• neen1794 commented on the post, flames 4 years, 2 months ago

    The flames of my anger flowed though me in fits and bouts of rage. The tormented soul that lied within me sweating to escape. There is nothing that could cool down the roaring lot of embers. Oh what beauty it would be to shout and scream out to the heavens all the tumult that is within and extinguish the flames.

  • neen1794 commented on the post, cool 4 years, 4 months ago

    Cool beans, I’m f*!$%ing late for everything and I know it’s my own fault. I wish I could stop time, and find a way to be enthusiastic about stuff. I want to do well but don’t care enough to have the stamina and drive. -.-

  • neen1794 commented on the post, musical 4 years, 4 months ago

    Music, whimsical… Did you know that musicians have more gray matter than non musicians, this also goes for people that know two or more languages. They have greater neuroplasticity.

  • neen1794 commented on the post, visit 4 years, 4 months ago

    I want to go visit you, but I highly doubt that I will be accepted with open arms or even a smile on your face, neither genuine or fake. That comes to no surprise to me since, after all, we no longer speak.

  • neen1794 commented on the post, must 4 years, 4 months ago

    I must pass my classes. I must do well, not for others but for myself. There is nothing stopping me but myself. Goodness this is so strange to write about but ’tis my train of thought for the day.

  • neen1794 commented on the post, barrel 4 years, 4 months ago

    A barrel of monkeys!!!!!!!! Oh how I miss my barrel. All my monkey’s have disappeared. It saddens me.

  • neen1794 commented on the post, soil 4 years, 5 months ago

    I have not soiled myself, nor have I stained any part of my being. My soul is not pure and not white, but I cannot say it is unclean. I am simply sun kissed.

  • neen1794 commented on the post, scatter 4 years, 5 months ago

    I want my negative thoughts to scatter. Just jumble up and gather themselves up and disappear. Why can’t that happen?
    Why can’t I just be content with things?

  • neen1794 commented on the post, sate 4 years, 5 months ago

    What is sate? … Oh! like satiate. Ok. Oh how I would love to sate my thirst for love and to be loved. It’s never enough for my soul to be pleased and quenched. My mind is at peace but the arid-ness that remains in my heart is, uneasy.

  • neen1794 commented on the post, determined 4 years, 5 months ago

    I am determined to do better. To do well. To excel. To achieve more than I had originally sought out for. I will do amazingly! Success! :D

  • neen1794 commented on the post, methods 4 years, 5 months ago

    Methods. Methods. Oh how many different methods there are for any given thing. Lets take happiness, oh the countless ways there are that would equate to happiness and each to their own thought and opinion on what it is to each of them.

  • neen1794 commented on the post, roof 4 years, 5 months ago

    We sat on the roof pondering the new beginnings of our lives as we were on the top of the world. We gazed into the horizon and watched the sun light bounce off everything in our sights as it slowly disappeared into the earths caress. We sat, we spoke, we loved and soaked in the warmth of the sun and each other.

  • neen1794 commented on the post, local 4 years, 6 months ago

    I went to the local store… Ok, no. Local. What is near and afjacent to me, you could even say juxtaposed. There is nothing that is local and significant to me. Everything is too far from where I am. I hate it. I want to go somewhere where everything local is near me and of interest and signifucance to me. Please and thank you.

  • neen1794 commented on the post, employees 4 years, 6 months ago

    I’m not an employee. I respond to no one. I work for my share and that is all. I am my own boss.

  • neen1794 commented on the post, measured 4 years, 6 months ago

    Measured is my time here, in your arms. Measured is the amount that I smoke each day. Measured is the amount of food that I eat and water that I drink. Measured are my days here. Do I know the increments? Do I know the time and place? No.

  • neen1794 commented on the post, somebody 4 years, 6 months ago

    I met somebody. Yeah and not just anyone, well, I guess you could say he was just anyone because I didn’t know him before I met him. He’s someone new and he was funny and cute and making out was pretty great. I love meeting new people.

  • neen1794 commented on the post, themselves 4 years, 6 months ago

    Let them be themselves. Let them be. Allow them to partake in their everyday debauchery and merriment. Let them be frivolous and wasteful if they wish. Let them be destructive. Just let them be. Let me be.

  • neen1794 commented on the post, teach 4 years, 6 months ago

    Oh to be taught and learned. I wish I could simply load my brain with the information and skills that I need, so as to avoid so much wasted time. Goodness, the amount of time that I waste is simply abominable. I wish I could, undo, rewind and fast forward so many moments in life (and slow some down as well).

  • neen1794 commented on the post, ground 4 years, 6 months ago

    Ground… to be grounded, not in the way that a parent puts a child into penitence and has them under basic house arrest. No. Ground, to be grounded and of sound mind. To be wise and not confounded. Be of common sense.

  • neen1794 commented on the post, interest 4 years, 6 months ago

    Oh goodness, what is my interest?? I have so many at the moment, I will call them wishes. I wish to be with him again, I wish to get over him, I wish to have fun again, I wish to be loved and wanted again and better, I wish so much and I am simply interested in being happy. Just the utterly contentedness that I had achieved before all this…[Read more]