate 4 years, 5 months ago

    How does one sate a thirst for death
    Not that of others
    But that for oneself
    I know.
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  • Tarryn commented on the post, game 4 years, 5 months ago

    Game, game, game
    I cannot think about what comes to mind when I see the word game
    Because I just saw The Hobbit
    AND I AM DYING
    I DON’T KNOW HOW I SURVIVED
    OH MY GOD
    NO MORE
    THIS IS THE LONGEST MINUTE EVER
    THE HOBBIT MAKES TIME GO BY SLOWER
    PERMANENTLY
    MAKE THIS END I CANNOT THINK
    S:FDLJAS:JLD

  • Tarryn commented on the post, five 4 years, 5 months ago

    Five seconds ago you were mine, I swear it.
    A mere
    one
    two
    three
    four
    five
    But now, I only see your silhouette in the distance
    Roaming farther and father away from me
    Five seconds ago I had everything
    And now it’s five months later and I still hear the clock strike backward
    five
    four
    three
    two
    one
    Backwards into the depths of your blue

  • Tarryn commented on the post, due 4 years, 5 months ago

    Hush now baby, don’t say a word
    I know that you’re scared and want to go home
    It’s due time for your tears to all stop
    But you’re locked in a closet and you can hear the gun shots
    I can tell you that it’ll all be okay; it’ll be a lie but they’ll remember your name
    And moments from now your fear will go away

  • Tarryn commented on the post, stir 4 years, 5 months ago

    These feelings, I cannot contain them. They are overwhelming me; controlling my every thought. I cannot breath without feeling them stir deep inside. Threatening to bubble over, they need to be noticed. They need to be fulfilled. But there is nothing I can do to quell this desire and maintain my own dignity.

  • Tarryn commented on the post, living 4 years, 5 months ago

    Living and breathing inside of glass, pressed flat and unfeeling between sheets of sharp, cornered guilt. How is anyone supposed to dream or believe when eyes are wide-open at a mouth of blood and filth. There is no salvation here.

  • Tarryn commented on the post, patient 4 years, 5 months ago

    I’ve been so patient with my love
    So selfless, though no one would ever believe
    I’ve let it go now that I’ve gotten it
    It’s for the greater good
    They’re better off, I’m desperately not
    I’ve set you free as I sink

  • Tarryn commented on the post, determined 4 years, 5 months ago

    She is determine to fail because she can’t do anything else right.
    Failing and losing and not being anyone’s choice: these are the only things she is good at. So she will fail and she will do so to everyone’s lowest expectations. She will not fight it, she will thrive in it. When you’re a failure, it is everything and anything.

  • Tarryn commented on the post, available 4 years, 5 months ago

    Where is this pressure coming from
    I am alone in this room
    All alone and so untouched
    Covered in dust and left to my thoughts
    It feels like winter in my mind
    And no one is available to keep me warm
    There is nothing but this frost
    That kisses my eyelashes
    But I am still so lonely

  • Tarryn commented on the post, presented 4 years, 5 months ago

    I’ve been presented with a terrible reality
    It has bared down on me like an ocean wave
    Unrelenting and determined, it will demolish me
    Sweeping me from off the unstable ground I’m shaking on
    I’m lost and tumbling beneath the wreckage
    I’m drowning
    I’m losing
    I’m-

  • Tarryn commented on the post, methods 4 years, 5 months ago

    I am curled up inside my thoughts. Letting pleasant ideas and repressed pain keep me floating. But I am floating past responsibilities and ignoring expectation. Lost in these methods of living a lie. Realizing it really isn’t living – not really. But this is how I survive the day.

  • Tarryn commented on the post, broadcast 4 years, 5 months ago

    You broadcast your shame for all of us to hear
    You scribble it black and red all over these walls
    Plastered on billboards and scrawled on your skin
    You’re collecting all your tears in jars only to show them all to us
    You need to prove your pain
    You need someone to care
    It only leaves us caring less

  • Tarryn commented on the post, July 4 years, 5 months ago

    July has never meant much to me
    You always get a little older
    And I am never there with you
    July is just a passerby
    That whispers to me what I am missing
    It tells me of what I have lost
    What I have yet to do
    And of the hardship ahead
    It drips down my spine
    Oh, July

  • Tarryn commented on the post, roof 4 years, 5 months ago

    I’ve never sat on top of a roof
    Only in my fantasies
    I escape from my world and stare up at the sky
    Hair snagging on shingles and wind blowing my face
    Eyes glued to wisps of clouds or pinpricks of stars
    No glasses adorn my face so I squint
    But not as much as I have to when I am
    stuck
    on
    the
    ground

  • Tarryn commented on the post, simple 4 years, 5 months ago

    I can’t remember when things were simple
    Was it when I was just a child, playing with dolls and obsessing over crayons?
    No, because innocence was lost there
    I can’t remember things
    ever
    being
    simple

  • Tarryn commented on the post, higher 4 years, 5 months ago

    Getting higher
    Falling farther
    Buried deeper
    Staining your fingertips with memories of me
    Alive in your soul and dead beneath your feet
    Higher above you than ever before
    You fall to your knees and can no longer breathe

  • Tarryn commented on the post, both 4 years, 5 months ago

    They are both all consuming.
    One lets his flames slowly flicker, blossoming up the curtains and licking at the walls. Carefully confining me in its warmth.
    The other burns bright and hot, spreading quickly and demolishing all in its path. I am burning and he has no remorse. The other fervently apologizes for destruction and yet…it’s never…[Read more]